My Ramblings of the day

Hello all,

I was listening to my favorite alternative song. It's my fave because I love the guitars and how the artists kind shouts while he sings. I love alternative songs where the artist is passionate whether he/she is excited, angry or confused. The song is Bottom of a Bottle by Smile Empty Soul. So anyways, I was listening a little closer and I realized that the song was about this guy who's depressed and how he gets over it thru drugs and alcohol. I was relating to him until he was talking about drugs and alcohol, lol.

This morning is one of those mornings. I just don't wanna get outta bed. Last night I had an awful dream. Not really a nightmare, but a dream thats more close to reality. I ain't gonna lie. I feel so shitty. At least I don't feel as shitty as I did yesterday. Thankfully I have things to do today and I can't afford to just lie here in bed all day.

Last week I was excited and confident about finding a new job and my new place and I was coming along in dance. This week I just don't know anymore. I am sick of all the changes. I wish I could be settled a while before I make the next change. Right now I feel awful. I feel so alone. Alone in a sense that no one really can relate to how I feel.

I did a dance performance yesterday. I wore my new costume. My friend and I performed and it was a lotta fun. They loved us.

I really love bellydance with all my heart. I struggle with the moves sometimes. But it's a nice feeling to get all dolled up and pull it all off. I am still practicing with the sword, but it requires a lot of arm and back strength and I am still working on that part. I can't wait till I get to perform with the sword in public. We have our big performance in March.

I love practicing dance because its a good workout. But also because it makes me feel better.  If I feel like shit, sometimes dancing makes me feel better.

Okay, I am gonna get out of bed now and get stuff done. Enough bitching, lol.

Ciao.

My Coworkers are sick !!

Hello All,

I work with four other men. And for the most part they joke around with me like a guy. Today my assistant manager decided to take a huge dump, photograph it with his camera phone and send the picture to me. Then him and my othercoworker eagerly waited for me to receive the picture and giggled like schoolboys when I finally did. This is the same dude that likes to burp and fart in my direction.

Yesterday was funny too. His wife is newly pregnant so he was trying to find a gynecologist for her. We were all bored and had no customers so he was asking me to help him find one. Never have I ever had a man ask me about a gynecologist. Anyways, he called our healthplan and was joking with the secretary. Some of the things I heard him say:

"No, this is not for me."

"Isn't it wierd that me, a dude is asking you to help find me a gynecologist?

"Don't you think it's wierd that male gynecologists know more about the vagina than most women.?"

I thought it was sweet of him to do that for his wife.

Anyways, on to other things..................................

Bellydance Superstars are back in town and they will be performing in about 2 weeks. I am so excited to see them again. I saw them in Barcelona and they were so beautiful and graceful. Very inspiring.

I also practiced some more moves after work today. I love to just get up and dance freestyle. But I wish I knew how to choreograph routines. I know a few routines that were taught to me, but I wish I knew how to choreograph routines and then actually practice my own stuff.

I also danced with the sword again today. I realized that I have to build more strengh in my upper arms and my quads before I will be able to do the routine properly. But I am improving and it's only a matter of time.

Anyways, off to chill out. Ciao.

 

 

Yay for a half day !!!

Hello there my lovelies..........

Today is a half day from work. I am taking as many half days that I can get away with, which is once a week so far. I need free time during the week. I think I can take one more next week without my boss saying stuff to me. What is a girl to do ?  I know, since my bosses are all males I can say that I have some serious women problems and need to go to the gynecologist. They'll be so grossed/wierded out that they won't even bother to question me. lol. And knowing how amazingly sick my imagination is I can dream up some nasty female sickness.

Anyways, the weather BLOWS today. It is cold and rainy. When I go back to work I am sure that our car prep won't be there. If I have to walk out there and vacuum, I am gonna have a real bitch fit. I am STILL getting over bronchitis and they really don't care.

On another note, I found the music video for the song Pretty Girl by Sugar Cult. I LOVE that song. They played it for a short time before the band just disappeared. I love it so much that I added it to my My Space profile. But knowing me, I am sure I'll change my music video again soon.

Okay, enough for now. Talk to y'all later. Ciao.

My 1st Spanish Entry

Hola,

Tengo que escribir, pero no quiero que ciertas personas entiendan. Me siento tan confundida con mis padres ahora. Me siento tanto rabia ahora. Y cuando hablo con mi madre ella sabe que no me siento normal.

Normalmente no grito, pero cuando hable con mi madre, tuve ira en mi voz. Ella quiere saber lo que me molesta, pero no puedo decirle sin problemas.

 

What is up???

Hello there my lovelies,

I am exhausted. I have a lot going on in my life right now. So much to do in so little time.

What else? My face is breaking out ALL OVER. I don't understand. I haven't broken out like this since I was a teenager. I look awful. My coworker decided to tell me that I am breaking out. As if I didn't already notice.

I went to the doctor today and he told me I am still not fully over my bronchitis. He said that my nose and throat are swollen after looking inside. He also said that I probably have allergies. I didn't know that. I have been bragging to people that I don't have allergies. Well, I guess I was wrong after all.

So, he gave me a steriod for my lungs and an antihistimine for my sinus. I have to take them both and I feel tired and dizzy. I just wanna lie down and stare at the ceiling for a while.

Did I mention that at work we have a bum that sleeps in our parking lot? Really makes our office look attractive. I work close to a homeless shelter and this dude likes to camp out during the day. Why won't he pick another parking lot ? I am getting tired of being stared at while I check in cars.

Speaking or cars, I had to wash and vacuum more cars yesterday. Our car prep decided not to show up AGAIN. So I was sitting in the car and vacuuming and when I got up, I saw nasty dirt streaks all down my pants. I was pissed. Rental cars are so nasty. I should be out marketing and seeking out new business. Instead out office is a little understaffed and I am forced to do the most basic duties. This is so not what I went to college for.

Plus, we have mice. I saw this mouse run out from the cabinet to the bathroom. It was a cute creature with beady little eyes that just scurried about. We were having our morning meeting and it decided to surprise us all.

Anyways, that is all for now. Ciao :)