Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Last Day Being 24

Hello there my lovelies :)

Today is the last day that I am 24 years old. Tommorow is my birthday and I have done a lot of thinking lately.

A lof of my peers have their lives planned out or know what they want. And I don't. Everything in my life is up in the air right now. I can't even plan for the next month. I don't even know what I really want. I was hoping that by the time I turned 25 I would have some things accomplished. I was hoping that I would at least have a job that pays well. I was also hoping to have my own place and a some money to spend on vacation.

I have a job that doesn't pay well, and I am in debt. I still don't have my own place, and I am broke. Let's not even get into my dating situation. Anyways, I am changing the subject now.

Today was my last day with my old bellydance teacher. I didn't even say goodbye to her. I just got up and left near the end of class. I am mad at her. I really thought she was a nice woman before she told the rest of the class that I am not group dance material behind my back. Of course she tried to talk her way out of it a few days ago but I really don't believe her. So I won't give her a second chance. I am sure I won't be missed anyways.

I found another teacher to start with next week. I might also look in to Latin dance or hip hop in addition to my bellydance lessons.

Anyways, I am gonna think about going to bed now. Good Night.


Monday, November 28, 2005

Mondays are a real drag

Hello there my lovelies,

I was really enjoying my Thanksgiving vacation, so going back to work today wasn't all that fun. Plus I got a cold over the break so I am now coughing up lung cheese.

I was in a good mood for the most part and the day flew by, which was nice.

It was rainy and cold today, and there will be alot more of it too, so I am just gonna deal with it. I miss the sunshine already.

The lady that rearended me a couple of weeks ago is trying to weasle her way out of being held responsible for hitting me. I'd like to see how this goes down.

This bitch rearended me while my car was stopped and the blinker was on. What does she do when she gets out of the car ? She appologizes and tells me that she didn't see me. Sounds like she's liable to me. Now she's trying to say that I cut in front of her. How the hell do I pull that off if my car is completely stopped ? Luckily she hit me while I was on the job. So this means that she gets to deal with my loss control department, who is gonna do everything they can to get her to pay.

The funny part is that she's renting a car from me, so I have to make sure she is completely happy with her rental experience. I am not helping her anymore. I am gonna make my boss deal with her. She has some nerve.

On another note, I went to the eye doctor and he put plugs in my eye to help me retain water better in my eyes, so they are less irritated when I wear contacts. He had to numb my eyes and kinda poke around the inside of my lower eye lids. It was wierd. I hope I have an easier time with my contacts.

Anyways, that's enough for now. I shall update more later. Ciao.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

I stole this quiz from Deanna

*Do you shower in the morning or at night? Usually at night.

*What is your favorite salad dressing? Olive oil.

*Do you prefer a car or truck? Car

*paper or plastic? Paper

 *hamburger or hotdog? Hotdog

*credit or debit? Debit

*Do you have any piercings/tattoos? Nope

*Have you ever colored your hair I was blonde for 2 years.

*Have you ever tepeed a house? Nope.

 *n64 or ps2? Sorry, neither.

*Favorite color? Blue

*Favorite metal? Gold or silver

*Favorite actress? Don't really have one.

*Favorite book? Dan Brown books

*Favorite Foods? Spanish or Asian

*Favorite time of the year? Thanksgiving

*Favorite day of the week? Saturday, Thrursday

*morning or night person? I'm a night owl.

*What is one thing that irritates you?  People that talk behind my back. People that talk in the movie theater.

 *Describe a hobby and what inspires you to do it? Bellydancing. I get inspired every time I watch a dance video or see a bellydancer perform.

*What two personality trait's that really impresses you in others? Honesty and loyalty. And I mean that.

*What two personality trait's that really irritates you in people? People that lie and don't do what they say they will.

*what color is your bathroom?White

 *How many keys do you carry? I actually don't know. 

*Where would you like to retire? I don't wanna retire.

*Favorite kind of cars? Mercedes Benz and the Chrysler 300.

*Favorite flowers? Roses.

*What is one thing that makes you really happy? Getting my dance moves right, sitting in the sun, my family lavishing me with attention

*Do you drink alcohol?NO

*Favorite non alcoholic drink? Nestea Iced tea

*How did you celebrate your last birthday? Had cake and opened presents.

*Do you carry a donor card?no

*Do you volunteer or donate anything? When I can

 *What pet do you prefer?a dog

*Are you a good cook? No, but I can make chocolate chip cookies that will knock your socks off.

*Favorite movies? Two can play that game, Deuce Bigalow, foreign films in Spanish.

*Favorite actor? Jim Carrey, Rob Schneider

 *Favorite t.v. showsApprentice, Desperate Housewives, The People's Court

 *Favorite sportI love to ski, ice skate and bellydance

*Fav. team?none

*Favorite cartoon?Good ole' Looney Toons

 *Favorite character?Goofy, Donald, Tweety, Bugs

*Favorite kind of ice cream?Mint Chocolate Chip.

*Favorite cookie? Chewey, moist chocolate chip cookies

*Favorite chips? BBQ potato chips, sour cream and onion.

*How many kids?None 

*Favorite holiday?Thanksgiving

 *Favorite #? 7

*Favorite singer?Mariah Carey, Jessica Simpson

*Favorite place? I love to chill in the middle of downtown San Jose.

*Favorite Clothing? Victoria's Secret

*Favorite store?Walmart, Target, Victoria's Secret, Bath and Body Works.

*Favorite time of day? 5pm

The Beauty I Found in Mendocino



I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I went up to see my family in Northern CA. I saw my grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins. I had such a good time.

I stayed at my aunts house, watched movies, and ate her ice cream sandwiches. It felt so good to get some rest.

 I also got to play with my little cousins. They were so adorable and such a joy.

There was lots of food, and I was surrounded by happy people. My birthday was also celebrated so I got some nice gifts such as perfumes and lotions, and a handbag. My cousin got me a purse filled with goodies from Victoria's Secret. It was so nice.

So I am sure that you can tell that I had a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend. I was disappointed a little because my old man didn't make it this year. I haven't seen him in 2 years so I was hoping he would be there. But I'll see him there on Christmas.

And I am leaving you with more pictures. The big guy is my brother and the little kiddies are my cousins. The animals are family pets.


This is dedicated to my grandma

Hello Everyone,

For Thanksgiving I went up to see my grandparents in Mendocino, CA which is near the woods and along the coast. I took some nice photos that I will post later.

This picture is of my grandmother back in the day. Isn't she so pretty? I found this picture at my aunt's house and had to take a picture of it. She shoulda been in the movies.

For the past few days my grandma has showered me with hugs and kisses and told me how much she loves and misses me. We also followed our usual ritual where we end up on her bed having a girl talk. Those are always fun. While we were in the middle of a conversation she looks at my chest and asks " Did you get your bust from me?" That was def something my grandma would ask.

This morning she was at her computer and she was giving me advice on what stocks to buy. She does all the investing and has been doing pretty well, especially since she doesn't listen to her financial advisors. After she was done talking about stocks, she decided to share some of her funny/dirty e-mails her friends have sent her. Now I know where my dad got part of his twisted sense of humor.

My grandma is 85 and easily has the life of someone half her age or younger. My grandpa is 91 and still takes classes at CSU Longbeach. He must be the oldest student there. My other grandpa is an architect, and volunteers at the local church.

By looking at my grandparents it gives me hope that I am gonna have a long life and I'll be able to stay active till the end.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Nice people are back stabbers too..............

Hello There My Lovelies............

Y'all know that I love bellydance. I would say that I am dedicated, and that I go to every class I can and practice even more on the weekend. They have a troupe that performs and competes, and I have been thinking about performing with them next spring. Hell, I even got more music and a new uniform. I have been with my latest teacher for a few months and she's been doing new routines. She's been real nice to me.......or so I thought.

So you can probably imagine my shock and frustration when I found out that she was talking about me behind my back after I just went home after class. Luckily my friend in that class called me and told me.

She had a discussion with the other girls in the class and told them :" I don't think that Sandra is group material. Should we tell her ? Or maybe we shouldn't tell her. Maybe we should just have her come to the other class. I think she'll understand."

Most of the girls agreed that I wasn't "group material" and they decided that they weren't gonna tell me.

I have been dancing for almost 3 years now and I am more flexible than most of the girls. I am also a fast learner if given the chance. My teacher never really gave me a chance to learn all the steps. I am also more willing to wear different outfits and try new things when the other girls bitch and moan. And now they want to tell me that I am not good enough. I know when I am good enough and when I am not. They are full of shite.

This is a good case of me not being welcome. That's really all there is to it. They can dress the situation any way they want, but the girls don't really like me. I never felt welcome in that class. This is friggin' high school all over again.

This incident happened on Tuesday. That day I wore my new outfit and I looked good. It was tight and fit in all the right places and without coming off as conceited I really looked good in it. And the other girls didn't share in my excitement. And neither did my dance teacher. I saw that look in her eyes when she asked me if I was gonna dance in that or go and take it off. I smiled and said I would be dancing in it for the rest of the class.

My teacher has been very nice and fair to me so far, so I don't understand why this came up all of a sudden. But I did have a little inexplicable nagging feeling about her that she probably doesn't like me like me and can be two faced.

Right after I heard this I called her up and confronted her. Of course she denied it and is now agreeing to let me be part of the dance troupe. I never cared about the dance troupe. The problem I had was her telling the group that I wasn't group material behind my back.

I don't want to be part of the dance troupe. Half the girls there are mean and condescending anyways. They can kiss my curvy, white ass.

As for my teacher, I gotta say that it was funny listening to her talking to me for over an hour trying to cover her ass. I acted like I bought her story. But I don't. She can kiss my curvy, white ass too.

I am off to find another teacher. Wish me luck.


Tuesday, November 22, 2005

More ramblings

Hello All,

I gotta say that I am so wiped out. I have been busy with a lot of things lately and I am beat. I just want to be lazy for a few days. I am also starting to get a little sick. I just want to lie around for a couple of days and watch DVDs. I am usually always working or practicing my dance moves. But next month the sports center I practice at will be closed for the holidays so I am sure I will get plenty of rest time soon.

Today was a good day at work. One of my customers called my regional vice president and told him how wonderful I was. I thought that was so nice of him. People like him make my job totally worth it. I went out of my way to help him and he paid me back by being appreciative. I also heard another woman outside telling my boss to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving. I thought that was real nice.

I am used to people whining and bitching just to get their way. I am also used to people acting nice to my face and then surprising me behind my back with other problems. And most of all, I am very accustomed to the fact that people think that they're entitled "just because". This is the United States of America. What makes this country so great is that we pretty much get what we want. I gotta tell ya that this mentality sucks for people in customer service though.

On another note, the weather was beautiful today. I feel so lucky that we have this sunny weather for a little while. I know that the cold, rainy season isn't too far behind. I love just sitting in the sun.

Well, I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving.

Monday, November 21, 2005


Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday I went to the Latin Film Fest to see Tapas, a movie filmed in L'Hospitalet, a city outside of Barcelona I lived for about 5 months while I was in Spain.

It was nice sitting there with buttered popcorn and hot chocolate. The movie was wonderful. It brought back so many memories. On the screen I could see the streets I used to take walks on, bars I used to go to, stores I used to shop at and products I used during my time there. I miss Fanta and Cola Cao.

I saw a view of the city in the movie showing the apartment building I used to live in during a sunrise. I saw the highway that lead to the beach and airport. Whenever I passed by or was on that highway, I always fantasized about going to the beach and sitting in the sun, or going to the airport and flying home.

I loved watching the characters. I really miss the Spanish accent and their expressions. They cuss a lot, use vulgar language and I miss it. I missed hearing names and expressions that mainly belonged to people in or near Barcelona.

As I was watching the movie, many of the emotions I was going through while I was living there came back. I remember how bad I wanted to go home and how much I missed the USA.

American movies tend to differ from other foreign films. American movies tend to have a plot and a climax, and usually a happy ending. Foreign films, such as Tapas, tend to take a snapshot of someone's life and focus in on it, paying attention to detail.

Anyways, thats enough for now . Night Night.


A Man's Honesty

I gotta wonder why men tell me the stuff they do sometimes. I was out on a date on Saturday and I was having a wonderful time smoking hookahs and dancing to Lebanese music that was off the hook. My date next to me decides to ask me how long it was since I had a boyfriend. I just shrugged my shoulders and said it has been a while. Then he turns to me and just flat out tells me :" I have only had one girlfriend. That's because I always break it off before things get serious." He was totally serious in his tone of voice. So I just smiled, patted his shoulder and said. "Wow. Thanks for letting me know."

WTF? I was out having fun on date #1. I was just starting to make conversation with him and get to know him better. I wasn't even thinking about the next date with him. There was nothing serious about they way I was acting. I didn't ask about his family or if he wanted kids. I was kinda busy inhaling my apple flavored smoke.

 But I gotta give the guy credit. At least he's honest. In a way, I sometimes wish other men would say shit like this so I get a fair warning. My life would be a hell of a lot easier. 

Now I know that if I continue to see him and have go out and have fun with him he will evaporate into thin air. What a guy.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Last Night

Hello All,

Last night I had a blast. I went out to a Lebanese restaurant and sat outside. The street that the restaurant was on reminded me exactly of my street in Barcelona. The weather was nice so we had a nice dinner.

I had mint tea to drink and my main course was sea bass with a garlic and tomato sauce. For starters I had pita bread dipped in olive oil and oregano. I love the mediterranean diet.

Afterwards we went to the hookah lounge and I smoked the hookah. It's egyptian tobacco that's fruit flavored. I had apple flavor. While I was smoking I was listening to the Lebanese music. The tobacco made me feel a lightheaded and I had a bunch of laughs. I was having fun trying to blow out smoke and look good.

Then we got up and danced. Almost everyone there was Middle Eastern and the women just knew how to move. People take Arabic/bellydance for years and they still can't move right. These women were shaking their hips and shoulders to every beat. They just had it in their blood. And they were so pretty too.It inspired me to practice my dance moves more.

 And I loved watching the men dance with the women. They complemented each other real well. My date was Lebanese, so he had some really good moves too.

Anyways, that's enough for now. I worked today as usual. Trust me when I say that there is never a Saturday without drama. Today was no exception.

I hope y'all enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Chocolate Silk Pies and Pedicures

Hello All,

Today the weather was so beautiful. Even more so than yesterday. It was kinda hot outside. The warm sun made me feel happy and that everything is going to be okay.

Today wasn't that busy at work. And one of the girls from the head office took me out for a few hours today. We went out to lunch at the mall. I had some salmon and for desert I had a chocolate silk pie. That was so so so so good.

After that we went and got pedicures. My feet have been in heels all week, so it was nice to get them scrubbed, massaged and toe nails painted.

I also looked around for dresses for my holiday party coming up. This was all done on company time, might I add.

I have to work tommorow morning. That's gonna be a filled day.

Anyways, enough for now. Ciao.


Thursday, November 17, 2005

Happy time for a happy hour

Hello All,

Well, in my side of the world the weather was absolutely gorgeous. It was sunny and warm. It really put me in a good mood and lifted my spirits. It was spring/summer weather today and Thanksgiving is next week. I guess seasons don't mean anything anymore.

Today I went to my regional happy hour. There was a drawing for $500 gift certificates and two trips to Las Vegas. Unfortunately, I didn't win anything this time. But I have my fingers crossed for next time. But I did eat a lot of junk food.

On another note, I got a corportate account set up. I am also waiting for a commision check from the car I sold last month.

Anyways, that's all I have for today. Ciao.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

AOL Hell and job hunting.

Hello All,

I hate AOL. I am a PAYING customer. And they put banner ads in my e-mail AND my journal. I can deal with e-mail, but NOT my journal. I could understand if AOL were free. But I pay THEM to put ads on MY personal journal space. The current ad on my journal is Bank of America. I friggin' hate Bank of America. That doesn't sit right with me. It makes me mad.

I have been blogging here since December 2003. Almost two years of my life were recorded here. I don't just want to leave, but I may end up doing it. In fact, I hope that AOL loses a bunch of customers for this. Most companys are sellouts, but they do a good job to try and hide it. AOL is so obvious about it and doesn't even pretend to care. I am gonna have to think about this one.

On another note, I went to a job fair for sales positions. In a nutshell it was so depressing. Pfizer was on the list to be there. And at the end they "didn't show." I guess that is a code for "Pfizer was the best company on the list, and was only advertised there so people would come and give the other lousy companies a shot."

After I left the fair, a guy walked me out to my car. On the way, he told me this after asking me a few questions: "I watched you while you were talking to the companies, and you did everything wrong. I felt so bad. I wanted to say something."

Excuse me ? But after I got over his bluntness, I listened to what he had to say, and he had a point. He told me he used to run job fairs like this and told me all the little tricks. And in all fairness to him, he wasn't rude about it. And we spent some more time going over "what went wrong."

For starters, I am too nice. They don't want nice. They want polite, yet agressive. I have to be assertive and get them to tell me why I should work for them, instead of me trying to convince them I am worthy. They also don't want me to be so available. As I have come to find out, finding a job is like finding a man. Gotta play a little hard to get.

I also learned that though they say they interview for inside sales and outside sales positions, they really only want people for outside sales positions. I was also told not to mention that I have traveled all over. Apparently employers will think that there is something wrong with me if I want to travel all over the place.

To make a long story short, this career fair was educational, and I am glad that I went. However, it was depressing. Most employers lie, and I could see it. I could also see that I wasn't confident enough, and I could also realize that I will probably not get followup calls to come in for an interview. It bites.

Anyways, I am glad that at least I have a job.

Hello All,

I am being naughty right now. I am in bed with chocolate ice cream. Somebody stop me.

I rented movies over the weekend and didn't even get to watch them all. I have to return them tommorow night. I feel like I am throwing money down the tube.

I finally got my refund from T-Mobile. Now that I have it back in my bank account I can run like hell and warn everyone else. My boss has Cingular and is currently getting screwed over. I had Cingular 4 years ago and they really had me bend over. T-mobile and Cingular really stink.

On a good note, my bellydance outfit is finished. It is lilac. I tried it on today and it really looked good. I look like an Egyptian princess. I can't wait to dance in it. I also danced today and my teacher gave me some new music to practice my routines to. Ever since I took up bellydance, I have acquired a lot of Arabic music.

Anyways, tommorow is another day. I hope it'll be grand for you.

Monday, November 14, 2005

I can't get no satisfiaction

Hello All,

I am not satisfied with my life anymore. I am not happy with the way I live, nor am I happy with how hard I work for so little. I am just very uncomfortable right now. Something has to change.

I remember last year and early this year I was so miserable while I was in Barcelona. I had a mountain of problems. I was still struggling to understand the Catalans and Spaniards. My roommate was a stalker. I was running out of money. I was homesick. No company would give me a chance. I was applying for residency and all my plans were shot down. One after the other. I felt that my only option was to give up and just go home. One day I got tired of listening to myself complain. And I decided to make changes so that I could feel better.

For starters, I moved out and moved in with coworkers. I also tried even harder to work on getting my papers. I also consulted lawyers. I found more English teaching jobs to help me put more money in my pockets. And in time I felt better and in control.

I am getting burned out very quickly with my job. My passions are travel and foreign languages. My job doesn't offer any of that. I really want to perfect my Spanish and go to Latin America. I also want to learn Chinese.

I want to make more money. I make jack shit. It is so frustrating to be struggling every month. When my next paycheck comes, it will be all gone in 3 days. Then I will have to suffer for another week and a half without money until I get paid again.

I am sick of cleaning cars in my skirt and high heels. I am sick of cleaning the dashboard with freaking 409. That shit doesn't work. They took away my carprep and the carwash is 10 minutes away by CAR. And then when I get there I have to wash it by hand. And the drain is plugged so my shoes get wet. How much more difficult do they have to make this for me? I just wanna wash a fucking car. I am not trying to design the next nuclear weapon.

So why am I still there? The training they provide is wonderful, and they really do teach you how to run a business. I have very little experience and I need to gain more. My short time span of jobs after my degree in college is my enemy. Plus I am a little scared of putting myself out there. But that fear is starting to go away as I am getting more and more fed up. It's a fierce world out there and I have to be fearless.

I clearly came to this company for experience and a chance to prove myself. Too bad I don't get a cut of that when I do perform.

My friend/coworker just quit his job and has another one lined up. I will go out to celebrate with him. He's gonna be enjoying his little vacation.Well, thats all I have to say today. Oh ! And by the way, I think that I am about to have an interesting journal entry about the male species soon, so stay tuned !


Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sunday Ramblings.

Hello there my lovelies :)

There are some quizzes/surveys floating around that I would like to swipe and answer, but I shall save that for another day.

Today I practiced my dance routines for about four hours. I am slowly getting more flexible and developing more strength in my back, neck and arms. And my waistline is getting smaller and more "hourglass" like. Or at least it looks that way to me. I think that I am starting to get a little jealous of myself when I look in the mirror. If I were me, I would date me. I mean, I am me. I can't date myself. Ewww. Wait, nevermind........

Today I finally had a breakthrough and was able to balance the sword on my head and dance on the floor without it falling off. I mean, of course I have a lot more practicing to do until I get it all right. But this was a start.

And I am supposed to get my new outfit on Tuesday. I just hope it's ready.

I also got a comment on my last journal entry from my cousin in Austria. Apparently she is now reading my blog with my grandmother. And they don't even really speak English. In fact, my grandma doesn't speak English at all. And they still work to understand my entries. How's that for love ? That really made me happy.

My grandma really wants me to have a boyfriend. Last time I was in Austria she asked me in her thick Austrian accent while she was cooking for guests if I can cook and I told her no. "You know Sandra, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach." Just then a man came over and profusely thanked my grandma and shook her hand for the wonderful meal she cooked. "Einfach wunderschoen." I just told her I would have to find other ways to his heart.

My grandma is kinda traditional and romantic and she wants me to have the same in my life. Thank God I am not leaving it up to her to pick my suitor.

All this talk about "mein Oma " really makes me miss her. She's very much European and very proud of Austria and hates the EU and I really love that about her. She's like my connection to the past almost.  I can't wait to go back to Austria to see her. If any of you have any family not from the US that is proud of their roots you should embrace that.

Anywho, these are my two cents for the day.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Another Saturday

Hello All,

OMG, well today is Saturday and I worked by myself as usual. I overworked myself, but I did very well. This upcoming week we finally have our regional happy hour where we get to eat junk food and drink beer and wine on the company's tab. Too bad I don't like beer or wine. But at least I love the junk food and pool.

Last week I had a serious talk with my boss. In a nutshell told him that I was unhappy working with him and working with him made me miserable. Of course I was very nice about how I worded things. I told him that the way he acts makes me feel like he doesn't like me in the office nor does he care. After all he wouldn't even hold a normal conversation with me, let alone say good morning to me. I told him that although he doesn't have to be my friend, I do at least want us to get along and at least talk to each other.After all, I am human. He said that he was very sorry and appologized and said that he doesn't dislike me. He's just going through personal shit and he wears his emotions on his sleeve. Now he is going out of his way to be nice to me, which I appreciate a lot. I hope it stays like that. The best way to get me to bust my ass for someone is to be nice to me. Simple as that.

Last night I watched "Wedding Date" with Debra Messing and Dermot Mulroney. I normally don't like mushy romantic movies, but I actually liked this one, even though it was kinda dumb. First of all, it was unreal. But, it was also funny and Dermot Mulroney is so friggin' hot. Watching him take his shirt off was simply divine :) But the message of the movie was wonderful. Mulroney's character said it best: " A woman's current love life is how she choses it to be. When you are really ready to let go of your issues, you will move on and find love." (or at least something to that effect.)

Anyways, enough for now. Ciao

Friday, November 11, 2005

I swiped this off MySpace.

Copy and re-post into your own bulletin with your 3 things...

Three Names you go by;
1. Sandra
2. Missy
3. Girl

Three Things That Scare You
1. Dings on my credit report
2. Rejection
3. Disease

Three of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Glasses/contacts
2. Cellphone
3. Breakfast

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Pjs
2. underwear
3. um, that's it...

Three of Your Favorite Bands/groups
1. Black Eyed Peas
2. Nirvana
3. Linkin Park

Four Things You Want in a Relationship
1. Not afraid of commitment/loyalty
2. I can make him laugh
3. Honesty and open communication

4.) Gotta have lotsa passion

Two Truths and a Lie (in any order)
1. I have been married before
2. I have never lived in the same place for more than 4 years.
3. I want to travel around the world.

Three PHYSICAL Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You
1. Buffed, manly muscular arms (yum)
2. Nice, olive-toned skin
3. Nice manly voice with a accent. (NY, Europe, Middle East)

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Bellydancing
2. Watching foreign films
3. Sleeping

Three Things You want to do really badly right now
1. Feel better
2. Not work tommorow morning
3. Talk to mary and find out if we're meeting for dance this weekend.

Three Places You Want to go
1. Amsterdam
2. Egypt or Morroco
3. NYC

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Have experienced true love
2. Have a lucratice career
3. To speak 5 languages

Three Ways that you are stereotypically a GIRL/Guy
1. I hate watching sports on TV.
2. I wear makeup, lots of pink, high heels........
3. I love it when men do the heavy lifting for me.

Just Thinking

Hello All,

I gotta say that this week really kicked my ass emotionally. I haven't felt this depressed in a very long time. I remember feeling this low about 4 years ago as I was about to turn 21. The feeling bites, and I do experience mild physical pain. My chest hurts, and I feel like it's squeezing my heart a little. I guess we all go through this sometimes.

This week was very, very slow at work and the weather was so gloomy. Today business picked up a little and the sun came out to shine and lift my spirits a little. During my lunch hour I sat in the sun and felt a lot better.

I also thought about how freaking lucky I am to be alive. I have had so many close calls in cars or in front of cars in the past few years. I could have easily gotten hurt in my last accident. But luckily I was fully paying attention and instead of getting hit and crashing into the huge truck at the stoplight, I was able to steer myself to the right and avoid my car crashing into that 18 wheeler. But I really believe that God lent me a little helping hand that day.

It is so easy for me to think about how unlucky I am. I can bitch about my bad luck with money. ( I really do have bad luck with money, no joke.) Or I can also bitch about my bad dates.

But getting rearended made me think how lucky I am. So far I have been lucky in the health department. I currently have a clean bill of health. I also have my family on my side. Although I bitch about them too, many of my family members are alive. I may not have much longer with my grandparents, but at least they are still around for now. I have the most wonderful grandmothers ever. One of these days I may have a lot of money, but no grandmothers and health problems. And that is very likely.

So, I guess I would say that I don't have it so bad after all.


Wednesday, November 9, 2005



Well, I feel better after venting in my last entry.

On another note, I got into a car accident while I was on the job. This woman rear ended me. It was kinda hard and she almost rammed me into a huge truck waiting at a stoplight. This is the second time I've been hit in the past 3 months.

Her damage was far worse than mine. She drove an Impalla. The hood was all messed up. So let that be a lesson to all of you thinking about buying an Impalla. I was in a Chevy Cobalt and although the rear was all scratched and there was a crack, there were no major dents.

We both walked away with no injuries. I do have a seatbelt mark on my chest. Luckily that's all I got.

I gotta say that I was lucky today. I don't know what I woulda done if one of us had to go to the hospital.

Anyways, enough for now. Ciao.

Anger Management Entry

Hello there,

I am feeling a little under the weather right now. I am supposed to be at work now but I am here in bed typing this. I will go in later since I don't want to lose out on a whole day's worth of pay.

I am feeling a little burned out from my job, so I think taking a few hours off will help me feel better. I just work so hard for so little money. This month I can barely pay the freaking bills. I didn't splurge. Yeah, I did go out and buy a few things. But I should be able to spend a little money for fun each month, especially because I am a single gal with no family to support. And next month will be hard too because of the holidays.

I am also feeling a little depressed. I am confused with my life now. I am about to turn 25 ( at the end of the month) and I don't really know if I am going down the path I want.

I also feel so alone right now. I am not out there looking for someone to fill my void. When I am dating and really like the guy (or think I do ) I almost feel emptier. I feel alone in a sense that no one understands me or has the time to. I can't really talk to my folks, even though they tell me I can. They would never come to me on their own time just to see how I am doing.  Case in point:

Oh Hi dear. How are you ? How have you been ? Kinda miserable. Why ? I dunno. I guess I am just going through a hard time. Well, I am kinda late for my meeting. And so and so needs me right now.

This freaking happens to me almost 100% of the time. And thanks for listening.

Another case in point:

Happy Birthday ! I just wanted to know if we can go out and celebrate ? I would like to take you out for your birthday. Well, I would love to, but I am really focused and having a productive day. Are you feeling focused and getting a lot done? I just have a lot to do. Oh yes, I got the point very strongly.

Hello, I just stopped by to see how you are doing and tell you about my new job. I just got a 401K so I am saving as well. Oh that's great. I have been so busy lately with so much to do. I have so many people after me for meetings. We just had a show. You don't understand, it's been busy. Hey, after listening to you, I just wanted to thank you for listening and understand me. And thanks for taking the time out to see my brother too after he traveled all the way to see you.

It's no wonder I have issues, and problems meeting quality people in the dating world. Just look at the men I've bitched about on this journal. See the pattern from all of them ? They ignore me, make me feel unwanted and expect me to chase after them.

And now let's look at my folks: I don't necessarily get ignored. But I do get politely pushed away, reminded of how busy they are, and they expect me to do all the legwork in seeing them. Otherwise they wouldn't bother. Oh wait, I shouldn't say that. I may get a phonecall or two, if I am lucky. And while I am on this rant I want to thank a special family member for after a whole year of being away in Europe and promising to see me at the airport for ditching me at the last minute. At least you sent someone else to pick me up. Did you know that I had the feeling you wouldn't show ? I even had money set aside to take the cab home. And thanks for not even explaining why.

If some of my folks out there are actually reading this, I will probably get hell for this and told how it's so not true. And how could I say such things ? Blah, blah, blah.  And of all things, how could I just post these things on my public journal ???? Well, I am saying such things because they ARE true, and although I smile and act like nothing is happening when I see you, that doesn't mean I don't feel the lack of love. And besides, I have come to talk to you and given you the opportunity many times to figure out that something is wrong. I never cared about the words you told me. I never listened to them.  I watched your actions which didn't meet your words. I am not an idiot. All I have to do is put two and two together. I know you love me. I am sure if something happened to me, you would feel sad. But your actions which don't meet your words don't show me that. And go ahead and try to make me feel guilty with how busy you are. I do feel guilty, because I see how hard you work and how sometimes people take advantage of your kindness which just makes me feel worse. But I am part of your blood too.

Don't worry, I am not ratting you out here. I didn't actually put names or labels to anything. How do you know I am even talking about you ????

Anyways, I feel a little better now. I am going to have some breakfast, put on my suit and go to work. Then I am gonna study for my work exam so I can kick some ass and get closer to getting promoted.  I am also gonna cross my fingers and hope for some sunshine to lift my spirits.




Tuesday, November 8, 2005

Election Day

Hello there my lovelies,

This entry will be short because I am so hungry. Anyways, today was election day and I went to vote. I voted by touchscreen which was way cool. I will look in tommorow's paper to see if the initiatives that I voted for passed.

I also went to my dance class and I feel so much better. I stretched and then worked on my routine with the sword. I am getting better with the routine. I am more flexible and more able to balance it on my head without getting whacked.

Okay, I am tired now. Good night.


Monday, November 7, 2005

A little something I swiped from someone.

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you? Winston Churchill

2. Where was your first kiss? In the backseat of a car after work.

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? Not that I am willing to admit.

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? Yes, in martial arts class.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people? Yes.

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex? Buffed arms and broad shoulders.

7. What really turns you on? If the guy is intelligent and affectionate.
8. What do you order at Starbucks? Pumpkin Spice Latte with extra whipped creme.

9. What is your biggest mistake? I have to give that some more thought.

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? No.

11. Say something totally random about yourself. I am a total dog lover and I will hug any dog that doesn't look threatening.

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? I have gotten Adriana Lima.

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? Hell no;

14. Did you have braces? No.

15. Are you comfortable with your height? No, I wish I were taller.

17. When do you know it's love? When you don't have to ask yourself, "Is he the one?"

18. Do you speak any other languages? Yes.
19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon? No.

20. What magazines do you read? People en espanol, Cosmopolitan, Maxim.
21. Have you ever ridden in a limo? Yes.

22. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? No one that I was really close with, yet.

23. Do you watch mtv? When I am around a TV.

24. What's something that really annoys you? Neigobor's music that rattles my windows, people talking during a movie.

25. What's something you really like? Bellydance.
26. Do you like Michael Jackson? Nope.
27. Can you dance? Yes, I think I can.

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up? All night.
29. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? Nope *knocks on wood*

30. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out? Yeah.

Fun at the Firehouse

Hello all,

I am gonna be honest. Today sucked. I am exhausted and I have a headache. The weather was gloomy. So for that reason I won't talk about today anymore.

Let's talk about last night. Last night was fun. I lived 2 minutes away from a firehouse. Last month I had to pick up one of the firefighters there to rent him a car. To make a long story short, they invited me back for dinner at the firehouse. Well, I didn't go back due to the fact that I am kinda shy.

So I got a call last week from one of the firefighters. In addition to asking me to give him the number to another Enterprise location, he also wondered why I didn't stop by.

So I decided to go yesterday with my friend who was more than willing to go with me. We bought a chocolate cake and gave it to them. They invited us in and we had some cake. They also gave us the grand tour of the firehouse and the fire truck. They let us wear their gear. Next time I go back I am gonna take some pictures.

One of the guys there loves Desperate Housewives so he turned it on and we watched it together. Then I eventually convinced him to watch the reruns of Sex and the City with me.

I eventually had to go home because I had to get up early this morning. They were a blast to hang out with. I also have their entire schedule for the rest of the year and the phone number of one of the guys. I guess I better use it as my holiday party is gettting closer and closer.

On another note, my mom gave me Austrian chocolates today. My grandmother in Austria sent us a bunch of goodies. And I devoured a couple. So so so so good. Austrians sure know how to do desert right.

I also went to the eye doctor today. To make a long story short, my contacts aren't working out too well because my eyes are dry. So he put in collagen plugs in my eyes so that my eyes retain moisture better. I know that women put collagen in their lips. I didn't realizes that the eyes were an option.

Anyways, enough for now. I'll update later. Ciao.

Sunday, November 6, 2005

Yee Haw !!

Hello :)

Last night I went to the Saddle Rack. It was such a fun place. You can ride a mechanical bull, have a few beers and line dance. I was too chicken to ride the mechanical bull. I went with my coworkers. The branch manager that went is usually kinda strict and yells a lot during the day. Well last night he was wearing a ridiculous orange shirt that said "Got Beaver?" He was also dancing and taking his shirt off and rubbing his stomach. He also went on stage, and took off his belt and danced with it between his legs. I was sooooooooo dying of laughter. I gotta say that the place was a little too crowded, though.

Today I danced for about 4 hours. I felt so much better afterwards. I worked on some new routines. I just can't waiting for my new costume to be ready.

Tommorow is another day in the car rental business, bright and early as usual. I shall update more on that later. I always do. Ciao.


Saturday, November 5, 2005

The Sh** I am willing to post for the public to see.....

To the boy I dated for two weeks,

I wanted to thank you for teaching me yet ANOTHER valuable lesson. Because of you I am learning to value myself more and be strong.

I thought that we had fun on our past couple of dates. Or at least you seemed to be. Deep down inside I wasn't really feeling you, but I stuck it out because you are attractive, smart and you are a gentleman (so I thought, after all my best friend had really nice things to say about you).

Anyways, my point is that I am getting better at reading men, and you helped prove my theory.

Even after a having a nice date and talking about whatever comes to mind, when a dude tells me, "Uh, I had fun. Call me when you're bored." I take that as "You're kinda cute, so call me when you wanna just mess around. But only for a little while cuz I got homework."

So I *cough* "lost" your number. But then you called during the week to tell me that you didn't forget about me and that you'd like to go out again. So I passed that off as a dumb moment and went out with you again.

 We went out and had a good time and went to dinner. You even watched Desperate Housewives with me. I thought that was so awesome. We even kissed a little. (Okay too much info, but deal)

I haven't heard from you all week. You won't call. I am online, you won't even say hello. I've got it now, and I have my answer. You were interested in me, you chased me at first and it's all gone for some reason. And though my ego is kinda bruised, I am also relieved. Now I don't have to wonder.

I have *cough* *cough* "lost" your number for good. I think that maybe you expect me to be chasing you now. And many girls nowadays will chase, so maybe you should find a girl that chases you.

I was going to ask you to go to my holiday party with me. A nice, big fat party in San Francisco with lots of happy people, and alcohol. Enterprise doesn't cut costs when it comes to parties. Did I mention that the company brings in at least $8 billion annually?

Anyways, You should see pictures of the dress I am about to buy. I am gonna look real good too and get my hair done and smell nice. And now you don't get to enjoy any of that.

Now I am gonna buy that beautiful dress, long sleeved gloves, and make sure my stylist works some heavy magic on my hair. And I am gonna go to that party and have a good time.

I also have learned to never trust a friend's judgement in men. This has been proven to me many times before, but for some reason it just clicked this time. Here's how I see it. My friends and I have similar tastes in men. They are certainly not going to put you with someone they would want to be with (even if she has a boyfriend), because that would create jealousy between friends.

Anywho, it is a Saturday night and now I need to log off this computer and go out and have some fun with my coworkers at the Saddle Rack. Some good ole' country western fun. Yee Haw !!!





You get the good with the bad

Hello there my lovelies,

First of all, I have to comment on the lovely weather we had today. The sun was out and shining and put me in a very good mood. I love the sun, and luckily we had plenty of it today. Sometimes at work when it's not busy I just pull up a chair and just sunbathe outside. It's kinda funny when my area manager pulls up and catches me.

I worked today and I had no help. But I still managed to do well. I am learning how to handle stressful situations better because my job is full of them. For some reason I can't explain, my plans always get messed up but usually end up working out okay. I never have a day where things work out as planned. EVER.

And another thing to remember. There are good customers that will be greatful for what you do, and patient with you because they know you are making an effort, and because they like you. Luckily I am happy to say that most customers are like this and willing to work with me when they see that I am the only one in the office on a Saturday and I am doing everything in my power to get them on the road. I had a guy that had to wait a long time to get in his car because I kept getting interrupted. But I drove him to the gas station and filled his car with gas and told him he should go all the way to San Francisco and have fun, especially since the gas was on me. He loved it and was very happy.

With this in mind, there are also customers that will screw you over and not give a shit. Even when you go out of your way to do them a favor. Case in point:

A couple was stranded and had no way of getting home. They walked onto my lot and had no car because they had just left it in the bodyshop. Their reservation was at another Enterprise branch way too far away, but thought it was at mine.

I dropped what I was doing and helped them. I had no cars on my lot for them. So I dropped them off at home and told them I would come back when I had a car. I didn't have to drive them home. They didn't have a reservation.

Their insurance was only going to pay $25/day  for a regular size car. But I had an SUV, for $40/day. I only charged them $5 extra dollars a day for the upgrade, rather than $15. It was the only vehicle I had at the time. Besides, that was a pretty cool SUV.

The husband was cool. He came with me to the branch. Then the wife called and bitched and moaned loudly over the phone about the $5/day extra charge.5 Fucking dollars !!! They live in a nice house that looks remodeled, by the way. She would have rather been stranded. The husband finally convinced her to just take it and that they would switch out later when I had a cheaper car. I wanted to burn her with her husband's cigarette.

I also had a woman yesterday where we made a deal with her. She could return the car at another location far away from ours, as long as she does it before noon so we could use the car for another reservation. And she nicely agreed. Well, noon came around and she sure as hell didn't show up. I called her and asked her politely what time she would show up and she bitched at me on the phone. She also told me she was in a bad mood and hung up on me.

I have more stories, but I shall spare you all. I would rather be sharing the ones where customers thank me and ask me about my day and how my weekend was. And I am sure I will have more of those stories soon.


Friday, November 4, 2005


Hello Everyone,

I just got off work. I am just chilling at home in my quiet apartment, and shutting out the rest of the world. I love the quietness, and no one to answer to right now.

Work was a little stressful and I gave myself a headache. I shouldn't really stress myself out so much. I have to work tommorow. I hope things run smoother tommorow. My Saturdays are usually filled with some dilemna.

While I was driving today I saw a wild turkey roaming on the streets. I kid you not. It was wierd. I had to drive a little in the mountains and I saw a few there. But I didn't expect to see one in the city by the road.

I don't really have a lot to say right now. If I do, I shall post it later. Ciao.


Thursday, November 3, 2005

More work and T-Mobile Updates :)

Hello there my lovelies,

Today was a productive day at work. Tommorow is Friday, which means that it will be even busier.

Speaking of Friday, I get paid tommorow. And the money will be all gone after 2-3 days because I have some huge bills to pay. I don't make a lot of money at all, but my paycheck would look a hell of a lot better if I didn't have all these deductions: taxes, medical, vision, life insurance and 401K. I am glad that I have a 401K plan. I need to start putting money away.

I was on the phone with T-mobile again and I found out that even though I sent back their wireless equipment crap, they STILL haven't terminated my service. I have 30 days to terminate my service with out a termination fee. Had I let this go for another week or two, I would have been slapped with a huge early termination fee. They suck.

And while I am on a roll with these rants, I would like to bitch about AOL. I get so annoyed when I check my e-mail and see all these ads. I pay too much for AOL already, and they STILL have all these unnecessary ads in my e-mail screen. I can live with all the ads in Yahoo or hotmail, because the service is free. AOL is such a corporate whore. If it weren't for this blog that I've had for two years now, I so would have cancelled long ago.

I forgot to say that I got my review on Monday, and I have to say that I was very happy with the outcome. I will have another review in three months.

Well, that is all for now.

Wednesday, November 2, 2005

Work and Wireless Hell

Hello All,

Well, I have to say that I had a little laugh reading yesterday's entry. I guess I was really pissed.

Today was better at work, even though I had to wake up at 5am to get to our meeting at 6:15am.

I solved the car washing problem. We still have to drive 10 minutes away to our other Enterprise location to wash cars when we are slow. However, if I am in a rush and have customers waiting I can just go across the street. The owner at the bodyshop across the said that he would let me wash some cars on his lot. That makes me feel a lot better.

I did some door to door marketing for businesses today. I just drove around businesses in a certain area and introduced myself and told them about our corporate accounts. I have to admit that I absolutely hate that because I don't want to face rejection and hear "no" or "we don't give out names here". But I also have to say that I need to learn how to accept rejection because sooner or later I will hear a "yes" from somewhere, somehow. This skill will come in handy as I am entering a competitive world of business.

Yes, my boss does get on my nerves sometimes and we don't see eye to eye on everything. But today I realized that he's trying to help me, and that he will say "you're right" or "I'm sorry" if I have a valid point. We are both stubborn people with good intentions that just want to get promoted and make a lot of money.

On another note, I have to say that I hate T-mobile. I am STILL having problems getting my refund back. I am screwed out of $108. I was on hold for another half an hour today, and got transferred twice. I sent back their wireless internet network card, but apparently they can't find it.

Unfortunately, I forgot to make a copy of the UPS tracking number, so I guess I won't know for a while where the package is. After they get the package I have to wait a whole month for the money to be refunded in my account.

I haven't felt this much hatred for a company since Cingular screwed me over three years ago. Today I bitched about this to the guy that sent out my package and we had a laugh. Two other customers nearby decided to chime in and put in their two cents. They hate AT&T. That's funny because I think that AT&T merged with Cingular. No wonder they suck.

Anyways, that is enough for now. I shall post more later :)


Tuesday, November 1, 2005

So so SO Freaking Annoying. F Bombs in this entry.

Hello All,

Today just got my feathers all ruffled. I am ticked off and I need to vent bad.

Anyways, my area manager freaking took away our car prep at work and sent him to another location. Permanently. Without fucking telling me. That so blows. Now we have to wash ALL our cars by ourselves. It wouldn't be so bad if I could wash the cars on my lot, which would take 5 minutes. But there isn't  a proper draining system on our lot.

What I have to do is drive 5-10 minutes to the other Enterprise location where I then have to wash the car myself with a brush and dry it. All in heels and a skirt while the mechanic stares at my ass. This means more wait time for the customers because I have to drive to the other location and sit through all the red lights.

I was told that the car prep would help us if we need it, but thats a friggin' lie. I asked him to come over today and they didn't send him. I hate the other Enterprise branch. They try to steal our reservations. Now they take our car prep.

I have been talking to my boss about setting up a deal with the people at the carwash at the local gas sstation but he isn't taking it seriously and thinks we are doing fine with washing the cars. He told me he'd talk to the manager at the ga sstation, but I know he is stalling. I know when he is and isn't taking me seriously. "Sandra, I admire your persistance, but we need to see if this is really worth it for us." Nice way to blow smoke up my ass, I guess.

Fuck him. Fuck him and the horse he rode in on. Excuse my language, but our cars have been dirty and we need a better system to get our cars washed faster. He's not the one in a shirt and heels. And he hasn't been stuck with three people in the office and a dirty car. If there are people waiting to be helped I just can't just drive off into the sunset to clean a fucking car. I have to make sure that everyone get's their rental contracts typed up. I have to make sure I am chatting and smiling with everyone. Or else when they get a phone survey about my customer service I will get screwed.

Today was also annoying because a lot of people returned cars, which means that I had too many cars on my lot. It was a slow day for business. We want all our cars out on rent for as long as possible.

I am also annoyed because none of my roommates don't friggin' empty the garbage. And if they do, they just leave it by the front door. Brilliant. I came gome to a big bag of garbage at the front door. Just waiting to greet me.

Anyways, that's enough bitching for now :)