My first letter of appreciation

Hello there my lovelies,

I have worked in customer service for a while now. And last week I received my first letter of appreciation from one of my customers that works at one of the dealerships. It was so nice of him to do that for me. I did go out of my way for him, but I also do that for most of my customers without thinking twice.

If I get wonderful customer service I thank the person profusely or tip well, but that's it. I really don't go farther than that. But this man that wrote me a letter made me think twice about writing letters. Next time someone goes out of their way for me, I'll write a letter.

That letter made me feel so good. I bust my ass and sometimes I just feel burned out. And this guy realized that and went the extra mile for me.

My random thoughts

Hello there my lovelies,

Well my Aunt Flo likes to visit me once a month and raise hell. Every woman has an Aunt Flo. And yesterday was my lucky day. I am in so much pain. I don't even want to have children. Can't I somehow waive this part of womanhood?

Work has been so busy lately. I looked at my paycheck and I wanted to cry. I looked at the section of the taxes held for my W2, and it is almost as much as I took home so far this year. I am not rich. I am struggling. I work over 60 hours a week for such little pay. I can make time to look for another job. But I can't make time to go on interviews. People that work where I work totally understand where I am coming from. I can't just up and quit because I live from paycheck to paycheck. 

I want to work for the Federal government, but getting those jobs are so difficult. I don't even know where to begin. There has got to be something better out there. I just have to be positive.

I did get my first issue of my Bellydance magazine in the mail. It was so exciting. There were articles and advertisements. It's the only magazine where I actually enjoy the advertisements. It only come four times a year, but its totally worth the wait.

I studied Spanish from Spain and lived in Barcelona for a year, so the Spanish I learned there is different from the Spanish here. People here that speak Spanish mix in English into the vocabulary. I don't like americanized Spanish. I like Spanish that is rich in the culture. If I am gonna learn a language, I want to learn it the right way. I believe that learning the language of another country is the key to understanding its culture.

Oh, and how could I forget to write about Brad. I saw him a couple of weeks ago. I had a nice evening. We had fun. I like the guy, but I also realized that I should just let him go. He is going through a lot and he needs his space. I tried to be there for him, but he wouldnt let me and told me that I wouldn't understand his pain. I learned that the man isn't that into me, even though he said he was.

I don't want to be angry with him, so I told him that I am moving on and that he doesn't have to worry about me calling him and texing him anymore. I told him he can call me when he's ready to let me in and allow me to really be a part of his life.

He may or may not. Either way, the ball is in his court. And I am done making the move. I gave it my all, so when I told him I was through calling him, I meant it. And even if he does come back ( I have no reason to believe he will) and I am with someone, thats his loss and he's gonna finally understand how I've felt.

Anyways, I've said enough for today. I am gonna go do something useful. (Like clean my room.)

Ciao.

 

 

 

Nice Sunday :)

Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday I went for a followup appointment with my optometrist. Turns out that my vision is 20/10, which is better than 20/20. It is so wonderful that I can finally wear sunglasses. It is also nice that I don't have to wear glasses all the time.

Today I had brunch with my girlfriends in San Francisco. My best friend from college is getting married and us gals are her bridesmaids. It was a nice brunch, but I could also see that we changed a lot since college.

The weather in the city was absolutely gorgeous. I went for a walk and took in the sunshine. Afterwards I practiced some dance moves with my friend. It was a nice workout.

Tommorow I have to go back to the daily grind. I needed this three day weekend badly. Even though I was useless on Friday because of my eye surgery, it was the best sleep I had in a long time.

Anyways, I am gonna sign off now.

Ciao.

No More Glasses

Hello there my lovelies,

I finally did it !! I had eye surgery yesterday and now my vision is perfect. My eye doc said my vision is 20/10 which is better than 20/20. I have some scars on my eyes, and my eyes are still sensitive, but I should be all healed within a couple of weeks.

I was so nervous before the surgery. The procedure only took 15 minutes, but I still had to have my eyes looked at before I went into surgery. The docs gave me various eye drops and valium to calm my nerves. So many people that have had lasik before told me that it was fast and painless.

It wasn't painless for me. My eyes are sensitive and I would rather go to the dentist to have my teeth drilled. It was painless for the most part, but when the doc put the vacuum on my eyeball to make the cut I freaked out. I saw black and stars for a few seconds and that freaked me out too. Without my vision I feel powerless.

But my doc did a wonderful job and the staff was nice to me. I would totally recommend him. After I was done I went down to the pharmacy to buy some sleeping pills and junk food. Those sour cream and onion chips and that rocky road candy bar that I had was the best junk food ever. I felt I was entitled after all the stress I went through.

After I got home I went to sleep and slept for the rest of the day. It was the best sleep I had in a long time.

Anyways, thats all I have to say for now.

Ciao.

 

Happy 4th of July !!!

Hello there my lovelies,

Well, I must say that its been quite a while since I've updated here. Wow.

Happy 4th of July to you all. I am staying home today. I could go out and watch the fireworks, but I don't feel like going downtown without makeup. I am gonna have Lasik on Friday and I am not allowed to wear makeup three days before. I am nervous about the procedure.

Well, y'all know that I want to work for Department of Homeland Security and work with people trying to immigrate here to the US. The process of getting a job is absolutely frustrating. I don't even know where to begin. I have applied to so many positions and the process of applying to each position is grueling. Not only do you have to read this long ass list of descriptions and requirements. I also have to answer a long questionaire, fax my resume AND other documents such as transcripts.

 I always get rejection letters saying that I'm not even qualified. Which I know is bullshit in some cases. For example, I applied to a secretarial position. I speak Spanish, have experience performing secretarial duties AND I have a degree in business. I was floored.

But lately, I got some letters saying that I am QUALIFIED, but that they selected others more qualified than I am and that they might consider me later. THAT is a step in the right direction. At least I got considered. I mean, normally I would have considered that rejection too and felt bad. But after all the "Sorry, you're not qualified" letters that have flooded my mailbox, I figure that things can only get better.

I am gonna keep doing all the grueling work. I feel like I am wasting my time. But I am gonna keep applying for these jobs, no matter how many times I get rejected. I am so overworked in my current job. There is no fucking way that I can continue to live like this. I mean, whats the worst that can happen ?

Right now I have a lot of debt and my paycheck mainly goes to paying off my debts because I don't earn that much. There has got to be a better way. And I just need to keep my head up and continue to think positive.

I sleep on an air matress. Ever since I came back from Spain a year ago and got a car and had other bills to pay a bed was not a high priority. But now I think it would be nice to sleep on a real bed. I looked around at different places and didn't realize how expensive a bed is. Maybe I can finally get one when my tax return comes in.

Anyways, I am gonna go for now. Ciao Ciao.