Friday, January 30, 2009
So first off, thanks for the kind comments, Mark and Mike. I appreciate it.
I am trying to be positive, but it is so hard. I am really saddened by having to look for another place. It hit me all of a sudden, and I am having a hard time dealing with it. I love where I live, I like my roommate, and I was looking forward to living here for a very long time.
You know, just a month or two ago, things were really looking up. I was making new friends in my classes, I was happy in my apartment, and I loved my classes and teachers. Now, just two months later, I had a falling out with those friends, my new teachers this quarter aren't very good, and I am forced to move. I just wish for once there would be consistency in life. I wish that for a period of time, I could relax and don't have to worry about the rug being pulled out from under me at any second.
I have to move out before the quarter is over and I need to pull off As in my classes. I'm having a hard enough time trying to concentrate on my studies. Four hours per class in a classroom, and my teachers don't lecture on track.
At least I can say that I didn't take this time at my new place for granted. I had a feeling that this would be cut short somehow. When I moved in, I had a feeling that something like this would happen, yet I still took the risk and moved in. I knew that it was worth it. Living downtown here in San Jose was something I always wanted, but couldn't afford it. And I was finally able to afford it.
I am glad that I fully enjoyed my stay, and didn't take it for granted. I really hope that things improve for me again someday.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
The recession is here to stay for a while, no doubt about it.
As you know, I just moved in to my new place three months ago.
My roommate came home early today and told me he got laid off from his job.
He is here on a work visa, which is tied to his job.
He will keep the rent here at our apartment paid up until the end of February, so really I have less than a month of a sure place to live.
He has been such a wonderful roommate, and I really thought things were getting better. He is in my age group, we have things in common, he was respectful of my space, and we had different schedules.
Now I have to toy with the idea of possibly moving out all over again.
I don't know what to think right now, everything is up in the air.
I hope that I will keep my job for a while. Thank God I am two classes away from getting my certificate.
I have no idea how things will be for me in the next three months. I am really nervous. I hope things will work out.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
-I miss being naive as I used to. Back then I still wasn't aware of the full intentions of men, and what they say and how they act are different.
-I miss my optomistic outlook I used to have, even when I was sad. I picked myself up faster and tried harder.
-I still can't believe that I backed up all my possessions and lived alone in Barcelona, a city that I knew nothing about. I think about that year all the time.
- I miss going to the beach late at night, I miss motorcyle rides on the mountain, I miss meeting new people all of the time from all over the world. I miss buying the latest CDs for a Euro on the street from the Africans.
-I miss being homesick with people that were also away from their countries. I got homesick with Colombians, Argentinians, Dominicans, Brits, Germans, Americans......
- I miss being able to trust people easily. I was never afraid of meeting up with someone over there, like I am over here.
- I feel like time is passing me by so fast, and I wish I could travel again. I don't feel like I've gotten it out of my system.
- Thank God I am still unmarried with no children.
Monday, January 26, 2009
So today was a long day. I woke up butt early to talk to my teacher who ended up not being there. I thought I drove out for nothing, but I also had to file for graduation so I spoke to the counselor. I just need to send my transcript from San Jose State over and pass my last two classes. Then I am home free ! Classes end in late March and the graduation ceremony will be in late June. I really hope that I have a new job by then in a law firm, but I am not expecting too much in this economy. Frankly I am just happy to even have a job, period.
After being on campus, I went to my friend's house to practice dance. I ended up dancing for about two hours. It was therapeutic. I was just dancing to whatever music I felt like. I didn't force myself to practice any moves like I sometimes do. I worked on my shimmies.
I haven't really practiced my routine for Rakkassah, and that's because I ordered new music and have been waiting for it to come in, which it FINALLY did today. I saw a girl dance to it on You Tube and thought it would be cool for my routine. Let the practicing begin !
Translating personals ads is kind of addicting. I am trying to stop, but this guy really made me laugh, so I couldn't help myself. He my age, which isn't so shocking, unfortunately.
Anywho, here goes..................
Well, I live alone, have no kids, and haven't been in a relationship for way too long SO NOW I'M LONELY AND DESPERATE & need to get back on the saddle. And NO, there's nothing wrong with me. YES, THERE IS SOMETHING VERY WRONG WITH ME Just been focusing too hard on getting my S!*#t together I AM AN ANGRY MAN I kinda neglected the relationship part of my life. I WILL DEFINITELY NEGLECT YOU I used to travel a lot for work so it was hard for me to meet new people. WHICH WAS MY EXCUSE FOR WHY I COULDN'T MAKE IT WITH MY LAST RELATIONSHIP I wouldn't call myself a shy-guy but breaking the ice happens to not be one of my strong points(that's why I'm trying this out). I have kind of a weird sense of humour at times and people don't always get it at first BECAUSE I'M ACTUALLY OFFENSIVE but The ones who know me best love to have me around for comic-relief THEY ARE EITHER MY FAMILY OR MY CLOSE FRIENDS AND BOTH TOLERATE ME.The Drama Queen need not apply! BECAUSE THERE IS ONLY ROOM FOR ME, THE DRAMA KING Life is too short to put up with your bad attitude. I HAVE ISSUES WITH WOMEN AND ASSUME THEY ARE ALL EVIL BITCHES, YET I EXPECT THEM TO LIKE ME. OK, now that I got that out of the way, The biggest turn on for me is a woman with a good sense of humor WHO IS JUST AS OFFENSIVE AS I and a fun loving outlook on life like me HAHAHAHAHA. I'm not exactly looking for my sole mate YES, I AM JUST A BOTTOM-FEEDER FISH LOOKING FOR ANOTHER BOTTOM FEEDER but if there's a good relationship opportunity, I won't turn you away. And please, no psycho ex-boyfriends or baby daddy's. I AM THE ONLY PSYCHO MAN ALLOWED, AND BY THE TIME I'M DONE WITH YOU, I'LL BE YO NEW BABY DADDY. I don't wanna have to watch my back when I come pick you up. I'm looking for a girl who's passionate and spontaneous cause so am I. I WILL BE TRYING TO GROPE YOU AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY, AND I HOPE YOU'LL TRY TO JUMP ON ME TOO So if your looking for the long term or just wanna chill with a new friend, it's all good with meeeee! WHHEEEEEEEEEE !
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I looked at my posts for this month, and I must say that I've been quite expressive.
Today I looked out at the hot tub and there was some guy chilling in there all by himself. If only he knew what transpired in there a couple of days earlier.....................
I went for a run today to test out my new sneakers. If I didn't mention it earlier, I bought a pair of running sneakers. Nike to be exact. I have never bought a pair of Nikes before, but these shoes really help. Usually when I wear my old sneakers that I bought at Payless, my knees are plagued by throbbing pain after running on the concrete. Not with the Nikes. I am real happy about that.
When I bought them the store owner helped me pick them out. He put me on a treadmill and filmed me running with the shoes he picked out for me.
What else........ I've been stressed lately with school. Up until now I have really liked my teachers. This quarter is different. My last teachers made me work my ass off, but they made learning legal concepts easy. They didn't make it complicated. They had easy ways of explaining concepts that are really quite simple but easy to complicate.
This quarter my teachers are making it complicated. On top of it they don't stay on topic in the lectures. It is very frustrating.
Anyway, I am gonna go and do a little more reading for my classes.
Hello There My Lovelies,
In dating we all have preferences and pet peeves. You know, little things that really shouldn't bother us but really do. In talking to my guy friends, some say that it gets under their skins when they see a girl who doesn't keep her toenails painted. Some men can't stand short hair on a woman. Some women hate balding, and my good friend won't even look twice at a guy if his mouth isn't clean or if his teeth are crooked.
Well, my pet peeve in men is the soul patch. I can't stand them. Apparently I am not the only chica that feels this way. Look it up on Urban Dictionary. Below are some of the other words used to describe it:
soul patch, goatee facial hair, beard mustache, chin pubes, flavor saver moustache, van dyke, flava sava, cool douchebag tag, sexy giggler patch, pussy tickler, dirty sanchez ,stubble hair, sole-patch heart mong potato chin, fu man chu stache
Haha, douche bag tag is my favorite.
I am sorry to say that most of the guys that I have met with soul patches have turned out to be rather douchey. Now before you jump all over me, remember I said MOST. I am sure that there are some wonderful men out there that just happen to wear these awful douche bag tags. But you know, stereotypes do exist for a reason.
And in the spirit of fairness, women do have "tags" of their own. While they can't sport a soul patch, they can wear a tattoo on the small of their back known as the "tramp stamp."
And before I go, I will leave you with an article a blogger wrote who happens to share the same point of view that I do from Lainey Gossip http://laineygossip.com/Billy_Ray_Cyrus__has_a_douchebag_soul_patch_at_the_American_Music_Awards.aspx?IsMicro=0
P.S: I swiped the photo of the guy above, and the cartoon from Google images. No copyright infringement intended. I don't know who the man is, but I hope he doesn't end up here.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Like I usually say, I should be doing homework right now, but I am so damn tired. But I'll get around to it.
I worked late last night and had to wake up this morning for school and go to work after. I will be sleeping in tomorrow.
In my Bankruptcy Law class this morning, I sat right next to this big girl that smelled. She kinda smelled faintly of rank sweat, like she couldn't wash herself properly. Luckily it wasn't too strong. The part that was gross was her breath.
So not only did I have to deal with her mildly foul odor, but when she turned my direction and breathed with her mouth open, I was disgusted.
Did I mention that my class is 4 hours long, and we were in a stuffy classroom with the door shut ?
But you know, I am not perfect. I shouldn't be casting a stone, because within the first 20 minutes of class today I accidentally let out a loud fart. I was trying so hard not to let it out, but for the moment that I decided to relax and shift in my seat, the thunder hit. I was mortified. But luckily no one humiliated me for it, and luckily it was one of those that didn't smell.
What else.... today after class I went to my dance class. I take dance lessons once a week in a yoga studio. Anyway, the teacher taught us how to do the move I've been trying to learn for a very long time: Doing a shimmy from your shoulder to your hips, while you're undulating. It looks very complicated, and it kind of is, but I've been trying to do this for a long time.
By no means is the move even close to perfect, but at least I know how to work on it.
Friday, January 23, 2009
So I am supposed to be reading for my class tomorrow, but I am too tired to concentrate on bankruptcy law terms. So instead, I am just going to analyze another ad.
This guy is 46 years old and is quite attractive for his age, even though I think he is too old for me. He is educated, seems well traveled and certainly knows how to write and spell (which I pay attention to). But even if age weren't a factor, I would still avoid him.
For one, he is posing with his shirt off. In not just one, but two pictures. Yes his abs look fabulous, but in one of the pics, he is posing in Hawaii in front of a sunset with a lei around his neck. Way too cliche and overplayed. I know that if I posed in a bikini in a profile, that would be sending out the wrong message.
Anyways, here goes.........
I'm forty-six years into life and must say it's been quite a ride. Wonderful highs in academics, personal relationships, art, sports, and business have been balanced with some bumps in the road. I AM MENTIONING THESE FIVE THINGS WITHOUT BEING SPECIFIC SO THAT YOU THINK I AM ACCOMPLISHED AND WILL BE IMMEDIATELY IMPRESSED. Through it all, I've discovered I have very little fear of failure and a sizeable appetite for experiencing what this "grand game" has to offer. I ACTUALLY DO HAVE FEAR, BUT WILL NEVER ADMIT IT IN FEAR OF LOSING MY MANLY PERSONA.
If you polled those who know me best ONLY I KNOW ME BEST, I believe (and hope) they'd describe me as passionate, soulful, considerate, courageous, conversive (yet verbose OOH, A BIG WORD at times), insightful, affectionate, resilient, creative, humorous, analytical, sharply dressed, hedonistic PAY ATTENTION, I AM DRESSING UP THIS RED FLAG IN A BIG WORD SO YOU'LL BE CONFUSED INTO THINKING IT'S A GRAND TRAIT, goofy or serious (depending on the situation), friendly, diverse, a renaissance man. I INCLUDED 17 ADJECTIVES, SO YOU BETTER THINK I AM SOMETHING SPECIAL.
What am I interested in? Classical music (particularly Chopin), the arts MEANING WHAT ?, athletics (former college football player)AGAIN, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I WAS SOMETHING BACK IN THE DAY, AND I WISH I WAS STILL IN MY TWENTIES, books (especially global economics and matters of the human condition IS HUMAN CONDITION CODE FOR TANTRIC SEX BOOKS ?), antiques, Alexander Valley wines, and the human race (i.e our individuality IS the difference!THAT IS A BULLSHIT LINE, BUT I HOPE YOU BOUGHT IT BECAUSE I AM VERY HORNY RIGHT NOW). Music wise, I actually lean in many directions (except Country)I THOUGHT YOU JUST MENTIONED CLASSICAL. I'm a bit of an information nut. Read the newspaper every morning in a local independent coffee YOU SHOULD BE IMPRESSED THAT I DON'T GO TO STARBUCKS house while bouncing in and out of a Blackberry NOTICE I LOVE MY GADGETS THAT MY MONEY BUYS. I think gadnets are really cool. I WILL PAY MORE ATTENTION TO MY BLACKBERRY THAN YOU IF WE GO OUT Can't imagine my two careers I WON'T HAVE TIME FOR YOU, AND I'LL EXPECT YOU TO SUPPORT ME (and life in general) without the aid of technological advancements. BY NOW YOU SHOULD GET THE HINT THAT I HAVE MONEY AND FLASH IT IN THE FORM OF GADGETS. I also think I've developed a decent knack for figuring out what makes people tick. Guess you could say I'm pretty observant. I'M SO OBSERVANT THAT I CAN TELL THAT I GOT YOU WET JUST READING MY PROFILE Maybe photography helps one polish this skill. I JUST HAD TO TOSS IN ONE MORE TALENT TO CONVINCE YOU I'VE GOT IT ALL.
The path of my life involves a constant crossover between urban sensibilities and mountain/ocean tranquility ... ISN'T THAT MOST OF THE POPULATION ANYWAYS ? which explains why you may have difficulty boxing me into any certain category or persona based on a particular set of descriptives. That said, I've been told I don't resemble the typical banker IN CASE YOU DIDN'T NOTICE THAT I HAVE MONEY WHEN I TALKED ABOUT MY ELECTRONIC GADGETS, I AM TELLING YOU I'M A BANKER SO IT REALLY SINKS IN. I don't really give that much thought considering I'd never wish for that career to define me anyway THAT'S A LIE, MY CAREER DEFINES ME BECAUSE WITHOUT IT AND MY MONEY I WOULDN'T FEEL WHOLE. I'm not really status quo and I tend to blend into situations as I see fit.
Who do I wish to meet? Well, I hope you have a decent balance between book and street smarts. If you know a little bit about a lot of things, that would be wonderful. This makes for meaningful conversation. Hopefully you're ambitious, graceful, globally aware SORRY, I'VE DATED REPUBLICANS AND I DON'T DRIVE A PRIUS, and showcase a wicked sense of humor DOES THIS TRANSLATION OF YOUR AD COUNT ?. Are you warm and caring? The empathetic type? Thoughtful? Do you wish for someone else's difficult situation to be better? YES, I WISH YOU WOULD FINALLY GET LAID SO YOU COULD TONE ALL THIS DOWN even if it means adjusting your busy schedule to accommodate? If so, I very much respect you for that.
I'd most definitely wish for there to be chemistry and mutual physical attraction between us. YOU MUST BE HOT. You know, that connection that's electric and quite intoxicating. BECAUSE WE WILL BE DOING A LOT OF BANGING. Are you fashionable without appearing to work that hard at it? Style--- some just have it. Maybe that describes you? Do you understand what it means to feel? Do you connect deeply with others? Cold, inconsiderate people really turn me off. I SAY THAT BECAUSE I CAN BE COLD AND INCONSIDERATE AND DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE I'M LOOKING IN THE MIRROR so do people who scream at each other. MY EX GIRLFRIEND AND I USED TO GET INTO SCREAMING MATCHES. How disrespectful. Emotional intelligence can be so grossly misunderstood. AND THIS MADE ME WANT TO HAVE A GROSS BOWEL MOVEMENT.
All things considered, I subscribe to this point of view---- We come into this world with nothing, and we leave with nothing. BASICALLY I AM WEAVING THIS AD OUT OF NOTHING, AND I WILL END UP GETTING NOTHING. All the more reason why the relationships we forge along the way are what matter most.
Appreciate you for making it all the way to the bottom line. Your endurance is quite admirable! OOH THE ACCOMPLISHED MAN RESPECTS ME ! Maybe we have what it takes to click? Time's ticking. Be well.
Okay, so I've taken a couple of personals ads and ripped them apart. But below is a good example of something I actually like.
His Headline reads "Smile, Life is Good"
I consider myself a down to earth person that is easy to get along with. I enjoy going out to the movies, traveling, or simply hanging out at home. I am looking for someone with similar interests as mine. Most important I am looking for some to enjoy life with. There are so many things that I want to experience and doing them with someone by my side makes it more rewarding.
Okay, so it is a little broad, and yeah, wouldn't almost everyone say that they're down to earth ? Who would ever admit to having a broom stick up their ass ? But there really isn't a perfect ad.
This guy is 41 and not a bad looking guy.
But here is why I like his ad.....
1.) It is positive.
2.) It is short, and he doesn't attempt to describe his life story, nor does he try to describe "the perfect woman".
3.) He is broad and doesn't really go into his interests, so that there is some mystery, so that there is more to talk about with him.
4.) Doesn't bash women in his ad. Doesn't go into how "he doesn't play games".
5.)He included his pictures. A face shot and a full shot, so you know what you're getting ahead of time. And in those pictures, he isn't shirtless, nor is he holding booze or posing with other women or posing with women that are blocked out.
6.) And last but not least, he isn't trying to spout of words of wisdom here. No poetry, no quotes, no amazing, earth shattering epiphanies. The last thing I want is a man to try and spoon feed me wisdom, especially when I didn't solicit it.
So I am taking a break from the bashing, but no worries, I will be back......
I swear to God that I have so many stories about my past roommates and neighbors. In every place that I've lived since I've moved out of my folks' something interesting always seems to happen. Let's just say that I have many stories to tell for years to come.
Last night was no exception.
I was watching TV till 2am. Just as I was about to go to bed, I heard moaning. I opened my balcony door (I have a view of the pool and hot tub) and saw two people bumping uglies in the hot tub. These people were stark naked and doing nasty things to each other, and didn't care that the pool was surrounded by apartments, and didn't care that people COULD HEAR THEM. I guess that they enjoyed the thrill of getting caught and probably don't realize or even care that they could get arrested. I came so close to yelling out to them that I was gonna call the cops. But the cops probably wouldn't care, so I decided I would let this slide.
I hope that I don't have to see this again. I wish I could scrub the visuals out of my head with bleach.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
So there have been some changes lately this week starting with the new president. I watched some of the inauguration and I enjoyed it. So many people came to DC and celebrated together. At least for a day there were no incidents or major protests. I think it's amazing that 1-2 million people were cramped in together and there were no major incidents.
Normally I don't like to discuss my political views, but I am happy that Obama got straight to work after his ceremony. He said that he would withdraw troops from Iraq, and that is what he is working on. Personally, I never really believed in Iraq. I never agreed with sending our soldiers over there, fighting for something that I felt we should've never even been involved with. Too many men and women died or were permanently injured over there. Of all our major threats, I didn't feel that Iraq was high on the scale.
I guess you could say that I believe we should take care of our own first and keep our noses out of other countries for as long as we can help it. When I was traveling abroad, I can't tell you how many people decided that they had an opinion about the US. People always feel that it is okay to bash America. I have always been a proud American, and wouldn't have it any other way. I hope that our image around the world will change in the next four years.
I wasn't a huge Obama follower, especially when the press wanted to equate him to The Messiah. I would've rather seen Hillary make it. I felt like all the hailing on him and all the bad press on the other side was so biased. Okay, yeah I think Palin really made Republicans look bad, but I felt like people put Obama on a pedestal and that he had a huge cult following. It was the cool thing to follow him, and if you didn't follow him you were an outcast, or considered a racist and people felt they had the right to out you down for it. Especially here in the Bay Area.
Now that he is president I hope that he will lead the country out of the mess it's been dragged into for many years. It definitely won't come over night, and although I don't agree with everything, I am happy that he went to work immediately. He certainly has his work cut out for him.
Monday, January 19, 2009
I have to say that I am real sore from yesterday's yoga. I am happy about that because it means that I am making progress. The key is to keep on showing up at those yoga classes.
I did more dance practice today. I practiced a little with the sword and did a little bit of floor work. I enjoy sword dance, but the problem is that although there are tons of bellydancers here in the area, I don't know of any that actually teach sword dance, and those that do are very limited. So therefore, I have to teach myself. Sometimes I wish I had someone there to give me some inspiration or teach me new moves. All I can do is watch other performers with the sword and try and teach myself.
I learned the sword for the very first time from my first bellydance teacher back in 2003. Back then I didn't have the patience to practice balancing it on my head, and it always fell off. Dancing on the floor with a sword on my head was unthinkable, and my knees were always sore.
But my classmate learned back then and was very graceful and elegant. She looked like a Native American goddess.
Then two years later in 2005 after I came back from Spain, I ran into her in a new dance class and we started dancing together. I told her I wanted to learn how to dance with the sword and she taught me how. And it took a lot of practice, but I persisted and now it's my thing.
I went to Kentucky Fried Chicken today on my way to work to pick up some fried chicken. I've been craving that for the past month and decided to allow myself two pieces and some corn.
So I ordered it, and it was obvious that it had been under the lamps for a while. I was so disappointed. The last time I had KFC was over the summer last year. And that time it was so good, I was licking my fingers afterward. This time it tasted like a greasy, rubber tire.
I didn't work this hard and have a huge craving like this only to get disappointed by old fast food.
I will just have to go to a different KFC later.
Okay, so I have been ripping on men and their personals. Don't get me wrong, I know that there are good men out there, and I am not a man hater. But I couldn't help but laugh at the ads I copied and pasted.
One of my readers was curious as to how I would translate female personals.
One gender isn't worse than the other. There are good men and women everywhere. And when there are bad apples, they are both male and female.
Anywho, the ad I copied was from a 29 year old woman, who is attractive in a girl-next door sort of way. Her personal screamed ISSUES, but I am sure many dudes will continue to contact her anyway without reading it.
Hello, I'm looking for Mr. Right..... could that be you? I am a very sensitive person who cries at movies. I WILL BE MAKING YOU TAKE ME TO CHICK FLICKS ALL THE TIME. I am a musical theater major so dramatic and fun and outgoing pretty much describe that aspect of me. TRANSLATION: I DON'T LIKE SPORTS And I am passionate. I have only had 2 "love-of-my-life" guys in my life and am looking for the one who surpasses them. I AM TELLING YOU THIS RIGHT NOW SO THAT YOU KNOW THAT THEY PRESSURE IS ON AND I WILL BE COMPARING YOU TO THESE TWO MEN ALL NIGHT LONG, EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM. I want a friend I can go to Disneyland with TRANSLATION: I WANT CHILDREN, MY BIOLOGICAL CLOCK IS TICKING AS WE SPEAK, a boyfriend I can talk to and a lover to cuddle with. I am just a woman looking for Mr. Right,I know he's out there......IN CASE YOU DIDN'T CATCH IT IN MY VERY FIRST SENTENCE M. Right is a prince hidden among commoners. My dream mate SERIOUSLY, WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO COFFEE AND CASUAL CONVERSATION ??? would have to be one that supports me in all I do, even if he doesn't agree with it. SO I WILL ASK YOU FOR YOUR OPINION ALL THE TIME, BUT I WON'T EVER TAKE YOUR ADVICE. AND WHEN I SCREW UP ROYALLY AFTER NOT TAKING YOUR ADVICE I EXPECT YOU TO COMFORT ME AND TELL ME IT'S NOT REALLY MY FAULT. He loves me for me.EVEN AFTER I START TO GAIN WEIGHT ONCEI'VE DATED YOU FOR A WHILE He trusts me. He wants to cuddle in front of the VCR and make out in movie theaters HONEY, DON'T YOU MEAN A DVD PLAYER OR A DVR ??? GET WITH THE TIMES ! (and vice versa as needed). He cannot be allergic to pets, but a non-pet lover is OK. HUH ?? I love heavily, so he must be expecting notes on his car, messages just to say "hi," I WILL STALK YOU and kisses in public places JUST TO SHOW ALL THE OTHER BITCHES THAT YOU'RE MY MAN. PDA is an honor, not a right. Basically he would treat me like the princess I really am. I AM DEMANDING THAT YOU TREAT ME LIKE A PRINCESS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH SELF ESTEEM TO REALLY BELIEVE THAT I AM ONE And he would be treated like my knight in shining armor. I WILL WORSHIP YOU AND PUT YOU ON A PEDESTAL AND HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS OF YOU.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Do you think life is too fast paced in our Metropolis? If so, then you and I are in agreement. It dawned on me years ago that I want to live enjoying each moment, not rushing to one thing then another, while also engaging others with a candid honesty. If taking things easy and seeing what develops sounds good to you, then you should contact me. ACTUALLY IT DIDN'T JUST OCCUR TO ME, I JUST SAY THINGS LIKE THAT SO I SEEM DEEP.
I have been told that I have a quiet passion and relaxing demeanor. My friends like my compassion and my female friends find my intellect and conversation warm, enlightening, and unpretentious. THEY NEVER TOLD ME SUCH THINGS, THIS IS HOW I THINK, AND I'VE TRIED TO BONE ALL MY FEMALE FRIENDS MYSELF I have a way of putting those around me at ease, because I'm at ease with myself. If having a calm, relaxing friend in your presence is something you'd like, let me know - we'll talk. WHEN I SAY TALKING, I REALLY MEAN BANGING
I'd like to find someone who is comfortable with herself and her situation, and values sharing herself honestly with a man who can both provide her companionship that is both comfortably secure and interpersonally challenging. I have no need for a boss nanny, I SAY THIS BECAUSE I TEND TO ATTRACT JEALOUS WOMEN THAT REMIND ME OF MY MOTHER I appreciate a woman who can engage with me as an equal. I DON'T REALLY MEAN THAT, I DON'T THINK I COULD HANDLE IT IF YOU MADE MORE THAN ME OR BOSSED ME AROUND AS MUCH AS I WILL BOSS YOU AROUND.
We hear that we are in need quite a bit in our society, so many messages about a special someone who isn't "in our lives", a vehicle, or gadget we can't live without; but the truth is that everything we need is all around us. THE TRUTH IS I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT I JUST SAID What's missing in these messages is the sense of appreciation for all those gifts and blessings tucked away in plain sight. I believe we are conditioned to take them for granted and not take things in slowly, with gratitude and humility. Could you imagine our social fabric I WAS WAITING FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO SAY SOCIAL FABRIC. IT MAKES ME SEEM MORE SOPHISTICATED with a grateful contentment instead of a destructive ambitiousness? SINCE WHEN DO THE WORDS "DESTRUCTIVE" AND "AMBITIOUS" GO TOGETHER ? When was the last time relaxing at home with good company filled you up with joy like no extroverted grand event ever could? SEE, I AM SO UNPRETENTIOUS THAT I JUST COMPARED MYSELF TO A GRAND EVENT
If my outlook sounds intriguing and worth a follow up chat to you, then you know how to contact me, right? (hint: there's a button that says Email this Handsome Introspect DUMBASS, INTROSPECT IS ACTUALLY A VERB) To everyone whose read this far thanks and take what I've written as food for thought, my insights have a way of provoking thoughtful discussion among those to whom I communicate. YES, YOUR INTERESTING INSIGHT PROVOKED IRRITABILITY IN ME. I ALSO THINK I JUST FARTED. You might even want to contact me for insightful conversation, that would be great. THE TRUTH IS, I DON'T REALLY OFFER INSIGHTFUL CONVERSATION, BUT I CAN OFFER YOU UP MY INSIGHTFUL PENIS. WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE THE PICTURES ?. Have a great time what ever you decide to do.
Today I went to a yoga class at my gym. If you ever want to feel better about yourself, you should come with me to a yoga class and do it next to me. You will most likely do better than me.
I haven't done yoga in a couple of years. I consider myself to be moderately fit. But damn, I was huffing and puffing in yoga class today. The instructor kept doing exercises involving upper arm strength, and it was so hard for me. It is so easy to forget to breath properly. But I have the upper arm strenght of a kitten and this woman would not let up with the damn positions involving upper arms. I wanted to quit many times. I did take a couple of breathers here and there, but I did stick it out until the end. For that, I am proud of myself.
I've been wanting to improve on my upper arm strength, so I will have to suffer for a while before I start seeing improvements. No pain, no gain, baby. Today there was definitely some pain, so I guess I am good for now. I guess that things will get better if I keep trying. Arm workouts are the worst, but I do want to have more arm strength. In bellydance, I like to dance on the floor and hold myself up with both arms. It's very powerful if I can pull it off, and I want to be able to pull it off.
Other than that, nothing more to report really. The weather has been splendid around here. I walked to my gym in a tank top. Unfortunately the weather will return to cold and rainy by the end of this week, but I enjoyed the warm break while it lasted. It's like a little preview of the spring and summer. Makes me want to work on getting into better shape for bikini season.
Okay, enough for now. Time to catch up on reading for my classes. Tootles :)
Friday, January 16, 2009
Sometimes I like to peruse personals for pure entertainment. This posting which I snagged off a site isn't really weird, but oh so cliche and I feel like adding my two cents in capital letters. By the way, he is 30, and is a good looking guy,
Maybe I am cynical/jaded, or maybe I am being realistic. Here goes......
"Me and My Ideal Match"
My friends would describe me as fun, quick witted with a great sense of humor, loyal, humble, down to earth, and athletic. DAMN THAT'S A LOT OF ADJECTIVES, ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU DIDN'T SPRINKLE A COUPLE OF YOUR OWN IN THERE ? SO MUCH FOR HUMBLENESS. BESIDES, YOUR FRIENDS MAY FIND YOU HILARIOUS, BUT ARE YOU SURE THE REST OF THE WORLD IS LAUGHING WITH YOU ?
I love acting, movies/theater, art, wine, food, and traveling when I get the chance. I love learning new things. I can be goofy at times and love slapstick humor, yet sophisticated and like to have intelligent conversations at other times. OKAY, YOU CAN SPELL, WHICH IS NICE. BUT IF YOU HAVE TO SAY THAT YOU LOVE INTELLIGENT CONVERSATIONS, THEN MAYBE YOU AREN'T THAT SOPHISTICATED AT ALL, MON AMIE.....
I have worked and done many things that have taught me more about who I am and what I like. I am very driven and have goals set that I will achieve. I believe life is what you make of it and that you can create almost anything you dream. BLAH BLAH BLAH..... I AM JUST SPRINKING WORDS OF WISDOM IN HERE TO MAKE IT APPEAR THAT I AM A DEEP THINKER, WHEN I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET INTO YOUR PANTS.
I play in a softball league with some friends when I get the chance. I enjoy sports and going to games like most guys. If I watch TV it is usually comedy central or the history channel. I love watching movies and snuggling when it rains WHERE I WILL PRESSURE YOU TO PUT OUT, or even heading out to the hot tub with a bottle of wine and relaxing WHERE I WILL MOST DEFINITELY TRY TO BANG YOU. I really just like to have a good time and am capable of having fun doing almost anything. I WILL ACT LIKE I AM HAVING FUN WATCHING THAT CHICK FLICK WITH YOU BECAUSE I WILL EXPECT YOU TO REWARD ME BACK.
I am a bit of an old fashion guy that likes to open doors for a woman and am romantic, but looking to make friends with someone first before that chivalry side comes out. BASICALLY, I WANT TO BANG YOU FIRST BEFORE I DECIDE TO TREAT YOU WITH THE RESPECT THAT YOU DESERVE.
HAHA, "CHIVALRY SIDE". SO MUCH FOR BEING SOPHISTICATED. DON'T YOU MEAN YOUR CHIVALROUS SIDE ?
OKAY, SERIOUSLY, DUDE.... TRUE CHIVALROUS MEN DON'T NEED TO MENTION THAT THEY OPEN DOORS AND BE ROMANTIC, BECAUSE IT'S PART OF WHO THEY ARE.
I think open communication and honesty are a very important, and of course chemistry.
ACTUALLY, CHEMISTRY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, IF I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO YOU, THEN FORGET THE OTHER TWO.......
Now about you: Smart, fun, great sense of humor and a little bit goofy at times, yet sophisticated and classy at other times. HAHA, AS SOPHISTICATED AS YOU ? You like to learn new things, like being active and healthy, but at the same time enjoy relaxing on the coach and watching movies, as well as going out to a sports game, or some sort of outdoor activity. If you like sushi...that's a big plus.
So I wish I could say TGIF, but in reality, Saturday is the busiest day of the week for me. Tomorrow I have class from 9:30-1:20, dance class after that, and then work after that until midnight.
I have a lot of reading to do tonite for class tommorow in Bankruptcy Law. I can't tell you how hard it is to listen to the teacher talk on and on for hours about the law. Last Saturday I tried to get coffee before class, but there was a huge ass line out the door at Starbucks, so I had to do without. Tomorrow I will be leaving earlier.
Speaking of which, I left early yesterday for my Civil Lit class so that I could get coffee and read, and just relax. It turned out that I left my wallet at home, and couldn't even buy a snack. I just had water. It was so hard to stay away during class. Then the teacher made us get into our groups for more work. :(
It seems like I am not meant to have my coffee !
We started our group work in Civil Lit. Let's just say that I still barely know what I am doing. We are working on interrogatories, and the teacher said that he's not explaining them so that we have the chance to make mistakes. He said that he wants us to make plenty of mistakes before he goes over it. Way to make me feel like an idiot, if you ask me. I do have to say that it makes it more interesting.
I have been dancing a little more lately. I try to dance at least twice a week. I have been working more on my stomach isolations so that I can do a better belly roll. I have also been working out my upper arms a little more so that I can hold myself up a little more when I dance with the sword.
Okay, time to cut this short and have some dinner.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Okay, so I was looking at my receipt for my Civil Litigation textbook, and realized that I actually paid $160 instead of the $150 I thought I paid. On top of that, I looked up the book on Amazon.com and realized that had I waited a week, I could've gotten it brand new for only $104.
Man do I feel dirty, talk about being taken. I can't believe I allowed myself to get ripped off like that.
After that I told myself that I wasn't going to spend more money until payday. Hahaha ! Feeling kinda bored and sad about this ordeal, I logged onto eBay.
I bought some lotion from Bath and Body Works that was discontined. In case you're wondering, the scent is called Magnolia Blossom. The employees at Bath and Body Works told me that they'd offer it in their semi-annual sale every 6 months. I waited 6 months for the sale, and when it came around, there was no lotion.
The clerk there told me they were selling it online, but he was wrong about that too. Luckily I found it on eBay. I hate bidding, so I just clicked the "buy it now" button. I also got free shipping.
By the way, the prices at Bath and Body works have really gone up in the past few years. I was looking at foot lotion, that they tried to originally sell for $20. Then they tried to advertise %75 off, which meant it only costed $5 with the sale. I still could've gone to the drugstore and paid the same amount or less for foot lotion.
Pay day is coming up this week, and already I have a nice hefty credit card bill waiting for me, over half of which is due to getting butt raped by the college bookstore.
Other than this, I really have nothing more interesting to report. Between work, my internship, dance practice, school and workouts, I live a boring existence.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I don't really know what to say except that I am burned out. I have so much reading for my classes, a lot of classwork coming up and a lot of preparing for a new job. I recently found out that I type 30wpm. I can't tell you how embarrassed I am, especially after I THOUGHT I typed 50wpm. At least thats what the results were when I took the typing test last year. It looks like I got worse after a year. :(
These last three months are going to be very long.
Today my friend Ashleigh came over and we worked out together in the weight room. Then we did sit ups. I felt better after. I normally just run or dance for exercise, but I have heard that the key to actually keeping your shape is through weight lifting.
Okay, that is all for now. I am tired and have had a long day.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Below is a pic of me when I went ice skating on New Years Eve. I don't like the way I posed, as my face looks a little chunkier than it normally is, but my feet look awfully cute. I love my ice skates.
The rink downtown is closing for the rest of the year until next Christmas season. But luckily there is a permanent ice rink open all year round a few min from my house. Ice skating is always great exercise.
Anywho, that is all for now. :)
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Mike tagged me because he thinks I am a meme whore. Well, yeah, I am...... If you got it, flaunt it, lol.......
Four places I go over and over again:
FRIEND'S HOUSE TO DANCE
Four people who mail me regularly: (I get very few regular emails from people)
MY HONOR'S GROUP
JOBVAULT E-MAILING ME ABOUT WORTHLESS JOBS I'M NOT INTERESTED IN
WHERE ARE YOU NOW CLAIMS MANY PEOPLE WANT TO TALK TO ME
Four of my favorite places to eat, (apart from home):
ANY SUSHI HOUSE
Four places I'd rather be now:
AUSTRIA WITH MY FAMILY
Four favorite TV s
LAW AND ORDER SVU
THE REAL HOUSEWIVES
Four movies I would watch over and over again:
TWO CAN PLAY THAT GAME
Four people I would like to tag:
WIN BECAUSE I KNOW THAT DEEP DOWN SHE IS A SURVEY WHORE LIKE MYSELF.
AND THAT'S REALLY IT
Okay, so the weather today was nice and sunny. It's been cloudy, rainy and miserable lately so I enjoy the nice break with the sun out.
I started my Bankruptcy Law class this morning. The lecture is every Saturday for about 4 hours. I am still feeling sick, so sitting through that lecture was just awful. She kept confusing me with legal terminology and I had a hard time concentrating. While I was listening to her, I kinda wanted to puke. So I left after about an hour and a half.
I usually do not leave a class early like that, as I always go to class and always stay for the entire time. I do not like starting off the quarter like this.
Other than that, I really have nothing else to report for now. I wish that I was well enough to actually walk around town and enjoy the weather. I will try to sleep in tomorrow and get some much needed rest.
Friday, January 9, 2009
School just started, and I am not starting the quarter off on the best foot.
I took Civil Litigation last quarter, and now I am taking Advanced Civil Litigation this time around. I was only supposed to buy one textbook for the two classes. But when I took Civil Litigation last quarter I had the 4th Edition and now in Advanced Civil Litigation they want me to use the 5th Edition.
I thought that I could just use the old book since the terminology is essentially the same, but then I compared the two books and realized the laws changed so I really do have to buy the new book.
So I find out that both bookstores are out. I drive 20 min to another school campus with a paralegal program and the sales people there aren't happy that I want to buy
books from their store because I am not a student there. They try to tell me that they may not be able to sell it to me. I gave them the look of death, but I did end up with the book in the end.
The total damage was $150 for a small textbook that I shouldn't have even had to buy in the first place. It was like getting butt raped with no lube. So not looking forward to the credit card bill for next month.
What else..... my teacher for my Advanced Civil Lit class is a grade A grouch. Plus he split us up into groups. I can't tell you how much I hate groupwork. There is always a slacker, and you always end up picking up the slack.
On another note, I think I may be starting to get sick. My roommate is sick and so is my coworker. Right now I am starting to feel dizzy when I walk around. This really sucks because I have Bankruptcy Law class tomorrow morning and I can't afford to skip it because I only have class once a week. I also have to work, and I have no more sick days left.
Anywho, time to log off right now as it is getting really hard to concentrate.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Last night I was awoken from my deep sleep by cats. No, actually it was very early in the morning. Not just any cats, but feral cats. These cats hang around our apartment complex. I don't know if they were in heat or if they were fighting or what. But the point is, whatever noise they were making was simply downright disturbing. It sounded like a possessed child throwing a tantrum. These damn cats wouldn't shut up. I kept thinking that they would be quiet on their own, but that didn't happen. I think someone threw rocks at them or something. I was in my room and couldn't see anything, but it sounded like someone threw rocks or maybe used a bb gun. I am not sure, but thankfully I was able to go back to sleep.
Today I practiced my dance moves. I worked on my back bends and now my lower back is sore. I also danced with my sword a little. I got a good work out. I am thinking about getting back into yoga. It definitely builds strength and helps maintain poses in dance.
Nothing else really going on in my world. I still need to buy my textbook for school. I wills start my class on Thursday. I hope that my teachers will be nice this quarter. It is my last, so I am hoping that it will go smoothly without any major issues.
Other than that, I really don't have much else to report.
Ciao Cioa :)
Waste of Time
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1. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? CHICA, SENORITA
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2. HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU EAT IN A DAY? AT LEAST 3
3. DO YOU LOVE TO GOSSIP? I TRY TO AVOID IT, BUT SOMETIMES IT'S TOO GOOD TO PASS UP
4. HAS ANYONE SAID A STUPID COMMENT TO YOU TODAY? NOT TODAY
5. WHAT IS THE LONGEST TIME YOU HAVE TAKEN A SHOWER? PROLLY AN HOUR
6. WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND RIGHT THIS SECOND? THIS SURVEY
7. HOW DO YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT? IN MY BED
8. HOW MANY JOBS HAVE YOU HAD IN YOUR LIFE TIME? AT LEAST 10
9. WHAT KIND OF UNDERWEAR DOES YOUR SPOUSE WEAR? NOT MARRIED
10. WHAT IS YOUR BEST BODY FEATURE? MY EYES
11. ARE YOU JEALOUS FOR ANYONE? NO
12. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8:30 LAST NIGHT? WORKING
13. WHEN DID YOU HAVE YOUR LAST HAIR CUT? RIGHT BEFORE THANKSGIVING
14. HOW MANY PAIR OF SHOES DO YOU OWN? AT LEAST 30
14. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BRA? PINK
15. WHAT DID YOU EAT FOR LUNCH TODAY? STEW, IT WAS DELISH
16. WHAT IS THE FUNNIEST THING YOU HAVE DONE IN THE PAST 6 MONTHS? I WAS ON A DATE AND WE FED HIS DOG PEANUT BUTTER
17. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? TAKE A MORNING PISS
18. DO YOU HAVE A BAD HABIT YOU CAN NOT BREAK? YEAH, I LOVE MY CHOCOLATE
19. DO YOU THINK THIS SURVEY IS STUPID AND A WASTE OF TIME? MAYBE, BUT I HAVE THE TIME TO WASTE RIGHT NOW
20. WHAT DO YOU HATE THE MOST ABOUT PEOPLE? HOW THEY CAN STAB YOU IN THE BACK
21. DO YOU HAVE ANY BODY PIERCINGS? YES
22. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED? AN HOUR OR TWO AGO
23. WHAT DOES YOUR SPOUSE DO FOR LIVING? NO SPOUSE, PEOPLE ! GET WITH THE PROGRAM....
24. WHAT PERFUME ARE YOU CURRENTLY WEARING? JEAN PAUL GAULTIER
25. HOW MANY RINGS ARE YOU WEARING ON YOUR RIGHT HAND? NONE
26. WHO IS JESSICA SIMPSON CURRENTLY DATING? TONY ROMO
27. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU CALLED PRIVATE? YOU MEAN A PRIVATE CALL ? I DON'T REMEMBER...
28. IF YOU WON TEN THOUSANF DOLLARS, HOW WOULD YOU SPEND YOUR MONEY? PAY OFF THE REST OF MY CAR LOAN
29. WHAT IS YOUR GOAL IN LIFE? TO BE HAPPY
30. IF YOU SAW A SHOOTING STAR, WHAT WOULD YOU WISH FOR? A NEW JOB
31. WHAT WAS THE MOST ROMANTIC EXPERIENCE YOU HAD WITH YOUR SPOUSE? LIKE I SAID, NO SPOUSE !
32. WHAT IS HANGING ON THE WALL ABOVE YOUR BED? NOTHING
33. ARE YOUR HANDS COLD? NOT NOW
34. WHAT SIDE OF THE BED DO YOU SLEEP ON? THE LEFT
35. RED OR WHITE WINE? WHITE
36. HAVE YOU EVER MODELED? FOR BELLYDANCE PICS
37. HAVE YOU GIVEN A COMPLIMENT TODAY? I THINK I DID, I FORGET
38. ARE YOU INTREVERTED OR EXTRAVERTED? I FEEL MORE INTROVERTED
39. DO YOU HOPE TO HAVE A CHILD THAT TURNS OUT LIKE YOU? I DON'T KNOW IF I AM EVEN CUT OUT TO HAVE CHILDREN
40. WHAT WAS YOUR LAST PURCHASE? OLIVE OIL
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Monday, January 5, 2009
I am just sitting here bored and trying to pass the time. I've had this blog for 5 years now. My 5th anniversary was on December 29th.
I was reading my earlier entries and it's interesting to see how I've changed. I used to complain about boys all the time. I read some of my older entries and I see ISSUES !! lol
I was also reading the posts I wrote from when I was living abroad in Barcelona. I sure did have some adventures abroad. I experienced a rollercoaster of emotions while I lived abroad: happiness, excitement, confusion, depression and accomplishment.
I kinda miss how freely I used to live my life. I just packed up all my things and moved to Spain for a year after college, with really no set plans in mind. I didn't know how long I was going to be abroad. I ended up lasting for a year. And somehow, things ended up working out while I was there. Sure, it wasn't the perfect arrangement. I didn't end up landing a lucrative job or marrying my prince charming. But I never went hungry, I never had to worry about sleeping on the street, and I never worried about my safety. Somehow things worked out. Something came through at the last minute.
While I lived there I didn't have working papers but I managed to find places to live, find a job, open a bank account, find students, and go out almost every weekend. I rarely ever stayed home alone on weekends by myself. I was usually up to something. I went to clubs, went out to eat, the movies, dancing.......
I wouldn't take that trip back for the world. I am still single, still no children, still not a lot of responsibility. The only thing I really am chained to is my car payment. It is so tempting to travel all over again.
At the same time, my career is really important to me. I am working very hard to try and get a better job in the legal field.
I am giving myself one year to find a legal job. The process can be lengthy for people like me who are just starting out in this field, but I think I will find a job within that time period.
However, if it doesn't happen, I promise that I will put everything in storage and travel abroad.
So today I interviewed with a legal temp agency. The lady that interviewed me said that I did very well, that I was on top of my game and sounded confident. She was happy with the volunteer and internship experience. She did have a small complaint and told me that while she interviewed me that I was talking too loud, but I can deal with that. It's easy to fix and all I have to do is simply lower my voice.
Unfortunately there are no available positions at the time. Not to say that I was surprised, because HELLO ! it is the new year, and business is slow and the economy sucks balls. They estimated that business will pick up by March or April, which I can totally deal with. By then I will be done with all my classes.
After she talked to me she had me take 3 tests at a computer on legal terminology, Microsoft Word 2000 and a typing test.
I kicked ass in legal terminology portion. I only missed 1 of the 35 questions. Unfortunately I wasn't so lucky with Microsoft Word. Since I only have used it in writing papers, I got totally lost when I was asked to insert graphics and do specialized things. As far as the typing test went, I think that I did average, but I am still waiting to find out on that.
So improving on MS Word and my typing is the easiest part. I could do that in two weeks at my school. Since school is just starting this week, I will sign up for a refresher course in Word Excel.
I tried calling the recruiter after the interview and of course she was unavailable. I left her a message, but I would be lucky if she decides to return my calls. I have found that most recruiters can't be bothered to return my calls. It sucks, but such is life. I am just starting out, and perhaps as I gain more experience and become more placeable, they'll start responding a little faster.
Luckily I have two other legal placement agencies to meet with, and they are relatively the same.
After my interview, I noticed a lady who's car battery died. When I first pulled in the parking lot this morning, I saw a car with it's headlites on. I tried to find the owner, but to no avail. So when I come out of the office a couple of hours later, she is sitting in her car on the phone, calling for help, because her car battery died. I ask her if she needed help with her car because I noticed her lights were left on earlier, and she said yes. Luckily I had jumper cables in my car. My dad gave me a little emergency kit for my car one year, which has definitely been useful.
So I jump started her car, and found out that she goes to my same school, and was interviewing for an office assistant position. She was in the room next to me interviewing, and apparently I was loud because she told me that she heard me and said that I sounded confident in my interview.
Very nice lady, and I was glad I could help her. I almost felt like I was rescuing a damsel in distress in the rain, haha. The weather did suck today. Cold and rainy.
But I hear that should be changing this weekend. I hear it's supposed to be sunny and in the 70s. I sure hope so.
Anywho, that is all for today.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
OH GOD NO
2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
USE SOME AND GIVE THE REST AWAY
3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
CLASSICAL MUSIC, THAT IS ALL MY MOM SUBJECTED ME TO
4. What is the best thing about your job?
5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was required in class?
HELL YEAH, AND LUCKILY MY TEACHERS ENFORCE IT
8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
I HAVE NO IDEA IF I WILL BE ABLE TO AFFORD ONE
9. Quote a song lyric?
I LIKE BIG BUTTS AND I CAN NOT LIE.........
10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
13. If you could be an animal what would you be?
A BIRDIE SO I COULD FLY.......
14. What state/country are you from?
15. Tell us about the last conversation/s you had.
TALKING TO MY MOM ONLINE
16. Where do you see yourself in one month?
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SCHOOL QUARTER
17. What is your favorite smell?
FRESH BAKED BREAD
18. What is your favorite sight?
A HOT BUFFED MAN
19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers?
22. Have you ever gone to therapy?
23. Have you ever played Spin the bottle?
24. Have you ever toilet-papered someone's house?
25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
26. Have you ever gone camping?
YES, BUT IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME
27. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's friend?
I DON'T HAVE A SISTER
28. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
HAHA, YES I HAVE IN BARCELONA, AND PEOPLE LOOKED AT ME WEIRD FOR WALKING THE DOG IN CLOTHES
29. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
NEGATIVO, SAND ON THE NAUGHTY BITS DOES NOT APPEAL TO ME
30. Have you ever had a stalker?
YES I DID IN BARCELONA, AND HE USED TO BE MY ROOMMATE
32. have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
YES, IT'S AWESOME
33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober one?
34. Have you ever been cheated on?
NOT THAT I CAN PROVE
35. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?
36. Have you ever lied to your parents?
EVERY CHILD HAS LIED TO THEIR PARENTS AT SOME POINT
37. Have you ever been out of the US?
38. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
39. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
NO, AND THAT IS DISGUSTING
41. Have you ever gotten so wasted you cant remember the nite before?
NEVER BEEN FULLY DRUNK YET
42. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on?
43. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers?
44. Kissed more than one person at a time?
45. Pot? ME NO LIKEY.......
As you know, I live in the Bay Area here in CA. Every year, there is a huge bellydance festival called Rakkasah West. It is the biggest bellydance festival in the country, maybe even the world. There are three parts to this festival:
People from all over the world fly down here, because there is money to be made. The workshops last all week. Well known performers give workshops, and vendors from everywhere fly in. You can buy some real elaborate costumes there. I stick to accessories and music, as I notice that a lot of the stuff sold there is overpriced.
And then there are the dancers............ people like me can sign up to perform. It doesn't matter how much or little experience you have, if you sign up you can get it. I've seen my teachers perform, and then I've seen absolute beginners. And people do get creative with their music and costume choices.
The only problem with getting on the list is calling in. Hundreds of people are calling in on just one phone line, and the wait is totally unbearable. A couple of years ago I spent 7 hours total hitting the speed dial until I got in. It was torture. I didn't perform last year, partly because of the unbearable wait, but I decided to do it this year.
Today was the call-in date for this year's Rakkasah and I decided that I wasn't going to spend 7 hours non stop. I just spent a couple of hours trying here and there throughout the day. And I was shocked that I got it at around 3:45pm. There are many people that never get in.
I will be dancing Friday, March 13th at 8:24pm under my stage name, Amira. I've performed twice before. In 2006 I danced with my troupe with the sword, and my piece was very short. In 2007 I did my solo with the sword. This year, I am not sure yet. I think that I will dance with the sword. But I have 3 months, so I am really not in a rush. I am doing this for the love of the dance, to meet other dancers, and to have a good time.
I remember when I danced in 2007. It was the first time that I did my sword dance under my new stage name in front of a crowd. I was so nervous. I remember practicing
before they called my name, because I was afraid the sword would fall in the middle of my routine. There was a nice, pretty lady in pink practicing her stuff too. We ended up talking before and she calmed me down. She stayed to watch me dance, and I did the same for her. When I danced, the sword didn't fall down, although my hand jewelry did.
Anywho, so that is all for now. Time to go and look for a survey.........
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Have you ever been to a football game?: YES
How old is the computer your on?: A FEW YEARS, I THINK
When you looked in the mirror today, what was your first thought?: I THINK I'M LOSING MORE WEIGHT
Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream?: CHOCOLATE
Don't you just hate it when you burn you tongue/mouth with food?: YES, YET I STILL DO IT ALL THE TIME
What are your three main watched TV channels?: MTV, BRAVO, WE
Have you ever painted your face for a sports game?: NEGATIVO
If you were a dog, what kind of dog would match you best?: A BEAGLE
Do you like the snow or rain better?: SNOW
Did you ever wet the bed when you were younger?: YES, BUT IT WAS A VERY RARE OCCURANCE
If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?: AMSTERDAM
What color is your cell phone?: RED
Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?: MY BROTHER
How much cash do you have on you?: NOTHING
What did your last text message you received on your cell say?: NICK WISHING ME A GOOD MORNING
Last furry thing you touched?: MY JACKET
Choose: A million bucks or to be able to fly?: A MILLION DOLLARS
Have you ever faked sick?: YES, BUT NOT TO SKIP WORK
What is your blood-type?: I DON'T KNOW
Have you ever had an online relationship?: WELL, IT WASN'T STRICTLY ONLINE
Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? Why?: I DON'T WANT TO BE TIED UP, PERIOD ! NEXT QUESTION.....
Have you ever seen a dead body?: NOT YET
Have you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?: YES
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad?: MY DAD
In your opinion, whats the best way for someone to die?: IN THEIR SLEEP
What type of day are you having?: A CALM ONE SO FAR
Have you ever eaten a bug?: YES
How many things are you really thinking about right now?: NOT MUCH AT ALL REALLY
How many windows are open in your computer?: 4
The last time you were in the fridge, what were you looking for?: MEAT
Do you like clowns?: I DON'T HATE THEM
Have you answered all of these questions honestly so far?: YES
Have you ever spent the night in the hospital?: NOT YET, AND I HOPE I DON'T HAVE TO
Has anyone ever under-estimated your intelligence?: YES
What's the third text in your inbox?: FROM MY CREDIT CARD COMPANY
Are you listening to anything at the moment?: THE HEATER
Anything good happening tomorrow?: YES, I WILL BE ALIVE
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?: JACKETS
How do you handle stress?: I DEAL WITH IT
Would you rather spend a whole day with your mom or your dad?: THAT'S AN UNFAIR QUESTION... EITHER ONE
If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?: YES
Can you take a bra off with one hand?: NO, I AM NOT A MAN, LOL
Have you ever been too drunk to remember anything?: NO
Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?: YES
If women ruled the world would there be more peace?: MAYBE, BUT THERE WOULD BE A LOT MORE GOSSIPING AND CATTINESS
Do you twitch when your falling asleep?: SOMETIMES
Do you have big dreams for your life?: I THINK SO
Ever wished on a shooting star? Did it come true?: I'VE NEVER WISHED ON ONE
Can you text with out looking at your phone?: NO, AND I HAVE TRIED
Do you eat junk food or chocolate when your sad or depressed?: OH TOTALLY
Do you have an innie or an outtie bellybutton?: INNIE,
Which shoe do you put on first?: WHICHEVER I PICK UP FIRST
Who is the last person you think about before you fall asleep?: NO ONE IN PARTICULAR
Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?: NO
How often do you clean out your ears?: EVERY OTHER DAY
Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?: FOLD, SCRUNCHING IS MORE LIKELY TO LEAVE TOILET PAPER PIECES STUCK UP YOUR ASS
Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?: I DON'T DO DARES, NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE THINK
Have you ever had a splinter anywhere other than your hands?: NOT THAT I RECALL
When was the last time you used a port-o-potty?: EARLIER THIS YEAR WHEN I WAS DOING A RIDE-A-LONG WITH A COP
Have you ever licked a DVD to clean it?: YES
Are your dishes in the dishwasher clean or dirty?: DIRTY
Can you crack your neck?: YES
Have you ever met someone famous?: NOT REALLY
When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?: I DON'T HAVE THOSE URGES
Have you ever blocked someone on MySpace before?: NO, JUST MADE IT PRIVATE
Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear?: NO
What is something you need to go shopping for?: MY TEXTBOOK
Have you been to the movies in the last 7 days?: NEGATIVO
What is in your pocket right now?: MY PHONE
What's your favorite soup?: CHICKEN AND VEGETABLE
What was the last play you saw?: I DON'T REMEMBER
Do you feel you have a purpose or calling in life?: YES
Do you have a good relationship with your family?: YES
Have you ever found anything gross in one of your McDonald's meals?: NO, BUT THEN AGAIN, I HAVEN'T EATEN THERE IN YEARS
Name someone from your past that you wish was still there?: MY OMA
What's your favorite zoo animal?: LION OR TIGER
Did you have imaginary friend(s) as a child?: OH NO
Do you like Hot Pockets?: YES
Do you like soda in a can, bottle, or as a fountain drink?: BOTTLE
Myspace or facebook?: NEITHER
Do you ever click on pop-up ads?: ACCIDENTALLY
Are you at home or with friends more often?: HOME
Is your room painted or wallpapered?: PAINTED
Do you have a significant other?: NO
Have you ever told a girl/boyfriend you loved them but didn't mean it?: YES
Do you play with your gummi bears?: YES, I MAKE THEM KISS EACHOTHER
Did your mom or dad ever put soap in your mouth?: HAHA, YES
Do you lick your lollipops or suck them?: SUCK
Have you ever ran with scissors?: YES
Do you still watch cartoons?: NO
Do you usually write in print or in cursive?: A CREATIVE MIXTURE OF BOTH
When did you pray last?: ON CHRISTMAS WITH MY GRANDMA
What was the last button you pushed?: MY MOUSE
Do you prefer hot tea or iced tea?: ICED TEA
When is the last time you were on a bicycle?: OH MY, LIKE 15 YEARS, I THINK
Have you ever donated to charity?: YES
Are you donating your organs?: NO
What is the last thing you ate?: CHIPS
Would you date someone 15 years older than you?: NOT 15 YEARS
Do you own a credit card?: YES
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I am happy because Victoria's Secret is having its Semi-Annual sale. I wait for these sales every because their bras are %50 off. I am what you would call "blessed in the chest", so I am very picky when it comes to bras and I really don't buy them anywhere except Victoria's Secret. And if you are a chica like me, you know how expensive they can be when it's not on sale.
I am sure that I could find bras elsewhere. But the problem is finding a cute style. At least Victoria's Secret bras are cute. If I go to most other stores, the bras they have there are totally unflattering, as almost as if the maker is trying to make you feel ashamed that you actually have boobs. Instead of accentuating your curves, they try to hide them. Me no likey !
My theory is that bra designers that make these bras are just jealous bitches with small boobs.
While I was there, I also bought some of their eyeliners on sale. I couldn't resist, because they were gold and silver, which would be perfect for my bellydance makeup.
What else.......... I tried to swing by the bookstore on campus and the one across the street from campus to buy my textbook for Bankruptcy Law, but they were all sold out. So is Amazon. I am not happy about that. I really don't want to start off with no book. I hope the teacher will be understanding.
Anywho, that is all for now. I am sure I'll be back on soon with a survey.
Friday, January 2, 2009
A WEEK OR TWO AGO
Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
What are you dreading right now?
I REALLY DON'T WANT TO FOLD MY CLOTHES
Do you celebrate 420?
Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
MAYBE ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK
If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do?
WATCH TV, MAYBE CHILL OUT IN THE HOT TUB
Who last grabbed your ass?
A LADY DOESN'T REVEAL SUCH INFORMATION
Have you ever been on your school's track team?
Do you own a pair of Converse?
Did you copy and paste this survey?
Do you eat raw cookie dough?
YES, AND I LOVE IT !!
Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over?
Do you watch Trading Spaces?
How do you eat oreos?
SOMETIMES I JUST EAT THEM LIKE THEY ARE. MOST OF THE TIME I SEPARATE THE COOKIES, EAT THE FROSTING, AND THEN FINISH OFF THE OTHER TWO COOKIES
Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?
YEAH, OVER 5 YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS LITTLE MORE NAIVE
Are you cocky?
I DON'T THINK SO
Could you live without a computer?
Do you wear your shoes in the house?
Who or what sleeps with you?
I SLEEP WITH ME, MYSELF AND I. WE ARE VERY HAPPY TOGETHER.....
At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real?
How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house?
MY CELL, ROOMMATE'S CELL AND THE HOUSE PHONE
What do you do when you're sad?
KEEP TO MYSELF
Who would you call first if you won the lottery?
NO ONE FOR A WHILE, THEN I WOULD PROB CALL MY DAD
Last time you saw your best friend?
I SAW MY MAMA CITA ASHLEIGH TO BRING IN THE NEW YEAR
Are you in high school?
NOT FOR TEN YEARS....OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE TEN YEARS HAVE PASSED......
What jewelry are you wearing?
Is anyone on your bad side now?
What's the first thing you do when you get online?
CHECK MY E-MAIL
Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?
NEGATIVO, NEVER GOT INTO IT
How do most people spell your name?
THEY SPELL IT FINE, IT'S MY LAST NAME THAT PEOPLE LIKE TO MESS UP
Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes?
YES, AND I HAVE
What are you doing tomorrow?
WORK, DANCE LESSONS
Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson?
Favorite name for a girl?
Favorite name for a boy?
Will you keep your last name when you get married?
YES, I LOVE MY LAST NAME TOO MUCH
When was the last time you left your house?
I'M OUT OF THE HOUSE NOW
Do you return your cart?
Do you have a dishwasher?
What noise do you hear?
Would you survive in prison?
I HOPE I NEVER HAVE TO FIND THAT OUT
Who is the youngest in your family?
I HAVE A YOUNGER BRO.
If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack?
PROLLY MY FRIEND SHIRA
Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
THERE IS NO ONE I KNOW WITH THE SAME FIRST AND LAST NAME LIKE ME
What's the last thing you purchased?
PEPPERMINT FROZEN YOGURT, VERY DELISH..........
Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you?
MY BROTHER WILL PAY FOR GAS AND BRIDGE TOLLS ON ROAD TRIPS
What brand are your pants right now?
Ever been to Georgia (the state)?
What irritates you most on the internet?
WHEN PEOPLE HAVE HORRIBLE GRAMMAR AND CAN'T SPELL.
What brand is your digital camera?
Do you watch movies with your parents?
YEAH, WITH MY OLD MAN WHEN I SEE HIM
What song best describes your life right now?
THE NEW SONG, "JUST DANCE"
Do you own expensive perfume/cologne?
Are you taking college classes right now?
Do you like sushi?
I LOVE IT
Do you get your hair cut every month?
NO, EVERY 3 MONTHS
Do you go online everyday?
Will you pass this survey on to 5 people?
I am thrilled that I have a couple of new readers. Welcome :)
This is my last week of freedom before school starts up again. This quarter is my last, and then I will be out of the program. I will be taking Advanced Civil Litigation and Bankruptcy Law. I am kind of looking forward to Bankruptcy Law. Unless I end up going to law school, this will probably be the end of my education.
In the mean time, I am also looking for a new job, which I imagine can take a while. Especially in this economy. It's not that the economy is bad for paralegals, because it isn't compared to other positions. It's quite welcoming, especially in the Bay Area. (It's the attorneys that should be worried. It is more common for law firms to replace attorneys with more paralegals.)
What it is, is that I will be having a lot of competition for the various jobs out there. In this economy, many people were let go from other firms and dropped into the job search pool. It is with them that I will be competing: People that have more experience than me, more references, more skills.
Anyway, I will be looking for a paralegal position. I am almost about to get my certificate, and I figure I should get an early start. I will be interviewing with a legal staffing agency. They want at least four references. And not just any references. You know how sometimes you can bullshit a little and list your buddy coworker to give you a good reference. That wouldn't fly here. They want at least four references of people that used to supervise me.
It was then that I realized that interning for free for the past year has finally paid off. Because now I have good references. I worked my ass off. I lost contact with most people from my previous jobs, such as waitressing and car rental. Besides, those jobs have nothing to do with the legal field, and I didn't try as hard in those jobs as I did in my legal internships.
In volunteering and interning, I dealt with various supervisors and I got valuable legal experience. I tell you, it was hard work and I had to make a lot of sacrifices so that I could go and work for someone else for free. But I tell you, in this economy, and being about to graduate, references and experience, even if you worked unpaid, are like gold. And right now, I would take them over money.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
To sum up 2008, here are some of the things that I did, or consider to be memorable in no particular order.......
1.) I broke up with my boyfriend at the time.
2.) I paid off all my credit cards.
3.) I lost the weight I gained while I dated said boyfriend.
4.) I got back into bellydance and actually performed again.
5.) I got an internship with the Office of the Public Defender.
6.) I moved into a new place
7.) I danced with my bellydance idol Tito at his workshop.
8.) I had some family drama, but we managed to come to an agreement, and our relationship is better.
Here are my hopes for 2009 in no particular order.............
1.) Graduate and get my certificate
2.) Get a new job and settle into my career.
3.) Get braces
4.) Start putting money into my 401K again
5.) Get back to the weight I was in college
Dating and finding love is not on the list, even though it is one of my biggest hopes in life. First of all, I won't really be happy until the above goals are accomplished and I feel established.
Second, I still need time to reflect on what I really want out of life, and I think it's important for me to be single for a while. I don't know how long that will be. Sometimes I think I am meant to be this way forever. But for now it works.
I had a really good time last night. I invited my friend to stay over with me and bring in the new year. My roommate is out of town, so she and I had the place to ourselves.
We started off the evening by going ice skating. I hadn't been skating in two years, so it was nice to get back on the rink. It was fun, and it looked like the fog was settling in, so it felt cozy out on the rink. It was crowded, and I talked to a couple of people. They were envying my ice skates. They are Riedell competition grade, and are still in great condition. I bought them when I was learning how to skate in college back in 2002. I am no expert, I just didn't want to use rentals. Besides my bellydance costumes, those skates are one of my most prized possessions. I wouldn't sell those. Just having those around makes me feel like I have a lot of money. I can't explain it.
I was lucky that I didn't fall out on the rink, since it usually happens to me each time I skate. I was in a skirt and tights, so I guess I was trying to be extra careful.
After the rink, I drove Ashleigh out for fast food, and then went back to my place. We could've gone out to the bars, but we are both broke so we just decided to stay in. Besides, most of the men at the bar a block away from my place just looked old. We were better off staying in.
We spent the rest of the evening watching chick flicks. We saw "Enchanted" and "Clueless". I don't normally watch chick flicks unless it's Sex and the City. But it was fun with my friend there.
I remember when Clueless came out in 1995. I was a freshman in high school. It was such a popular movie, but I was such a loner at the time, and very sheltered at home. I didn't get out much and I did not fit in. I didn't understand most of the slang that was used when I saw it. Now that I saw this film about 14 years later (I moved out and lived on campus and traveled abroad), I understood it all.
We did get to count down the seconds to the New Year with champagne and scream like banchees from my balcony to the neighbors. Ashleigh screamed like a Mexican dude hollering at a fine lady, and I screamed out "Happy New Year My Bitches !!"
The guys across my apartment opened their balcony door to see what the commotion was about and told us to enjoy the rest of our alcohol, which we did :)
It was nice to not be working on New Years Eve. Last year I was working and brought in the New Year silently and alone. I was sitting at a desk and there was no one next to me to toast or wish a happy New Year.
The Year before that, I was one the worst date of my entire life for the New Year, so I am glad that I had a good time last night.
Happy New Years :)