Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Hello there my lovelies,

I have a lot going on in my head, and I had a hard day. I will spare the details for now. I'll get into it another day. 

I am starting to exercise less and I need to get back on track. Ever since I started working more hours, I started exercising less. I am gonna start practicing more dance for starters. Then I should go running a little more. I wish my gym was a little less crowded. Too many damn people in line for the treadmill.

I live in a nice neighborhood and I took a walk the other day. It was very nice. I walked down to a pond and there were some ducks. And I saw a mother duck with her eight fuzzy little ducklings walking together and then wading in the pond. It was so adorable. I just stood there and watched the duckies splash around in the pond. It was also so cute watching the duckies paddle around in the water. I wish I coulda played with them.

Exactly one year ago today, I came back home to the States from my year abroad in Europe. I went back and looked at my past journal entries and relived my experiences again. It's amazing how fast a year can fly by. Next month will be my one year anniversary with my job. I wonder what I will be doing exactly a year from now. I hope that I am happy and that I am doing what I love.

Anyways, I am gonna go for now.


Sunday, June 11, 2006

Sunday Ramblings.

Hello there my lovelies,

Well, today is Sunday. It's my only day off and I have no energy to do anything but lie in bed and read and watch TV. I worked a lot harder, not to mention more hours than I normally do. And this is how it's gonna be for while. So I have to get used to this. But I do have stuff to do and a house to clean. So I will pry my ass out of this bed sometime. I have laundry to fold, papers to file, bills to pay.

Pay day isn't coming soon enough. I have until Friday, but I really could use the dough right now. Last month and this month has been really tough for me. I am hoping it will all straighten out soon.

On Wednedsay my friends and I got together and practiced our dance moves. One of the gals brought her beautiful costumes out of her closet and let me try them on. It was a beautiful purple skirt with a gold belt and sequined bra. When I put it on and danced, all of a sudden I became more graceful, my moves more accentuated, and my figure slimmer. I practice all the time in my workout clothes, so sometimes I forget how good it feels to finally dance in a real costume again. She is selling them really cheap, so I am definitely gonna buy when I get paid.

I am also gonna get lasik on my eyes next month. I am so nervous and excited. I can't wait until I can finally ditch my glasses. I am tired of hiding my eyes behind glasses. I am tired of people telling me that they didn't realize that I have beautiful eyes because of my glasses. I am also tired of feeling glasses on my nose, and most of all, tired of them falling down my face all the time.

Anyways, thats enough complaining for now. I'll update more later.




Thursday, June 8, 2006

Hello there my lovelies,

It has been such a long time sine I last updated. I've been really busy. For starters I got moved to another branch. It just happens that this is the busiest branch in the region and 10% of all the business from the region comes from my branch. That means that I am busy from 7am till 7pm, even though we close at 6pm. I am on my feet all day long, and there is usually a line out the door. Yesterday there were no cars and people waited for over an hour to get into a car. Even though I work harder than I do at my last branch, its not so bad. I feel that the people I work with now care about me a lot more than my last branch. Plus, I don't have to do all the pickups and car washes anymore. While I still clean cars, a car prep does help me.

I am embarrassed to say that I still think about Brad. I did really like him and still do and I am hoping that those feelings will run out. He left me a message the other day to say that he still thinks about me and is looking forward to hanging out soon. And I left one back and yelled at him. I used to be so afraid of coming across as a bitch and a nag, especially since he's going through a very rough time right now which is why I can't see him for a while.

But then again, I realized that being nice never did a thing for me. I am not making excuses for him anymore. And if me stating my feelings pushes him away, then I am more than willing to take that risk. I am tired of him saying that he really likes me and wants to get serious with me, but then again he won't let me be there for him. How dare I offer emotional support.

I've gone out on a couple of other dates, and I like to go out when I have time. Clearly I am not waiting for Brad. But I wish that I could stop thinking about him completely. I hate it when I think about him from time to time and miss him.

Anyways, I have to get ready for work now.