Sunday Funday Ramblings................

Hello There My Little Butterflies,

And how is your weekend might I ask ? I am starting to do my taxes. Not very fun at all....... God I hope I get a decent refund. I could use the money.

If I got a nice fat check, you know what I would do with it ? I would use it to go skydiving. It's on my bucket list, and for all we know I could die tomorrow so let's get this one out of the way. I've been trying to go since I was 18. A family friend promised he would take me after I turned 18. That never happened. Then when I was in college, I signed up to skydive, and that trip got cancelled. Now everyone I ask is either too broke or scared to do it.  And I want this to be the year that I jump out of a plane.

I recently bought The Secret on DVD and watched it. I enjoyed it a lot. It basically talks about the Law of Attraction. While I feel there are a couple of flaws in the film, I enjoyed it overall.

One of the things that was discussed was that you should focus on what you want, instead of putting your attention on things that aren't going your way. Which means that you could keep a gratitude journal and write down things you are thankful for.

I do have to say that I am thankful that I am currently healthy and able to take care of myself independently. I am also very grateful for my family. I have the best grandparents a girl could ever ask for, aunts that have looked out for me when others didn't and my dad who is taking great care of my grandparents. I can say that my family looks out for one another. And for that I feel very blessed. I am also very lucky that I still have a job in this economy. I am knocking on wood as I write this, but at least for now I still have my job and I feel blessed. We just let go of another one of our coworkers who was there the longest, and it was a hard pill to swallow.

One thing I don't agree with in The Secret is that everything that comes your way is a result of your thoughts. I don't always agree with that. Sometimes things happen that we have no control over, such as a death in the family or a disease. Sometimes things happen to us because they are lessons in life we have to learn the hard way and can't avoid them. So for that, I disagree. Especially since bad things can happen to us as children.

However, after certain events happen to us, I do agree that we can control how we move forward and live our lives. After you lose a job, you can control how you handle the job search.

Overall I believe in the Law of Attraction because positive does attract positive, and at the very least, being happy makes going through life a helluva lot easier. You may not always get what you want, but at the very least you have a good attitude, which makes life easier.

Okay my little delicate friends, it's time for me to log off for now. Till next time !

Butterfly kisses !

Thursday's Thrust

Hello There My Little Ducklings,

I love all my readers, and although I like to gawk at male meat, I also realize that I don't want to alienate my male readers.

So............. here. Gawk at this............

A lot of the male readers I have love Penelope Cruz. I love her too. What I love most about her is that she's not afraid to go out without makeup. I remember when I first saw her on TV doing an interview. She had her hair down with no makeup. Clearly comfortable in her own skin.

I hear she is dating Javier Bardem. I loooove me some Javier Bardem.

Enough talking and more showing..............

If I were a fuzzy little cub on Hump Day...........

This is where I would be..........

I know that I've featured him a couple of times before, but I'm gonna do it again and probably again in a few more months. This man is so damn fine, and of all the fine famous men in the world, he is the one I am most attracted to.

This is the epitome of what I would look for in a man. He is a beautiful man inside and out and I can't say the same for the other men out in Hollywood.

But if Eduardo is out doing errands and can't meet up with me, I would gladly meet this......

This, my little furballs, is Adam Rodriguez, who stars on Ugly Betty as Hilda's boyfriend.

Okay, enough men for now. I will make sure I bring something for the Thursday Thrust for all you male readers out there.

Besitos !

Ramblings of the week.............

Hello There My Little Chocolates !

So I took the lightrail to work today and it smelled like old, homeless ass. Which isn't too much of a stretch, since I've seen a few homeless guys on the trains. Last week one of the guys pretty much coughed in my face. He didn't do it purposely, he just didn't give a shit. I got up and immediately walked to the other side of the train.

Today's train just smelled more fermented today than it usually does. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

There was also this middle-aged Filipina lady that got on after me. She was looking out the window and having conversations with herself in Tagalog. I looked and saw no earpiece, so she had to be having a one-on-one with herself. I didn't pay much attention after that. (I hope she gave herself good advice ! )

Until she started singing like a cat. Meow ! Meow ! Meow ! Meow ! (And not the Meow Mix commercial)  While she was excercising her vocals, I noticed a mole the size of a spider on her face, with hair coming out in all directions.

I remember when I used to work at Staples as a cashiering wench. We had a lot of customers with moles the size of spiders on their faces with hairs the size of daddy-long legs coming out. And it was just too hard not to look away. Some of these people would move real close to my face to speak too.


Did I also mention that the neighbors little rat dog decided to leave a little brown present on our carpeted floor by my apartment door ? This dude lives right across from me, and his dog shat in our little corner. Thank God it wasn't on our welcome mat. My roommate is kind of a neat-freak and wasn't happy about the presents left by our door.

I decided not to do anything about it, or say anything because the guy across from me has always offered to help me move heavy boxes, and saved my ass when he saw me lifting a heavy bookshelf by myself up the steps. He was waiting in his car for his wife and kids in the freight zone, got out and helped me. It was really nice, especially since it was raining outside. So I decided not to stir up shit (pun intended) with the neighbors. I let sleeping dogs lay. ( Pun not intended)

And he is forgiven for owning a little rat dog, since he is married.

Other than that my little chocolate delights, I am still cleaning house. I stumbled across old letters and e-mails. Letters from my grandparents and aunts and uncles. They were really looking out for me over the years. I will continue to save letters from family. My grandmother's notes to me are very precious, from both grandmothers. I have a huge stack of handwritten notes and cards with handwritten notes from my grandma and grandpa. Thankfully even though they have a computer, they still believe in the written word.

I also found my dad's letters. I saved almost all of his cards and letters he wrote with his words of wisdom.

Speaking of my dad, he has been holding down our family. He has been taking care of my grandparents and running their business, as well as my former stepmother. My former stepmother was recently diagnosed as possibly terminally ill ( don't want to put it all out there) and my dad stepped up to the plate and is taking care of her. She is too young to have an older person's disease and needs all the love and support she can get, and my dad is doing all he can for her.

And for that he should be recognized. My grandmother tells me all the time how wonderful he is. I hope that my stepmom feels better with my dad there and heals faster.

And I hope my dad gets a vacation after all is said and done. He deserves it.

So that is all for now loves.

Clutter Be Gone.

Hello There My Little Fuzzy Ducklings,

First of all, me love you readers long time ! Thank you so much for your kind comments. It really means a lot to me. I feel better that so many of you can relate. Thank you for sharing that with me.

Ever since 2010 rolled around, I feel like this has been a different year all around. All I can equate it to is someone lighting a fire under my ass. I've never felt the urge to evaluate myself more than in this year. This year started off with me moving. I wonder what else will happen. I also joined a new gym today. It's pretty nice, and across the street.

Last year was calm and quiet, and I did a lot of thinking, writing and relaxing. I basically took it easy because I had just graduated and I wanted to relax for a little. No new job, no new friends, nothing really exciting. I did graduate, move and go on interviews, but it wasn't really a year of change. It was more of a year of reflection.

My mind doesn't allow me to just sit around and relax this year. This year, I have been forced to take a good look at myself and see what I've done with my life, what I could've done and what I should be doing. I recently found out my old college roommate is expecting her first child. We met ten years ago and used to talk about getting married, having kids and what our careers would look like. She followed through on what she wanted. I feel like I've barely begun to scratch the surface. And it's sad because we lead such different lives. We used to be best friends, and we traveled together. And even though we still keep in touch it's obvious that we've both gone in different directions.

Basically, I don't want to live life the way I've been doing in the past decade. I feel like I don't have much to show for it. Don't get me wrong, I didn't just sit on my ass all this time. I went to school, traveled and busted my ass in finding out my true passion in life. I just don't have any solid evidence of it other than my diplomas and certificates.

I don't want to hold on to the past like I've been doing. I don't want to hang onto old experiences, I want new ones. I am tired of looking back on my travels abroad and wishing times were the same. I am tired of reminiscing about my early twenties when I was a little more carefree and was twenty pounds lighter.

So this past weekend I went through my closets and got rid of two boxes worth of pictures, letters, cards, documents and souvenirs I collected in Barcelona. I also got rid of half of my yearbooks of my awkward years in high school. Then I got rid of tons of old e-mails.

I can't tell you how much better I feel. That was the best therapy I've ever had. I still have a long way to go. I want to be a minimalist and get a grip on organizing my papers and things. I've always been bad at that. I feel that if I can get better control of what I think, I can gain more control over my life.

I also stumbled upon my old diary that I started writing ten years ago. OMG, how awkward ! I read that and cringe. It's funny how I used to think of boys and what my expectations were of relationships. It was also amusing to see how closed off I was from the real world.

Anyway, I am sure I will be back soon with another smart ass post. But thanks for being there dear readers.

Besitos !