Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Madonna and her latest adoption drama

Hello there my lovelies,

So it's been in the news lately that Madonna is trying to adopt a boy in Malawi. The boy is not an orphan because his father is still alive and willing to take care of him. The father thought that Madonna was just gonna feed and educate his son and give him back. He didn't realize that Madonna was gonna take him for good.

I have to take the father's side. He is a poor man in a third world country. He can not read or write. He is probably not an idiot, but I am willing to bet that he doesn't have a clue of what life is like in a developed country and how legal contracts work. And you can't just give a person like this a crash course either. You kinda have to coach them a little and have patience when explaining it. I remember when I was in Spain and I showed a man from South America how to use the computer to set up an email account for the first time. The guy had no clue where to begin. I had to start from the very beginning. I am sure that Madonna's lawyers tried to explain to him the adoption process in simple terms, but failed to emphasize that he wouldn't raise his son anymore.

I am willing to bet that when Madonna walked into his town and did charity work, he didn't question it. I know that if I were uneducated and grew up in an impoverished third world country and an organization came along and fed me or clothed me, I would take the aid and think it was God above. I wouldn't have known that it was coming from an organization and I wouldn't have thought that they would expect anything in return from me.

 I am sure he thought that God or his gods were answering his prayers.  So with that said, when Madonna offered to help his son, I am sure that he thought that God was answering his prayer again. After all, she provided aid and asswered his prayers already, so why would she do anything like take his child ?

If I were Madonna, I would give the boy back and find another child. The father loves his child and the child has a loving family in his country. Lord knows that there are plenty of children in Malawi without any parents or even any relatives. I am sure that the boy would have a nice life in the US, but deep down he would wonder why his father gave him up, and why he didn't stay in his life. And you can't fill a void like that.

I know it must be hard for Madonna to give the boy back. He probably formed a strong bond with her and possibly her children. But she should still let this one go. There are plenty of other children out there without anyone to love them. At least this little boy has his father.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Border Patrol Improvement

Hello there my lovelies,

I took a practice Border Patrol Exam online and man was it hard . I liked it because the logical reasoning portion of it was just as hard as the real thing I took last month. The good news is that I scored 88%. The Spanish portion was easier than the real thing. This is good news, because this means that my logical reasoning skills are getting sharper. I am gonna retest in April of next year.

The bad news is that I took a long time on the logical reasoning portion, when in reality the real thing is timed. I finished half of it and then finished the rest the next morning when I woke up. I think I just need to work on not being so anxious, and keeping track of time better.

What else? Oh, I realized why I've been so cranky lately. I haven'y bellydanced in such a long time. I've worked out, but I have not danced. So today, I am gonna get off my lazy ass and dance.

Anywho, I better go now.

Ciao Ciao.



Sunday, October 22, 2006

I'm cranky. Somebody hug me.

Hello there my lovelies,

Today is Sunday, and as usual I am being lazy. I added some pix to my MySpace Account. I have a babyshower in a hour. my friend is pregnant with twins.  I need to haul ass and get ready. I also need to clean my room and pay my bills. Knowing myself, that prob won't happen today.

I went to the dentist yesterday and found out I have 5 small cavities. I had an appointment at 12:30 and the dentist didn't see me till 2pm. I got half of them filled, but one of the fillings broke off. Needless to say, I am not thrilled. That put me in a pissy mood.

Anywho, I have to go now. Ciao Ciao.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

New Job

Hello there my lovelies,

So today I put in my two weeks notice at my current job. I will be starting my new one at the beginning of next month. A lot of thinking went into making my decision to resign, and I think it's better in the long run.

For the most part I liked working at Enterprise, especially working with my coworkers. However, I can't imagine myself getting excited about being an assistant manager or ever running a branch. I also am not into sales. I can sell if I really want to. I've done it before. But really, it's not what makes me tick.

So, I quit and I am starting all over on my quest to find a job that I am in love with. I am excited about my new position as there is room for advancement. With the hours I'll be working I even think I can go back to school. It's all up in the air.

I think it's nice that I am actually taking steps foward to being happier. It's better than doing nothing about it and complaining all the time.

Anywho, that's all for now.



Monday, October 16, 2006

Here we go again

Hello Everyone,

Closing our borders is becoming a huge topic in the news right now, especially because politicians are trying to get themselves elected or reelected.

You know what pisses me off about this ? How the media portrays it. Everytime I see something in the newspaper or TV about guarding our borders better, it's always because of illegal immigration.

Yes, illegal immigration is a problem. But not as big of a problem as human trafficking, drug smuggling and terrorism. And the media doesn't even friggin' consider that we should close our borders due to those problems. All the news does is point the cameras on the Mexicans trying to jump over the fence.

I didn't realize how freaking easy it is for terrorists to just waltz right over through our desert into the United States until I did some research. All they have to do is blend in with the other migrants and pay the right smuggler. Does the media ever talk about that ? Nope.

The media also doesn't really talk about the human trafficking issues going on at our borders. Women from third world countries are promised jobs as waitresses in the United States, only to be forced into prostitution. And San Francisco is one of the hottest growing spots for those "massage parlors". I read about that in the San Francisco Chronicle. There was a huge article about it. Unfortunately articles like those are few and far in between.

Oh, and don't even get me started about the drugs. Columbians specialize in cocaine and Mexicans prefer marijuana. In exchange for the Mexicans helping them smuggle the coke in the US, Colombians give them cocaine. The Border patrol apprehends more drug smugglers than the DEA.

I just wish that issues like these would make the news. Instead, the media focuses on how racist the United States for wanting to put up a wall and hiring more agents. They think that all this effort is to keep out migrants. People have a right to know.

Okay, I am tired and heading off to bed.

Ciao Ciao.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I've been naughty..........

Hello there my lovelies,

Against my doctors wishes I had some alcohol yesterday. My friend was in town and him and I went to our fave Spanish restaurant for some Spanish food and sangria. Then we went bowling and I had another drink. The meal had so much garlic, which is good because I hear that garlic helps prevent certain cancers. In that case, I think I might've eliminated my chance of ever getting cancer. It was so strong. You shoulda been there when I was trying to burp the alphabet.

It was so much fun. I love bowling while tipsy. I laughed so hard that night I that I had to sit on the concrete so I wouldn't piss myself. I took some fun pictures of me acting like a total goodball for y'all that are my friends on Myspace. If not, you better add me.

I am not looking foward to getting back to the daily grind of renting cars tommorow.

Anywho, I am off to bed. Ciao ciao.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

And the culprit is..........

Hello All,

I dunno if it's bold or stupid to come out here and say this, but what the hell. I don't care that much what people think about me anymore. I found out my chest pains weren't due to heart problems. I think that I may have an anxiety disorder. I'm sure it's minor.

I may be depressed or have anxiety issues. It's getting worse and I can say that because it's getting harder for me to want to go out. I just want to lock myself in my room. I don't want to even talk to people anymore. I feel like I am forcing my friendliness at work. My friend wants to hang out with me and I really just wanna be alone. I don't even want to go out on dates right now either and if men can't tempt me, then something's up.

This isn't the first time I've had issues like this. Five years ago in college I had a nervous breakdown. I slowed down, took fewer classes and made changes to feel better and vowed to never let that happen again.

This year a lot of things have happened that betrayed my trust. Both family and men have violated my trust. Plus 2006 is my first year alone in the real world with no one to rescue me. If I can't work and don't get paid, I am out on the street. I barely pay the bills each month. Sometimes I just don't know what I am doing or if I am making smart decisions. I love being young, but I guess confusion comes with youth. You can't have your cake and eat it too.

Anyway, that's all for now.


Wednesday, October 11, 2006

I'm blessed

Hello there my lovelies,

For the past two weeks I've done a really good job in freaking myself out because I had been experiencing heart palpitations as well as mild pain and pressure in my chest. I was convinced that something was wrong, especially since my mom's side of the family is plagued with heart conditions and my mom is dealing with issues of her own.

So I got blood drawn as well as a heart sonnogram last weekend to check my cholesterol and heart. Except for weak heart muscle contractions(which may even be normal for me) my heart is healthy. I was also happy to know that my good cholestrol was much higher than my bad cholesterol level.

I spent a lot of time worrying and it feels so liberating to know that I am still healthy. I know that I won't be free of health issues forever, so I am enjoying this while I can. I feel liberated. This is such a relief. This whole experience taught me how to be greatful and to count my blessings.



Sunday, October 8, 2006

My long two cents about illegal immigration........

Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday I rented "Mojados: Through the Night" from the library. It was a documentary about illegal immigration. Basically the camera man followed four men on their journey through the desert from Mexico to Arizona.

Those men faced dehydration, heat over 100 degrees, freezing temperatures in the morning, no water, drinking contaminated water, rattle snakes, rain, you name it. People like them are so desperate for work that they will risk their lives over and over like this.  In the end 3 were captured by the Border Patrol and sent back to Mexico, and one guy got away.

The movie put names and faces on countless people that make the journey through the desert and through the river. These men volunteered to be filmed so that people can see what they go through and that they're humans and not just "illegals". They also want to be appreciated. They do the jobs that US citizens won't.

The movie also portrayed a more humane side to the Border Patrol. It showed footage of Border Patrol agents helping people that were dying by providing them with water and proper medical attention.

There was also an organization called Human Borders that provides potable water to the migrants in the desert. They also provide meals. I really like what they're doing. It doesn't matter whether it's illegal or not for them to enter the U.S. But that doesn't mean that they should be left to die in the desert. They still have the right to be treated as humans. If I lived down there, I would volunteer for them.

I watched the movie because I wanted to get a better understanding of what illegals go through to get there. They are brave and if I worked for the Border Patrol I would not get mad at them for continuing to try to come over.

But I still don't think that we should just let people cross our borders without knowing who they are and legalizing them. They contribute to our economy and do the jobs that US citizens don't. However, they also put a huge strain on our healthcare system and benefits that are for U.S citizens. Some pay taxes, but I'm willing to bet that most don't. The IRS will look the other way if an illegal pays taxes. I know a couple of people that entered illegally and eventually became legal. They told me that paying taxes year after year helped their cases.

I also think that we should build a higher wall, put up more cameras and hire more agents. It's about time. Of course it's not going to solve the problem, but it will help. The main problem is the lack of agents. We have a lot of high tech equipment, but only so many agents to patrol the land. Agents round up as much as 500 people a night. While they're busy arresting a few, it's so easy for others to run away. Bush wants to hire more agents, but becoming an agent is challenging and time consuming, not to mention that the salary is so low. I forgot to mention that I read somewhere that the Border Patrol received 70,000 applicants and only 1,700 people became agents.

 I get so irritated that the Mexican President Vicente Fox and the new president elect are upset about the wall. Maybe they should take care of their own people and figure out how to fuel their economy. It's our right as a nation to guard our borders. It's our land and we can build a wall if we want to. We never asked the millions of illegals to come over. In fact they KNOW it's dangerous and they still come over. We're not being racists by making a statement that they can't enter illegally.

Our governor Arnold recently made a statement about how Mexicans ( yes, he singled out Mexicans)  don't assimilate into American culture. They just come over here for work and send their money home, but don't want to be part of America. He said that they would be more successful if they tried to blend in more.

Now, I don't think he should've made that statement. Mexican immigrants are such a large group of people that you can't just make a generalizarion like that, especially if you're a politician and up for re-election. I think that he just insulted some of his followers : Mexican republicans that have adopted American culture as their own.  I know a lot of Mexicans that have assimilated well. And I should know because they were in my Spanish class because they couldn't speak proper Spanish.

But I also understand why our governator said that, because some of it's true. A stereotype isn't a stereotype unless there is some truth to it. A lot of my Hispanic customers that come in don't speak English. They don't want to learn. It isn't a priority for them. I used to live around a lot of neighborhoods where there are only Mexican flags and stores and advertisements all in Spanish. It's like they're making a statement that they're not interested in the US.

I am not for allowing people in the US illegally. It's unfair to people that have spent thetime and energy to get legal papers. It's also breaking the law and we should not send out the message that that we can just ignore laws when it's convenient.

However, I am all for helping people do it the legal way. Working with immigrants, legal or not to get assimilated into American culture.


Hello, it's Sunday again

Hello there my lovelies,

Today I woke up and went for a run. We have a beautiful Sikh temple a couple of blocks from my house on the hill, so I ran around it. It was beautiful to see people dressed in their prayer clothes to go to prayer. There's a beautiful waterfall in front of the temple. I think I'll go back and take some pictures later.

After that I went to practice some dance moves alone at my old college. On the way to the studio I saw an emaciated cat walking around. Luckily I had cat food so I fed it. I felt so bad for it. It ate the food I put out for it and I pet it a little. When dealing with cats I don't know, I always wait for it to come to me and purr at me before I pet it. It was a beautiful grey and black cat, but it was so thin. Poor thing.

Now I'm back home and I was supposed to go out tonite, but the guy didn't call so I am gonna go out and go to the mall.

Ciao Ciao.

Sunday, October 1, 2006

Lazy Sunday

Hello there my lovelies,

Today I stayed in bed all day. I think I got up to eat breakfast. No dance practice, no doing anything productive. Tommorow is gonna be super busy, so I'll have to go to work early.

Last night I went out with my friend to a Spanish restaurant, and the food was delish. We had appetizers and paella. To top it off I had 3 glasses of Sangria. I'm a lightweight, so I got a little drunk.

Then we walked over to the theater to see Jack Ass 2. I've never laughed so hard in my life. That movie was so hilarious. I loved watching those guys make complete asses of themselves. That just goes to show how twisted I am.

Well, thats about all for now folks.

Ciao Ciao.