Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Day 2 in my new home

Hello there my lovelies,

Well, I am now in my new place. And my room came with a TV. Right now I am just chilling after a long ass day at work. I'm watching the Persian channel while I am typing this. Sometimes I like to watch the international channels. I guess I am wierd like that.

Sunday I moved out my stuff. As I was leaving I saw my hottest neighbor ever. I hadn't seen him since the summer. Tall, dark, handsome ripped guy with a goatee wearing a leather jacket and warming up his motorcycle. Oh my God. Of course I never talked to him. I just stood there and drooled before I left.

I am sad that I moved outta my old apt because I'll miss the people I lived with. But I also like where I live now. It's in a nice area and my roommates are very quiet. Plus, it's in a house, not an apartment.

Of course my new room looks like shit right now. Boxes are everywhere, and no matter how much I try and organize my stuff, it never gets any cleaner. I took my books outta storage and bought a shelf to put them on. It's nice to finally have all my books next to me, especially since I like to read before I go to bed.

Anyways, enough rambling for now. Ciao.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

The Weekend is Here

Hello there my lovelies,

Today is Saturday (Thank God) and I usually sleep in if I am not working. But today I got up for a dance lesson at 8:30am. Then I went to the studio and practiced for a few more hours. Worked on my sword routine some more. The sword fell off a couple of times and I got smacked upside the head kinda hard once. I will practice some more tommorow. I love dancing with my sword. I still have to get used to it some more, but I am so happy when I get it all right.

I also got my eyebrows waxed and my hair cut. I am looking pretty damn good right now, lol. My stylist is very funny.

What else ? I have to move out this weekend. Thankfully I don't have that much to move. I like the new place. But I'm also gonna miss my old place.

Well, that's all for now. I shall update more later. Ciao.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

My wierd twisted thoughts

Hello there my lovelies,

Today was an interesting day. I had a half day at work today, so I kinda got to sleep in. I worked at another branch which is very slow, so I got to relax today and bullshit a little. Today I picked up a customer. Turns out he's from Madrid. I told him about my trip in Spain and we had a nice conversation. I miss Spain a little. Not enough to live there, but enough to go visit.

In fact, I just really want to travel overseas again. I have been thinking about where I'm gonna go next. If I didn't have so many financial obligations, I would be planning a trip right now.

It also happens to be that time of the month for me. That time where good ole' aunt Flo pays me a nice visit. I had some serious cramps today. Feels like someone's grabbing my insides and twisting them around. Thank God for painkillers. If it weren't for aspirin, I would be in bed sweating and crying like a baby. Just though I'd share that info with you all since I'm sure you're just dying to know.

Sometimes I wish I were a man. Then I wouldn't have to pay my montly bills.  I would also be able to pee standing up. That would be so convenient for me. Not only that but then I could burp and fart in public and actually get away with it more. Hell, I would even be able to adjust myself in public.

Anyways, enough rambling for now. Good Nite :)


Sunday, January 22, 2006

My Ramblings of the day

Hello all,

I was listening to my favorite alternative song. It's my fave because I love the guitars and how the artists kind shouts while he sings. I love alternative songs where the artist is passionate whether he/she is excited, angry or confused. The song is Bottom of a Bottle by Smile Empty Soul. So anyways, I was listening a little closer and I realized that the song was about this guy who's depressed and how he gets over it thru drugs and alcohol. I was relating to him until he was talking about drugs and alcohol, lol.

This morning is one of those mornings. I just don't wanna get outta bed. Last night I had an awful dream. Not really a nightmare, but a dream thats more close to reality. I ain't gonna lie. I feel so shitty. At least I don't feel as shitty as I did yesterday. Thankfully I have things to do today and I can't afford to just lie here in bed all day.

Last week I was excited and confident about finding a new job and my new place and I was coming along in dance. This week I just don't know anymore. I am sick of all the changes. I wish I could be settled a while before I make the next change. Right now I feel awful. I feel so alone. Alone in a sense that no one really can relate to how I feel.

I did a dance performance yesterday. I wore my new costume. My friend and I performed and it was a lotta fun. They loved us.

I really love bellydance with all my heart. I struggle with the moves sometimes. But it's a nice feeling to get all dolled up and pull it all off. I am still practicing with the sword, but it requires a lot of arm and back strength and I am still working on that part. I can't wait till I get to perform with the sword in public. We have our big performance in March.

I love practicing dance because its a good workout. But also because it makes me feel better.  If I feel like shit, sometimes dancing makes me feel better.

Okay, I am gonna get out of bed now and get stuff done. Enough bitching, lol.


Friday, January 20, 2006

My Coworkers are sick !!

Hello All,

I work with four other men. And for the most part they joke around with me like a guy. Today my assistant manager decided to take a huge dump, photograph it with his camera phone and send the picture to me. Then him and my othercoworker eagerly waited for me to receive the picture and giggled like schoolboys when I finally did. This is the same dude that likes to burp and fart in my direction.

Yesterday was funny too. His wife is newly pregnant so he was trying to find a gynecologist for her. We were all bored and had no customers so he was asking me to help him find one. Never have I ever had a man ask me about a gynecologist. Anyways, he called our healthplan and was joking with the secretary. Some of the things I heard him say:

"No, this is not for me."

"Isn't it wierd that me, a dude is asking you to help find me a gynecologist?

"Don't you think it's wierd that male gynecologists know more about the vagina than most women.?"

I thought it was sweet of him to do that for his wife.

Anyways, on to other things..................................

Bellydance Superstars are back in town and they will be performing in about 2 weeks. I am so excited to see them again. I saw them in Barcelona and they were so beautiful and graceful. Very inspiring.

I also practiced some more moves after work today. I love to just get up and dance freestyle. But I wish I knew how to choreograph routines. I know a few routines that were taught to me, but I wish I knew how to choreograph routines and then actually practice my own stuff.

I also danced with the sword again today. I realized that I have to build more strengh in my upper arms and my quads before I will be able to do the routine properly. But I am improving and it's only a matter of time.

Anyways, off to chill out. Ciao.



Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Yay for a half day !!!

Hello there my lovelies..........

Today is a half day from work. I am taking as many half days that I can get away with, which is once a week so far. I need free time during the week. I think I can take one more next week without my boss saying stuff to me. What is a girl to do ?  I know, since my bosses are all males I can say that I have some serious women problems and need to go to the gynecologist. They'll be so grossed/wierded out that they won't even bother to question me. lol. And knowing how amazingly sick my imagination is I can dream up some nasty female sickness.

Anyways, the weather BLOWS today. It is cold and rainy. When I go back to work I am sure that our car prep won't be there. If I have to walk out there and vacuum, I am gonna have a real bitch fit. I am STILL getting over bronchitis and they really don't care.

On another note, I found the music video for the song Pretty Girl by Sugar Cult. I LOVE that song. They played it for a short time before the band just disappeared. I love it so much that I added it to my My Space profile. But knowing me, I am sure I'll change my music video again soon.

Okay, enough for now. Talk to y'all later. Ciao.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

My 1st Spanish Entry


Tengo que escribir, pero no quiero que ciertas personas entiendan. Me siento tan confundida con mis padres ahora. Me siento tanto rabia ahora. Y cuando hablo con mi madre ella sabe que no me siento normal.

Normalmente no grito, pero cuando hable con mi madre, tuve ira en mi voz. Ella quiere saber lo que me molesta, pero no puedo decirle sin problemas.


What is up???

Hello there my lovelies,

I am exhausted. I have a lot going on in my life right now. So much to do in so little time.

What else? My face is breaking out ALL OVER. I don't understand. I haven't broken out like this since I was a teenager. I look awful. My coworker decided to tell me that I am breaking out. As if I didn't already notice.

I went to the doctor today and he told me I am still not fully over my bronchitis. He said that my nose and throat are swollen after looking inside. He also said that I probably have allergies. I didn't know that. I have been bragging to people that I don't have allergies. Well, I guess I was wrong after all.

So, he gave me a steriod for my lungs and an antihistimine for my sinus. I have to take them both and I feel tired and dizzy. I just wanna lie down and stare at the ceiling for a while.

Did I mention that at work we have a bum that sleeps in our parking lot? Really makes our office look attractive. I work close to a homeless shelter and this dude likes to camp out during the day. Why won't he pick another parking lot ? I am getting tired of being stared at while I check in cars.

Speaking or cars, I had to wash and vacuum more cars yesterday. Our car prep decided not to show up AGAIN. So I was sitting in the car and vacuuming and when I got up, I saw nasty dirt streaks all down my pants. I was pissed. Rental cars are so nasty. I should be out marketing and seeking out new business. Instead out office is a little understaffed and I am forced to do the most basic duties. This is so not what I went to college for.

Plus, we have mice. I saw this mouse run out from the cabinet to the bathroom. It was a cute creature with beady little eyes that just scurried about. We were having our morning meeting and it decided to surprise us all.

Anyways, that is all for now. Ciao :)



Sunday, January 15, 2006

Another Sunday

Hello All,

Today is Sunday, and like usual, I was kinda lazy. I got up and I went to my bellydance class. My teacher was giving a workshop on dancing with double veils. It was very useful.

Tommorow we will all work on our routine for our upcoming show in March. My part is dancing with the sword.

Speaking of which, I took my new sword outta the box again to move with it and I am a little nervous. It was sharpened, and I didn't realize how sharp it really was. But I really love it. It's a beautiful, exotic looking sword.

Anyways, I am supposed to be getting ready for work tommorow, but I am tired and lazy. I am not looking forward to waking up at 6:15am.

Anyways, have a good week. Ciao.

So Exhausted

Hello All,

I am just exhausted from the week. Last night I came home and just crashed. I have a lot going on right now. I feel like I am always on the go or doing something. I need a break.

For starters I am moving out into a new place by the end of the month. I am excited about that. But I gotta haul and organize everything which can be a royal pain in the ass.

I am still a little sick. I really need to get back to see a doctor. I am gonna try and take time off sometime this week.

My boss at work owes me a $75 gift certificate. It's been 2 weeks and I STILL haven't gotten it. I keep bugging him too. I fucking hating when someone owes me something and it takes them forever to give me what I am owed. Arrggh.

Anyway, that's enough bitching for tonite. I'll try to be more positive next time.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Bra Heaven

Hello my lovelies,

Today I went to Victoria's Secret because they are having their sale. For those of you that know me, you know that I am "blessed" and that I can't just buy any bra. I need a lot of support and only Vic's Secret has what I like. I usually have to pay an arm and a leg for a decent bra. Not today. Today was my lucky day. I found stuff for almost %50 off. I bought a couple of sports bras so I can work out comfortably. I am so excited, because I saved a lot of money. I am sure some of you ladies know exactly where I'm coming from.

I can't believe I just wrote about my bra shopping trip.

On another note I finally got my new sword to dance with. It is so sharp. But it's beautiful. It's and Iberian Scimitar. No more borrowing a sword from my dance partner. And no more using my cheap, metal sword for practice.

Anyways, I am exhausted from a long, strenuous work week. I'm about to fall asleep right here, so I'm gonna go. Ciao :)

Monday, January 9, 2006

What a Day !!!!

Hello there my lovelies,

Today was freakin' crazy !! Okay, usually there are six of us in the office. Five of us and a car prep to wash the cars. Well, only three of us came to work. (The car prep was NOT one of those ppl). Plus, it was busy. So we had half the people and double the work. Plus we had to clean the cars ourselves. I hate cleaning rental cars. Half the time they smell like fast food and ass. Our Chevy Cavaliers are the worst. That fast food/ass smell is just embedded in the crevices of the car seats with the cheesy 1970s fabric. Our cargo vans are the worst. They smell like sweaty ass crack.

I spent my entire day running back and forth to do errands, pick up and drop off people and maybe answer the phones and type up a person's contract here and there. Some genius customer of ours returned our car to us in our parking lot but decided to LOCK THE KEYS in the car, so we couldn't rent it out for a while. I didn't eat lunch till 2pm. Luckily I didn't have to clean any cars.

My assistant manager wasn't so lucky. He had to wash cars. Get this: We have a wash bucket outside and someone SHAT in our washbucket. So he filled the bucket with water and soap and started stirring the brush around. And when he was scrubbing the car and windows with the brush, he wondered why the FUCK there was shit smeared all over the windows and the rest of the car. I woulda paid some good money to see his reaction.

I just wanna know why someone would shit in there ? I mean, we have tons of bushes and trees. I swear, I feel like I work in the ghetto. We have bums around and once in a while they use our bathrooms to bathe.

And while I am ranting, I am sick of being hit on/oggled by married men. I am a magnet for that shit, and I don't even ask for it. Eew.

Well, thats all for now folks. Ciao :)

Sunday, January 8, 2006

Lazy Sunday

Hello All,

Every Sunday is the same. I lay around and do nothing. Although today I will at least get out of bed and practice dance. But I also need to do my laundry and iron my clothes.

Doing laundry has been made so easy, unlike the old days. I just gotta wash, dry and fold. It's not like I have to haul it to a lake and scrub my clothes by hand. I just gotta stuff it in the wash, and it's done. But no, I am a lazy American girl and I still procrastinate. Go figure.

Same with food. It's not like I have to chop down wood, start a fire, boil some water and chop vegetables. Oh no. I can simply boil water on a stove and put in dry noodles and some sauce. But no, I am too lazy to even heat something up.

Every weekend I am just tired from the week and wanna lie around for a while. The weather is beautiful right now. I should be outside walking around or doing something productive. But instead I am sitting in bed typing this.

Okay, I am gonna get outta bed now and practice some dance.

Ciao :P

Saturday, January 7, 2006

Rants and Raves

Hello there my lovelies,

Today I got up early this morning to practice my dance routine. We're lookin' good. My quads are so sore right now from all the moves. I am walking and limping. But at least I am starting to get in better shape.

We taped ourselves doing the routine and although I am getting better, I still feel so self conscious getting filmed. I looked like I was struggling. I have a long way to go.

I am still waiting for my new sword to come in. I was told it was gonna take another week and a half. I thought it would be done this week. I am kinda disappointed because I just wanna start dancing with it and my current sword is so difiicult.

Work is moving along. I like my coworkers. I work with a guy that has a sick, twisted, nasty sense of humor like me. When we have no customer we have burping contests. Or we tell dirty jokes. My favorite is when we had to help some bitchy, mean sorority chicks and we imitated them afterwards.

But I gotta say that I am not liking to have to wash cars in my skirt and heels. Our car prep sometimes doesn't show up and I get stuck cleaning cars sometimes. Another thing I am getting sick of is picking up and dropping off dirty, old men. Luckily most people are nice. But sometimes I get tired or being stared at or offered to go home with them.

Yeah, so I am done ranting for now. But I do wanna rave about the beautiful, sunny weather outside. This morning I didn't even have to wear a coat. It was beautiful, warm and sunny. LOVE IT.

Anywho, see ya next time.

Friday, January 6, 2006

The Most Random Survey Passed Around on MySpace

1) Are your parents married or divorced ? Divorced

2) Vegetarian? God no

3) Heaven? Yeah, just send me to a firehouse full of firemen ;)

4) Come close to dying? Yeah, every time I receive my measly paycheck

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7? My new belly ring

6) Are you eating? Just got back from a Persian restaurant. You know, once you go Persian, there's no other version.

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? Why yes I do.

8) Makeup? Yes.

9) Were you usually the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationships? I would say a little bit of both.

10) Would you ever have plastic surgery? Yes, but I certainly wouldn't advertise it.

11) What do you wear to bed? My flannel pajamas.

12) Have you ever done anything illegal? Yeah, I've broken a lot of rules on the road.

13) Can you roll your tongue? Yep

14) Brush your teeth? Better believe it.
15) What kind of watch(es) do you wear? None.

16) Abortion? I don't even know how to answer this one. A little too personal for a random survey, don't you think ?

17) Hair color? Brown.

18) Future child's name? Boys names: No children for me.........

19) Do you snore? I have been told before

20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go? Amsterdam, Switzerland, Egypt, Morrocco, Carribean

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do with it? OMG, where do I even begin with this ? 1.) Pay off all my debts 2.) Move out into my own house 3.) Quit my fucking job 4.) Throw away my alarm clock 5.) Travel all over the world to do charity work 6.) Invest the rest. Man, I got it all planned out.

23) Gold or silver or platinum? Gold

24) Hamburger or hot dog? Hot Dog.

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose? Chocolate Cake with rich, chocolately frosting

26) Beach, city, or country? Why can't I have all three?

27) Who was the last person you touched? I think I hit my coworker

28) Where do you eat? I like to try new restaurants

29) When's the last time you cried? Reading that last question... Don't remember

30) Have you loved somebody so much it made you cry? Nope.

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? Yeah, it's so easy for a woman to dress like a man.

32) Ever been involved with the police? No, but I would if he were handsome and in uniform ;)

33) Believe in Santa? Nope, the fairytail was destroyed at age 8.

34) Do you talk in your sleep? Yes

35) Beach or pool? Beach.

36) Can you cross your eyes? Nope

37) What's your favorite song at the moment? Some song I can't remember the title to by Mac Dre. (Did I spell that right?)

38) Window seat or aisle on a plane? Aisle. Don't wanna be tripping over ppl to get to the bathroom.

39) Ever met anyone famous? Not really.

40) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship? Nope

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl

42) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey? Oprah Winfrey

43) Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted? Yes.

44) How long does your shower last? Hell if I know. I don't time myself.

45) Do you drive stick? Yes.

46) Cake or ice cream? Cake AND ice cream

47) Self-conscious? Not all the time

48) What time do you get up? 6:15 every morning during the week.

49) Have you ever given money to a bum? Yes.

50) When was your first crush? 10 years old in 4th grade. His name was Bryan Albini.

51) Where do you wish you were? Traveling the world

52) Have you ever broken someone's heart? If I did, I wouldn't know about it

53) Ever been given a ring? Yeah, lotsa people call me.

54) Longest relationship? Next question, please.

55) Last gift you received? Candles to dance with.

56) Last sport you played? Bellydance doesn't count, but whatever.

57) Things you spend a lot of money on? Bellydance lessons, props and costumes.

58) Where do you live? Bay Area, CA

59) School you attended: SJSU '04

60) Last wedding attended: a friend in 2002

61) Favorite fast food restaurant: Jack in the Crack

62) Where do you work: Enterprise Rent a Car.

63) Can you cook? Hells friggin' NO.

64) Most hated food: Eggplant makes me gag

65) Can you sing? Yes.

66) Last concert attended: Black Eyed Peas and Dave Matthews Band

67)Last crush? Nope.

68) Favorite Alcoholic drink: Baileys and cream over ice.
69) Current Crush? A secret since I have to see this person almost every day.

70) What is your favorite pen ink color? Blue

Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Tired after a long day

Hello All,

I am a My Space Addict. I admit it. It is temporarily shut down to fix some problems. And I can't log on. It sucks. Oh well, guess I'm just gonna hafta wait a while.

I had dance practice today. I recently joined a troupe and we are practicing for our upcoming performance in March. We all came together today and worked on our routine and so far so good. My part in the routine is to dance with the sword and moved around on the floor. I am getting better, and that makes me happy.

I am also working on the bellyroll since I really never learned the proper way to do it. It's wierd, because I am asking my body to do something it doesn't know how. So I have to keep asking my stomach to move that way. And after enough attempting, I will finally be able to do it. I keep practicing a few minutes a day. That's how bellydance works. You have to keep practicing and training your body how to move a certain way.

I am very confused with my life right now. I don't know where I fit in at all.  Everything, and I mean, EVERYTHING is up in the air right now. I feel like I have no control whatsoever of myself anymore. From my job to living situation to my friends to my family. I can't even describe it. I just wonder when things will all start to fall into place.

Anyways, I am gonna log off for now. Ciao.

Sunday, January 1, 2006

I want my Alternative Music !!

Hello Again,

I am mad right now. I love alternative and have had 2 stations to choose from 104.9 and 105.3. But 104.9 is my fave. They always seemed to be playing Nirvana and the latest alternative hits. And I loved that there was just music and no talking in the mornings.

Today I get in the car............ and no 104.9 anymore. Now it is replaced with Latin music. Don't get me wrong. I like Latin music, but there are already enough Latin channels from me to chose from. I just want my good ole' alternative music back. At least there is still 105.3, but I'll miss 104.9. Fuck !!

Anyone remember Z95.7? They used to be my all-time fave, until I woke up one morning to find it forever gone.

This sux big donkey dong.

The First Day of the New Year

Hello there my lovelies,

Happy New Years to you all !!!! Guess what ? I slept through the clock striking 12am. I meant to stay awake till then, but I crashed out at around 11pm.

I can't believe 2005 is gone. I didn't want it to be over. But now I am welcoming 2006. I am hoping that this year will be wonderful.

Here are some of the things I would like to accomplish this year:

1.) Get promoted at my current job or get a higher paying job.

2.) Move out or start saving for a house.

3.) Learn how to dance with my sword. (Without it falling during a performance)

4.) Improve my Spanish

5.) Start learning Chinese

6.) Travel to a foreign land or at least have a trip for 2007 planned.

I would also include that I want to eat healthier. But I am not even going to lie to myself. That is an ongoing thing that I strive for, and sometimes I am good and sometimes I am bad. I am not gonna list that as a goal for 2006.

Anyways, that is all for now. I am gonna go and try to have a productive day. Ciao.