Hello everyone,

It was finally nice to see the sun today. It really helped with my mood. I've been having a rough week. I also bought a lot of my cake decorating supplies for my new class. After I am done with this entry I have to do a little more shopping for the rest of the stuff. I also gotta bake a cake good enough to decorate by Sunday. I can't wait to decorate my first cake.

Yesterday I also took my first lesson with my new dance teacher. She is very pretty and very good at the moves. Her class was a little workout. I am looking forward to the next class.

I have been feeling really sad lately. I mean, this afternoon was really hard to get through. Luckily I've been getting calls from my friends and even my grandma. My grandma almost never ever calls me, but she called me today to see how I was doing. My good friend Mike from work also called me, but I was busy. I haven't talked to him in a while. I'm gonna give him a call tommorow.

What else? My good friend that taught me how to dance with the sword is leaving to Finland next week. She is gonna be gone for three weeks. I'm really gonna miss her.

I also have boy issues that I need to write about. I don't understand men sometimes. In fact, I almost never do. He is either into you or he isn't. I absolutely hate playing the guessing game. But I am not gonna get into it now. I'll write about it later.

Ciao for now.

 

Hello there my lovelies,

Wow. This weather sucks. I really hate checking people into cars in pouring rain. I also hate driving in the rain. Yesterday our office flooded. The roof was soaked as well as the walls and carpets. Our computers and keyboards were also soaked. The whole office smelled like rat piss and fermented ass. It still did today and I am sure it will tommorow.

Today a cleanup crew came to break down our little office cubicles and dry out our carpets. I am just afraid that we might have a mold/mildew problem and I don't wanna be breathing mold particles. My friggin' district manager refuses to replace the carpets. I wish they would stop pretending that they care about us.

And as for yesterday's entry, I did get heat for the posting. But I knew that would happen. I am upset and had to let out my anger somehow. I also got into a heated argument with my mother. I never argue or even raise my voice to her. And today I yelled at her. I feel bad.

I am very tired so I am gonna have to end here. Ciao.

Hello,

First of all, I gotta say that this weather stinks. I really miss the sunshine. Nothing better than the sunshine on my face. At the last branch I worked at I used to sit in a chair outside and just bathe in the sun. It felt so good.

I feel so betrayed right now. I realized even more that the life I've been living has been an absolute lie. I am so upset and hurt. Not the hurt that I cry over and feel better after. It's hurt that just stuns me, sits and resides in me and haunts me from time to time. And I don't know if it will go away. I've never really cried over it. I can't. I can't really get into the details here. For starters, it's just too much. And also, I know I am gonna get heat for posting even this much. But I don't care anymore. I am willing to take the heat.

Anyways, Apprentice is on. Ciao.

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Hello there my lovelies,

Today I am useless. I just lied in bed all morning. I also watched Ace Ventura: Pet Detective. I haven't seen that movie in over 10 years. I still think it is so friggin' hilarious. I used to watch it with my brother all the time and we would imitate him. I am definitely an odd ball. I love his humor as well as potty humor and dirty jokes.

I have my cake decorating class today. I really wanna learn how to decorate cakes. This week I will also look for a new bellydance teacher and take my first class with her. I thought about leaving the last troupe, but I might stay around to do the sword routines. But I know that I don't have time to learn and new dance routines.

I think I kinda felt depressed last week partly due to the fact that I wasn't practicing for a couple of weeks because the studio at SJSU is closed for spring break. I will start up with sword practice again next week. Bellydance really is one of the loves of my life.

I also started volunteering for the Immigration and Citizenship Program here in San Jose with CET. I volunteer on Saturdays when I don't have to work. I helped people fill out the N-400 forms. I helped translate a little too from Spanish to English. They have a practice form in Spanish, but the final form that is sent to the INS must be in English. It is definitely more fulfulling than my current job.

I speak enough Spanish to get by, but I still have trouble following everything. And just because the person can read Spanish on their forms doesn't mean that they understand all the terms. People come from all walks of life and not everyone is educated. I really had to be patient and learn how to help people hurry without being rude. It was hard at times trying to explain to people the terms. But at least most people were patient with me. It's interesting to see where people come from, and their past.

After I voluteered I did some serious retail therapy. I bought some work clothes and some really sexy shoes. I also bought more stuff from Baby Phat. Those are really the only jeans out there that can fit my ass. I do not have a small butt. I dunno who in my family has a big butt, but it was handed to me. I think that it was both my grandmas.

 I also saw Ice Age: The Meltdown. That squirrel in the movie was so freaking hilarious. His nutchasing scenes really made me laugh. The rest of the movie was funny, but the squirrel really made me laugh.

I went to the mall and movie alone, and I really enjoyed my alone time. I do love to go out and hang out with people, but I also value my alone time.

Okay, that's enough for now. I should get some cleaning and laundry done.

Ciao.

Hello there my lovelies,

I am really not happy about this crappy weather. I looked at the 10 day forecast, and it's all rain. Rainy weather makes me sad, and I really could use some sun right now. My guess is that there will be rainy weather till May or June. That's what happened in the years before.

I am also not stoked about having to set the clock one hour ahead. As if time doesn't fly fast enough. But the bright side is that at least the sun will be out longer. So after I get off work, it will be light out and I can feel like there will be more of the day to enjoy.