Hello there my lovelies,
It has been such a long time sine I last updated. I've been really busy. For starters I got moved to another branch. It just happens that this is the busiest branch in the region and 10% of all the business from the region comes from my branch. That means that I am busy from 7am till 7pm, even though we close at 6pm. I am on my feet all day long, and there is usually a line out the door. Yesterday there were no cars and people waited for over an hour to get into a car. Even though I work harder than I do at my last branch, its not so bad. I feel that the people I work with now care about me a lot more than my last branch. Plus, I don't have to do all the pickups and car washes anymore. While I still clean cars, a car prep does help me.
I am embarrassed to say that I still think about Brad. I did really like him and still do and I am hoping that those feelings will run out. He left me a message the other day to say that he still thinks about me and is looking forward to hanging out soon. And I left one back and yelled at him. I used to be so afraid of coming across as a bitch and a nag, especially since he's going through a very rough time right now which is why I can't see him for a while.
But then again, I realized that being nice never did a thing for me. I am not making excuses for him anymore. And if me stating my feelings pushes him away, then I am more than willing to take that risk. I am tired of him saying that he really likes me and wants to get serious with me, but then again he won't let me be there for him. How dare I offer emotional support.
I've gone out on a couple of other dates, and I like to go out when I have time. Clearly I am not waiting for Brad. But I wish that I could stop thinking about him completely. I hate it when I think about him from time to time and miss him.
Anyways, I have to get ready for work now.