Accident

Hello,

Well, I feel better after venting in my last entry.

On another note, I got into a car accident while I was on the job. This woman rear ended me. It was kinda hard and she almost rammed me into a huge truck waiting at a stoplight. This is the second time I've been hit in the past 3 months.

Her damage was far worse than mine. She drove an Impalla. The hood was all messed up. So let that be a lesson to all of you thinking about buying an Impalla. I was in a Chevy Cobalt and although the rear was all scratched and there was a crack, there were no major dents.

We both walked away with no injuries. I do have a seatbelt mark on my chest. Luckily that's all I got.

I gotta say that I was lucky today. I don't know what I woulda done if one of us had to go to the hospital.

Anyways, enough for now. Ciao.

Anger Management Entry

Hello there,

I am feeling a little under the weather right now. I am supposed to be at work now but I am here in bed typing this. I will go in later since I don't want to lose out on a whole day's worth of pay.

I am feeling a little burned out from my job, so I think taking a few hours off will help me feel better. I just work so hard for so little money. This month I can barely pay the freaking bills. I didn't splurge. Yeah, I did go out and buy a few things. But I should be able to spend a little money for fun each month, especially because I am a single gal with no family to support. And next month will be hard too because of the holidays.

I am also feeling a little depressed. I am confused with my life now. I am about to turn 25 ( at the end of the month) and I don't really know if I am going down the path I want.

I also feel so alone right now. I am not out there looking for someone to fill my void. When I am dating and really like the guy (or think I do ) I almost feel emptier. I feel alone in a sense that no one understands me or has the time to. I can't really talk to my folks, even though they tell me I can. They would never come to me on their own time just to see how I am doing.  Case in point:

Oh Hi dear. How are you ? How have you been ? Kinda miserable. Why ? I dunno. I guess I am just going through a hard time. Well, I am kinda late for my meeting. And so and so needs me right now.

This freaking happens to me almost 100% of the time. And thanks for listening.

Another case in point:

Happy Birthday ! I just wanted to know if we can go out and celebrate ? I would like to take you out for your birthday. Well, I would love to, but I am really focused and having a productive day. Are you feeling focused and getting a lot done? I just have a lot to do. Oh yes, I got the point very strongly.

Hello, I just stopped by to see how you are doing and tell you about my new job. I just got a 401K so I am saving as well. Oh that's great. I have been so busy lately with so much to do. I have so many people after me for meetings. We just had a show. You don't understand, it's been busy. Hey, after listening to you, I just wanted to thank you for listening and understand me. And thanks for taking the time out to see my brother too after he traveled all the way to see you.

It's no wonder I have issues, and problems meeting quality people in the dating world. Just look at the men I've bitched about on this journal. See the pattern from all of them ? They ignore me, make me feel unwanted and expect me to chase after them.

And now let's look at my folks: I don't necessarily get ignored. But I do get politely pushed away, reminded of how busy they are, and they expect me to do all the legwork in seeing them. Otherwise they wouldn't bother. Oh wait, I shouldn't say that. I may get a phonecall or two, if I am lucky. And while I am on this rant I want to thank a special family member for after a whole year of being away in Europe and promising to see me at the airport for ditching me at the last minute. At least you sent someone else to pick me up. Did you know that I had the feeling you wouldn't show ? I even had money set aside to take the cab home. And thanks for not even explaining why.

If some of my folks out there are actually reading this, I will probably get hell for this and told how it's so not true. And how could I say such things ? Blah, blah, blah.  And of all things, how could I just post these things on my public journal ???? Well, I am saying such things because they ARE true, and although I smile and act like nothing is happening when I see you, that doesn't mean I don't feel the lack of love. And besides, I have come to talk to you and given you the opportunity many times to figure out that something is wrong. I never cared about the words you told me. I never listened to them.  I watched your actions which didn't meet your words. I am not an idiot. All I have to do is put two and two together. I know you love me. I am sure if something happened to me, you would feel sad. But your actions which don't meet your words don't show me that. And go ahead and try to make me feel guilty with how busy you are. I do feel guilty, because I see how hard you work and how sometimes people take advantage of your kindness which just makes me feel worse. But I am part of your blood too.

Don't worry, I am not ratting you out here. I didn't actually put names or labels to anything. How do you know I am even talking about you ????

Anyways, I feel a little better now. I am going to have some breakfast, put on my suit and go to work. Then I am gonna study for my work exam so I can kick some ass and get closer to getting promoted.  I am also gonna cross my fingers and hope for some sunshine to lift my spirits.

 

 

 

Election Day

Hello there my lovelies,

This entry will be short because I am so hungry. Anyways, today was election day and I went to vote. I voted by touchscreen which was way cool. I will look in tommorow's paper to see if the initiatives that I voted for passed.

I also went to my dance class and I feel so much better. I stretched and then worked on my routine with the sword. I am getting better with the routine. I am more flexible and more able to balance it on my head without getting whacked.

Okay, I am tired now. Good night.

 

A little something I swiped from someone.

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you? Winston Churchill


2. Where was your first kiss? In the backseat of a car after work.

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? Not that I am willing to admit.

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? Yes, in martial arts class.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people? Yes.

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex? Buffed arms and broad shoulders.

7. What really turns you on? If the guy is intelligent and affectionate.
8. What do you order at Starbucks? Pumpkin Spice Latte with extra whipped creme.

9. What is your biggest mistake? I have to give that some more thought.

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? No.

11. Say something totally random about yourself. I am a total dog lover and I will hug any dog that doesn't look threatening.

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? I have gotten Adriana Lima.

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? Hell no;

14. Did you have braces? No.

15. Are you comfortable with your height? No, I wish I were taller.


17. When do you know it's love? When you don't have to ask yourself, "Is he the one?"

18. Do you speak any other languages? Yes.
19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon? No.

20. What magazines do you read? People en espanol, Cosmopolitan, Maxim.
21. Have you ever ridden in a limo? Yes.

22. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? No one that I was really close with, yet.

23. Do you watch mtv? When I am around a TV.

24. What's something that really annoys you? Neigobor's music that rattles my windows, people talking during a movie.

25. What's something you really like? Bellydance.
26. Do you like Michael Jackson? Nope.
27. Can you dance? Yes, I think I can.

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up? All night.
29. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? Nope *knocks on wood*

30. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out? Yeah.

Fun at the Firehouse

Hello all,

I am gonna be honest. Today sucked. I am exhausted and I have a headache. The weather was gloomy. So for that reason I won't talk about today anymore.

Let's talk about last night. Last night was fun. I lived 2 minutes away from a firehouse. Last month I had to pick up one of the firefighters there to rent him a car. To make a long story short, they invited me back for dinner at the firehouse. Well, I didn't go back due to the fact that I am kinda shy.

So I got a call last week from one of the firefighters. In addition to asking me to give him the number to another Enterprise location, he also wondered why I didn't stop by.

So I decided to go yesterday with my friend who was more than willing to go with me. We bought a chocolate cake and gave it to them. They invited us in and we had some cake. They also gave us the grand tour of the firehouse and the fire truck. They let us wear their gear. Next time I go back I am gonna take some pictures.

One of the guys there loves Desperate Housewives so he turned it on and we watched it together. Then I eventually convinced him to watch the reruns of Sex and the City with me.

I eventually had to go home because I had to get up early this morning. They were a blast to hang out with. I also have their entire schedule for the rest of the year and the phone number of one of the guys. I guess I better use it as my holiday party is gettting closer and closer.

On another note, my mom gave me Austrian chocolates today. My grandmother in Austria sent us a bunch of goodies. And I devoured a couple. So so so so good. Austrians sure know how to do desert right.

I also went to the eye doctor today. To make a long story short, my contacts aren't working out too well because my eyes are dry. So he put in collagen plugs in my eyes so that my eyes retain moisture better. I know that women put collagen in their lips. I didn't realizes that the eyes were an option.

Anyways, enough for now. I'll update later. Ciao.