Saturday, May 30, 2020

2020- What a time to be alive, huh?

Hello My Little Ducklings,

What a year, huh? When the new year first hit, I had grand plans of traveling overseas this year, since I haven't been overseas since 2013. I wanted to visit family in Austria and visit other countries I've never been to before such as Poland, or possibly the Balkans. Hahahahahahaha!! Definitely not happening now, for obvious reasons aka CORONA VIRUS. But also, let's just say if I were crazy enough to venture out during such a time, my passport is expiring soon, and the Dept. of State is not issuing any new passports unless it's an emergency. Also, I would hate to be stranded abroad due to virus issues and border closings. I think I will just stay put here at home for a while longer.

Also, in late January, early February I got a nasty flu. I will never know if it was the Corona virus, and probably not, but I was really sick for a good week or two. My legs were aching, I was lightheaded, I lost my sense of taste, and I had a nasty fever, I was m i s e r a b l e. I cried a lot, and sweated so much I soaked the bed at night.

What else, I also lost a long-time friend I had made in Florida. We were friends for about six years. It basically ended over a meme over a communism pun I posted on Facebook. She decided to retaliate and basically left choice words on a holocaust remembrance post of mine and then deleted all of my comments I left on her other posts and blocked most of what I could see on her wall. I couldn't believe it, as my Polish coworkers grew up in the Communist era and thought the meme was funny. No talking to me and explaining her feelings, no texting me in private. I actually tried reaching out to her to talk to her, but she was non-responsive, and would not take my apology.

And she had actually done this to me four years ago, and the only reason we made up was because I reached out to a mutual friend after she blocked me, and he coaxed her into messaging me. So we cleared the air and became friends again.

That friend, Jimmy passed away in December 2018. So not only do we no longer have any mutual friends (she burned through them all including Jimmy before he passed) but I got sick of her shit as well. I finally ended up blocking her, deleting her number, and getting rid of anything she ever gave me.

My only regret is that I didn't do it sooner. I never realized how much she was slowly draining my energy the longer our friendship went on. I don't miss walking on eggshells around her, I don't miss her going on political tirades and tagging me on Facebook, and I definitely don't miss her falling out with mutual friends and then pressuring me to avoid them as well. I was starting to resent her, and didn't want to just cut her off. So when this all happened, I was stunned at first, but then realized I got what I had been hoping for after all.

Well kittens, that is all for now. I hope to return and update you all (aka one or two readers lol).