Tuesday, September 27, 2005

What my Birthday Says about me

***Your Birthdate: November 30***

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.
You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.
You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.

You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.
You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.
Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.

There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.
You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

A little journal fun from Kathi

Random Sentence Assignment

1.) Go into your archive.

2.) Find the 23rd post.

3.) Find the 5th sentence of that post.

4.) Post text of sentence with these instructions.

5.) Tag 5 other people to do the same. I hate tagging so I am gonna pretend that I didn't see this instruction.

Here's my sentence:

I am just glad the class is over  Taken from my entry on January 21st, 2004.

Hello All,

I gotta be honest. I am in a crappy mood. It's just one of those days. I feel like I am going nowhere. I have been questioning my life lately and how I am living it and I don't really know what I want. I am not really happy. I can't help it. I am grateful for the things that I have in my life such as my health and family. But I don't know if I am living my life the way I really want.

On another note today I worked out today. I feel like my arms are gonna fall off.

What else ? My new boss is quitting so I will get ANOTHER boss next week. I can't believe it. I go through bosses faster than my meals. I just wonder how the next one will be.

Anyways, thats all for now. Ciao.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Saturday Six

1. Besides your parents or siblings, what family member do you most resemble?

I have my mother's looks and my father's twisted sense of humor.

2. Check out this
interesting website:  Is your hometown newspaper featured?  What is the top headline of that paper or the one closest to you?

California isn't even listed.

3. If you knew it was completely tame and there was no danger, what zoo animal would you most like to pet or come into physical contact with?

I would go and pet the lions. Then I would go to the killer whales

4. Take this
quiz:  How weird are you?

I'm 40% weird. But I know that quiz is wrong. I am weirder than that.

5. Which of the following causes more stress in your life:  your spouse, your kids, your boss, your co-workers, your friends, your parents or other relatives?

My coworkers.

6. You find an old lamp containing a genie:  the genie decides to give you a single improvement for yourself, mind or body.  It must be something to improve within you and no one else.  What would you ask the genie to fix?

I would be more intellectual and more self confident. I know this question said "single" improvement, but who's counting? It's not like there's an actual genie floating around waiting to grant me my wishes.

My weekend at the nail salon :)

Hello Everyone,

I hope y'all are enjoying the weekend. I have a lot of stuff to do, but I woke up real late this morning so my day got pushed back. I don't know why I am so exhausted all the time. Maybe I am starting to get sick. Or maybe I am not getting enough water. I know I haven't been drinking enough.

I have been thinking about Hurricane Rita. Can you imagine evacuating to Texas from New Orleans only to have to evacuate again? I couldn't imagine what these people are going through. It breaks my heart. I live all the way in California so I was not affected by the hurricanes.

Natural disasters can strike anywhere at any time. Disasters can happen to any of us. None of us are immune to this. I remember watching the news about Rita on my lunch break yesterday. I was having lunch in a Taqueria and it was sunny outside and people around me were talking and laughing at their tables. People outside were going about their business. The weather was beautiful. And to think that people were living in chaos a little farther away in my own country was sad. I am glad that the American Red Cross is stepping up to the plate when FEMA can't.

I got paid yesterday. I barely make enough to pay all the bills and do something fun once in a while. I am a college grad. I know I don't have enough of a professional background. And Enterprise is a wonderful training program, which is why I took the job. But I just can't keep living like this. I love my job, but I can't keep living like this. I don't know what to do. Finding a job that I like, let alone whether it pays well enough, is really hard. I mean, at least I have a job. But still, I know that I can do better than this.

Today I went to the nail salon and I got a manicure and pedicure. By the way there the girl that massages my feet after the pedicure is awesome. My feet are in high heels all week so I need a massage.

 I notice how business is for the girls that run the place. It's pretty good. They drive good cars. I have seen them carry bags of stuff from department stores. And they do nails for a living. But they are very hard workers. Always nice and polite, always willing to make that extra appointment after hours, and always upselling. And most of all, always trying to book the next appointment and trying to get me back in.

There has got to be something that I can do where I love my job AND love the salary.

Anyways, that's enough for now.



Friday, September 23, 2005

Glad the Week is Over

Hello All,

I worked out on Monday and I will go again tommorow (Saturday). I should go more, but this is a step in the right direction. I also got paid today, which is wonderful so that I can pay my bills. Every month is the same. Got the same bills to pay. They just never seem to go away :)

I have a new boss now, and this was our first week working together. I am still getting used to him. He doesn't give me as much free reign over the office like my former bosses. I feel like I have less responsibility in the office with him, and I really don't dig that because I am there to learn and move on. But it's not too bad because he doesn't get promoted if I don't do well so I will have to learn a lot more at some point. Plus, he's actually kinda funny.

This week wasn't a good week for rentals. First of all, we were out of cars. That sucks all by itself. Eventually we got people taken care of, but finding cars was hard because our whole region was out. We should have gotten more new cars, but I guess we are still waiting. Of course our area managers will want an explanation when people start complaining.

Second of all, we had some customers that were just being unreasonable. I couldn't believe it. I helped one couple, and drove up to their bodyshop. We looked at the car, I typed up their contract, I went over protection plans, explained everything in detail. I must of spent at least a half an hour. And their insurance was paying for the rental so this wasn't coming out of their pockets. They were gonna have an SUV, it was the last car we had and my manager had to pull teeth to get it. But just after they signed the contract they told me they didn't want it. All they had to pay for was gas and the protection, and they knew the protection was optional. These people are doctors. They then told me they wanted the smallest car, but we were out because we just filled our other reservations. So therefore we were screwed. I would have switched them out into a smaller car the next day, but they wouldn't even take the SUV for one day.

I also had another gem yell at me because I actually had to *gasp* type up the contract. He was coming over to us from the body shop so he expected everything to be done already. When I politely asked for his credit card and explained that we were taking a security deposit and that it was just a hold, and not a sale he yelled again and demanded to know why we were taking his money. Had he listened he would have heard that we weren't taking it. It was a hold. I tried explaining this calmly with a smile on my face but he got up and left and went back to the body shop to complain. Then I got to hear from the guy at the body shop. Yay !!

I also had a married guy hit on me while his wife was waiting for him outside. I could not believe it. He rented from us last week and he was telling me about his two kids and how he took them and his wife to Disney Land. And then he goes and spoils the nice stories he told me by inviting me out to coffee. When I lied and told him I have a jealous boyfriend, he smiled and told me his wife was not jealous. What is wrong with some people?????? I don't go out with married men. And being "unavailable" does not make a man more attractive to me. Married is not "hard to get". To me, it means "off limits" or "run".

Needless to say, tommorow is Saturday and I don't have to work. I am so happy because I need a break so I don't get burned out.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

My Secrets to how I look so good every day :)

Beauty routine in the morning: Straighten my hair, put on makeup

Beauty routine at night: Wash off makeup, put on face cream, shower

Can't-live-without product: Chapstick/Lipgloss

Best mascara: A free gift that I received from a beauty expo in MA

Best foundation: Estee Lauder

Best concealer: Estee Lauder

Dewy or Matte?: Matte

Powder blush or cream blush?: Don't really use it. I blush a lot anyways

Lipstick or lipgloss: Lipgloss

Favorite beauty trick: Sunscreen under my foundation so my face doesn't get burned off

Favorite scent: Curious, by Britney Spears

Favorite body lotion: Anything from Victoria's Secret

Favorite nail polish: A shiny, dark red

Favorite product for pampering: A foot spa to soak my feet

Favorite makeup look: I absolutely love that 1960's look for the eyes

Beauty icons: Jessica Simpson, Eva Longoria

Doing Absolutely nothing

Hello All,

Today I didn't get out of bed till 2pm. I feel so lazy right now. But I have to say that laying in bed in my flannel pajamas did feel really good.

 I did iron some shirts and straighten my hair, but I don't feel like doing anything else. It is just one of those days. I have a lot of other stuff I have to, but I don't know if I will actually get off my lazy ass and do them.

Tommorow I get a new boss. This time he should be around for a while unlike my last three. He is up for promotion so they want to see how he does training me and running our office.

What else? I think I will be resuming my workouts next week. I am not really a workout type of person but I really don't want to have a fat ass. For one, I can't afford bigger clothes. And two, I need to be healthier.

Anyways, thats all for now. Ciao.



Saturday, September 17, 2005

Work and Blind Dates

Hello Everyone,

Today was my first Saturday all by myself running the store. I was pretty busy. I had no cars on my lot so I had to go and drive them back. We close at 12pm on Saturdays and I didn't get to leave till 1:30pm. Wow.

A couple of nights ago I went out with some new girlfriends downtown. We went to dinner and talked. They spoke Spanish so I got to practice a little. They went salsa dancing after, but I didn't go because I had to get up early the next morning. They were a lot of fun to hang out with.

We were of course talking about boys. My friend wants to set me up. Are you a single person that people want to set up ? They all tell you that you'd be perfect for their friend/brother/cousin.........? Well, I am that person. Apparently I am perfect for a lot of people out there.

Anyways, my friend tells me that she has someone for me. He is looking for a girlfriend to treat well and that he has had bad experiences in the past and that he is a good person, ect....... I was listening with wide eyes until she said that he is just "a really nice guy".

When a girl describes a guy as " a really nice guy" a red flag goes up in my mind. So I asked her: "Is he attractive ?" Then she made a face and shook her head. So then I asked her " If you weren't married right now, would you go out with him?" And she kinda laughed nervously and told me that was a good question. She knew where I was going with that.

Most of my gal friends have pretty similar tastes in me as I do. So, if they are going to set me up I always ask if they would go out with the guy. If they say no, I won't let me set them up. If I am going out with a guy, I have to be attracted to him.

And I will give guys that may not be considered as very attractive a chance if they ask me out and treat me right.  But I won't do that on a blind date.

Anyways, that's all for today.


Thursday, September 15, 2005

I found my 71 Year Old Twin

Hello Everyone,

Today I had to help his older lady. I had to drive to her house and pick her up. When I saw her I thought that she was about 45. Then when I had to look at her drivers license I realized she was actually 71. I was so shocked.

She was dressed in the same style of clothes that I would wear to work. She had a hot pink blouse with a blazer. And her shoes were the cutest. They were hot pink sandals that she said were in style when she was my age. Her toe nails were also painted. I sure hope I look like her when I am 71.

She was on her way to a dinner meeting. Seems like she has a busy life. I picked her up at her house and she lives at the country club. The drive there alone was beautiful. As I was getting to her house I saw the sun set against the lake.

I think a lot about my life. I know I won't be in my twenties for much longer. The years will pass me by in a heartbeat. But seeing her gave me hope that I can still be very active and look good when I get to be that age.

My day at work today was pretty much relaxed. I drove brand new cars off the lot today. Yesterday I also drove the 2006 Lincoln Towncar off the lot. It was brand spanking new and covered with plastic. Gotta love that new car smell.

I like the fact that I get to drive brand new cars. I am learning more about cars and the different features. My latest favorite model is the Dodge Magnum. I used to think that the VW Passat or the Jetta were good cars until I actually test drove them. German engineering my ass.

You see, I love the commercials. I love the design. I love the new car smell that seems to linger around for a while. But when you actually drive it, you don't feel very much power. I feel like I have to slam on the pedals to feel any power. And then comes the maintenance costs. Parts are way too expensive. I was told that the dealer doesn't repair parts. They completely replace them. I have had a lot of customers complain about their VWs after the warranty expires. 

Anyways, that is my two cents for the day.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

What a day


Today was just one of those days at work where I was so confused. I was trying to help out a little bit at one of the busiest branches and I didn't know what to do. I don't even work there. I was just helping out while I was waiting for a ride back to my own branch.

Customers came up to me and were complaining that they were waiting for over an hour. I had no idea what the hell I was supposed to do.Saying I am sorry over and over gets old and makes me look stupid. People were telling about how the dealership and the insurance company are supposed to pay for the rental and I was dumbfounded. And I was just beginning to think that I was starting to learn stuff.

I got a car for a customer and drove it down for them at my branch. When I got there they were unhappy because they didn't like the car I brought and were demanding discounts. Luckily my coworker was there and worked it all out. Without him, I wouldn't have known how to handle it without looking like a complete jackass. I am supposed to have a manager there with me at all times, but sometimes I am left by myself and that's when the real test comes.

I did walk around and meet the mechanics in my area. Most of them knew me since I was little so it was cool to catch up a little.

I am still waiting for my new boss to arrive. Who knows if I will even get one at this point.

Tommorow will be another day.

Monday, September 12, 2005

I am broke again...............

Hello Everyone,

I got paid on Friday. And now almost all of the money is gone. I have barely enough for food and gas to last me the next 2 weeks. I spent almost all of it on clothes, shoes, food, books and my nails. I basically went nuts. I didn't really spend my money frivolously. I just blew all the money on things that I've needed/wanted but held off for a while. And it felt so good. At least I didn't charge anything. I only have one credit card and I am not going to get another until everything is paid off on the first one.

I got my nails done yesterday and I always feel so much better afterwards. My hands are looking real good right now. I also got a pedicure. The girl there also massaged my feet afterwards. That felt so good. I am gonna ask her to massage my feet longer and give her a good tip next time. The ladies there are so nice.

Nothing too exciting to report about my job today. I currently don't have a branch manager right now because he got promoted and transferred. So I am working out of another office until the big boss finds me a new manager. This is gonna be real interesting.

Well, that is enough for now. I will update more later. Ciao.


Sunday, September 11, 2005

We Must Never Forget

Hello All,

Today is the 4th Anniversary of the Sept 11th attacks in NY. Unfortunately this year we have bigger problems to worry about such as the aftermath of hurricane Katrina.

I feel that as a nation we are starting to forget about the terrorist attacks, which is still a strong threat. Fortunately, I don't think that we are divided as a nation. I feel that many Americans have come together to help out our fellow Americans with the aftermath of Katrina. In my opinion I don't think that our govt is doing enough, nor have they responded as fast as they could have. I think that they were mainly unprepared. It is the people that are coming together when the govt can't.

The radio stations here in the SF Bay Area have put together fundraisers and drives and people have come and donated. So many people are donating to the Red Cross. And the schools all over the US which are overcrowded enough as it is are continuing to take in students affected by the storm. I like reading about things like this in the newspaper.

Anyways, I hope that y'all have a wonderful Sunday. I bought like three new pairs of shoes yesterday for work. I am also late for my nail appt. Ciao.


Saturday, September 10, 2005

Customer Madness

Hello All,

I just wrote a nice journal entry and with the stroke of one key it all got deleted. That kinda ticked me off a little. So here I am again.

I worked today. This was my first Saturday with Enterprise. I was expecting it to be very slow all day, but we got slammed near the end. My boss was gonna just leave me there all by myself. I am glad he didn't because we ran out of cars while there were customers. We also had a couple of customers being difficult despite me doing everthing I could to help them, so I am glad I had the help. Luckily everything worked out at the end. For a while my heart was skipping a couple of beats.

While I was walking to my apt a bee crawled into my nice pink purse. So when I opened it to look for something I had a nice yellow surprise. I don't even think it was a bee because bees are fuzzier, rounder, more yellow, and cuter than that this thing was. I think I had a wasp or yellow jacket.

I also went out to celebrate a coworker's birthday at an Indian/Pakistani restaurant. Very good food. Indian bread is the best. The food was spicy, but good. I had the chicken, lamb and beef. Every time I eat there I end up rushing to the bathroom. My ass is always on fire after I eat that food. Feels like I am shitting fire. Yet I still eat there. Go figure.

Anyways, I've said enough for now. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Thursday, September 8, 2005

I found this floating around here on JLand and had to do it

7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die   ( In no particular order)

1. Speak five langauges. (English, Spanish,German,Russian,Chinese)
2. Get rich from being so good at my career and from real estate

3. Travel all over the world, especially Europe and countries that speak any of the above five languages.

4. Own a lilac convertible Mercedes Benz with white leather seats

5. Belong to an organization such as the Red Cross and be in a position to contribute my money and time nationally and internationally.
6. Own a dog, like a beagle.
7. Know what it feels like to be in love

7 Things I Can Do  

1. Speak English, Spanish, and German
2. Bellydance
3. Take good photos
4. Make chocolate chip cookies that will knock your socks off
5. Be too hard on myself
6. Do the morally right thing
7. Wonder about my future

7 Things I Can't Do  

1. The front splits
2. Pushups like I used to
3. Cut produce. Nor can I cook for that matter.
4. Drink beer and wine
5. Smoke
6. Statistics. I always switch the variables and flunk the exam
7. I can't stand people that lie to me

7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex ( Actually, IN a particular order)

1. Intelligence
2. Morals
3. Broad shoulders
4. Buffed Arms
5. Latino, Mediterranean, European..........
6. Kindness towards me and others
7. Uniform, lol                                                                                8.) Deep voice, accent                                                                 9.)  Masculine men. Not feminine guys.

Okay, so I listed more than seven. Guess that means I really know what I want ;)


7 Things I Say Most Often

1. "Whatever"
2. "Oh My God"
3. "Thank you for choosing Enterprise, this is Sandra, How can I help you ?"
3. "Shit"
4. "Fu*k !"
5. "Eeeww"
6. "Okay?"
7. "You go, girl!"

7 Celebrity Crushes  (in no order) 

1. Galen Ghering ( Passions)
2. Jessie Metcalf (Desperate Housewives)
3. Vin Diesel
4. Michael Vartan
5. Alejandro Sanz
6. Olivier Martinez
7. Chayanne


Wednesday, September 7, 2005

Updates and Boy talk

Hello All,

I just found out today that my boss got promoted. I just got transferred a week and a half ago and now I am gonna have a new boss all over again. I really hope that he'll be nice. Since there are only two of us in the building I hope that my new boss won't be a jerk. I have a lot to learn about the business so I am hoping my next boss will be patient and kind.

Today I was getting my morning coffee and I saw a German shepherd sitting in the cop car. The dog was sitting directly behind the wheel and panting. It was so adorable. I wanted to go and pet him, but I know how police dogs are so I didn't even get close. But I did talk to the cop. He was funny. He was telling me how he had to clean out all the dog hair before he could sit down.

What else? Well I work in kind of an isolated area, and I really don't deal with a lot of people in our office. So I am happy when anyone comes over. But yesterday a gorgeous Greek engineer hunk dropped off his car and I had to give him a ride back to the office. This guy was really fine and had a nice Greek accent. So we were talking, okay maybe flirting, and he ended up "asking me out for a cup of coffee sometime". And he wrote his cell number on the back of his business card and told me to call him.

See, in my book that's pretty disappointing. Yeah, he's fine and smart and it will probably be a long, LONG ass time before I even see another fine man in my area. Seriously, where I am at it could take months.

But that still doesn't erase the fact that he put it on me to call him. He took an interest in me but he doesn't want to do the work. He couldn't even ask me for my number or lift up the phone to talk to me. He likes me but he wants me to do the work.

And I have nothing bad to say about him. In fact, I still drool when I think about it. But I want to go out with a guy that has a genuine interest in me and at least does a little work in the beginning. I am not asking for much. Just that he pick up the phone and make conversation and invite me out. But I guess nowadays it can be too much sometimes. I know that he's not the only man in this world that has a phone phobia.

If I were to call this guy, I am sure we would go out a couple of times. But I also know that he would lose interest fast in me. Why? Because I made myself too accessable and did all the work. So he would think that I am too easy and there's no more work to be done because I am available when he wants and am doing all the work.

So, I am just going to just say that although be probably found me interesting, he's not all that interested. And why should he be ? I know there are tons of girls that will call him and do all the work.

And I also know that there are men out there that will actually do the work and call the girl. And I am just gonna have to hold out for that.


Sunday, September 4, 2005

A Trip Down Memory Lane

Hello Everyone,

My brother came up yesterday and visited but I missed him and didn't get to see him. I am a little bummed. But he is going to some areas in Louisiana to help clean up and dry out the areas. Of course he can't go to areas most affected because they are still under water. He can only help dry out areas that aren't under water. He is happy to go, and I am happy that he is going to help. My brother has a good heart. You should see him around animals. Animals LOVE him. I remember when our German Shepard had puppies and he helped with the cleanup. That dog always whined and cried for him.

I was online yesterday and it's a relief to see that more help is on the way. Three cruise ships are going to house passengers. Also, many people are opening up their homes to the hurricane victims. Many people just want to do anything they can to help. They want to know that they've done their "human duty".

I lounged around all day yesterday and I feel so much better today. I was pretty much in bed or sleeping for most of the day. I was online a little and I also watched Mean Girls. I love that movie, even though it is kinda stupid. I can watch that movie over and over and it doesn't get old.

I also heard some of my favorites songs yesterday while I was online. Brought back so many memories of me in Barcelona. In fact, I will list them for you.

1.) Rockefeller-- Do it 2 Nite. You can find the music video on http://www.ryoni.com/news/136/ARTICLE/1465/2005-06-30.html

2.) David Guetta-- The World is Mine. http://www.contactmusic.com/new/home.nsf/webpages/davidguettax02x03x05

3.) Gorillaz-- Feel Good Inc. http://forums.ifilm.com/posts/list/1013.page

4.) Despina Vandi-- Opa Opa. (She is Greek.)

Some of these songs aren't very meaningful, and maybe a little trashy. Okay, #2 is a very trashy music video. But they were very popular when I was there, and I can't resist the beats.

These songs bring back memories of me sitting on my balcony and looking out at the gorgeous view of the mountains or the sea. Memories of me taking little weekend trips. Memories of my struggle to get papers and work legally in the European Union. And last but not least, me eating at different restaurants and savoring the awesome Spanish food. Grilled artichokes are so good :)

You know what else brings back memories for me ? Perfumes. I have so many perfume bottles at home. I always buy perfume when I travel. In Spain I bought three bottles.

1.)Curious, by Britney Spears ( My favorite)

2.) Pink, by Lacoste (the commercials prompted me to buy it)

3.) Suddenly ( A cheap German brand that I bought in Spain that I can't get enough of. It reminds me of taking walks and eating ice cream by the temple)

Anyways, that is all for now. Enough of me being sentimental.



Saturday, September 3, 2005

Friday summary and thoughts.

Hello Everyone,

Yesterday I went to San Francisco after work to visit my friend. She was having a going away party for her boyfriend who is going to Harvard for grad school. This was the first time I met him. He is a good guy and I am happy for her.

We went to a Middle Eastern restaurant and then went upstairs to their bar. The bar was on the roof and I had a nice view of the city. Her boyfriend had some nice, hot single male friends so I was talking a lot. :)

I was also very, very exhausted from the week, so I cut the night short a little early to catch BART home. BART is kinda like the metro. I wasn't about to drive in SF. For one, lots of gas money because it's an hour drive. Second, parking is absolute shit, you end up walking a lot anyways, and parking is expensive. Third, there are lots of one-way streets and driving is crazy in the city. So, I took BART and rested.

One the way to SF I was reading the newspaper about Hurricane Katrina and it made me even more sad. I really think that the government could have responded faster. People were saying that the Coast Guard flew over them and left them. People in hospitals were told that the Coast Guard were coming, but they never did. Perhaps it's because they were held up or shot at. Who knows. I listened to the mayor of New Orleans on the radio, and he sounded absolutely shaken and angry. I can't blame him. The US stepped up to the plate with disasters in Thailand and other countries. But not for our own.

What upset me the most is that criminals were released as long as they promised that they would return to prison. Now there are criminals mixed with everyone else, and the authorities can't track them down. And people are being beaten and raped. As if losing everything wasn't enough for them. I hope this doesn't happen next time a disaster strikes. And what about all the looting ?? I can understand people stealing food. But a plasma TV? Where are people gonna plug it in and watch it???

 I also think that though evacuation warnings were issued, that a lot of people didn't listen because they didn't think it would be so bad, or because they had no money or no where to evacuate to. Not everyone has the means to leave.

I live in CA and I don't think that we are prepared for a huge natural disaster. And I can't imagine living in a state without order. I think that if evecuation orders were issued here, more people would leave because we almost never get orders to evacuate here. Down south, I think people were used to hearing them more often.

Today is Saturday and I woke up at 2pm because I was so tired from the week. I will be just lounging around and taking care of errands. I hope to spend more quality time with my family on Labor Day.

I wish you all a wonderful Labor Day weekend and let's keep the victims of Katrina in our thoughts and prayers.

Thursday, September 1, 2005

My deep, random thoughts.

Hello All,

I was listening to the news about Hurricane Katrina and I really feel sad. I am currently in CA where the weather is sunny and life is going on as normal. And in the South people are suffering, dying, going hungry and getting looted. I can't believe that New Orleans is destroyed. People are without electricity, running water, power, food. Can you imagine your city being destroyed? Can you imagine living your whole life there and the next day it gets wiped out ? I can't imagine what these people are going through. It makes me really appreciate what I currently have in my life right now. Yeah, I am struggling right now. But I also have a clean bill of health and my family. As long as I have those, I can move forward and deal with a lot of things.

And anything could easily happen to us. You never know what life can throw your way.

And I don't believe that this is the end. I think that there will be more natural disasters to come in all parts of the world. The weather has been changing and getting more intense. When I was in Spain, we had the hottest summer. And then we had the coldest winter in 20 years that lasted even through Spring. And in California the weather has been colder than normal. It is usually hot at night, but lately it has been cold at night. It hasn't been a normal summer.

I think that the natural disasters will also be more intense as well. Just look at the record tsunami and hurricane not to mention the huge earthquakes in other parts of the world. It just keeps getting stronger and more frequent.

For those that believe in God, I think that the Bible does in fact mention this somewhere.

Don't you feel like this world is going to shit sometimes? I sure do. What do we have to look forward to if everything keeps getting worse? I feel like there is so much negativity out there. I watch the news and wait for something good. And it never comes because the reporters are too busy talking about child molesters roaming the neighborhood, natural disasters, price increases, cuts in the school systems, ect. I don't even watch the news on TV anymore. I am just glad that I am already grown up and that my parents raised me right. I couldn't imagine bringing a child into this corrupt world.

You wanna know what really got on my nerves ? I was listening to the radio and there is a proposed bill about convicted child molesters being required to wear a tracking device for the remainder of their lives. And a public defender was upset because he feels that we should give these guys a second chance because they already did their time in jail. I can't believe that we are so lenient on the worst criminals. These children that are robbed of their dignity will never get a second chance to pretend that it never happened. And yet we, the public are expected to forget that they abused defenseless children and give them a second chance. I don't think they should have that chance. I think they should live in shame for the rest of their lives. They didn't rob a bank or steal a car. They robbed children.

I believe that good will covercome evil. And that goodness will win. But sometimes I still have to wonder why there is still so much evil. It's kind of like a candle. If you are in a dark room, there is darkness and you can't see anything. Once you light a candle there is instant light. The room is no longer dark. It is light. Where there is love there can be no hate. But there is still so much darkness out there.

Now I am not predicting anything, nor am I interested in any debates. These are just my thoughts, and I am not spitting out facts. These are my personal opinions and observations to be taken for what they're worth.

Anyways, have a good night.