Stress Sucks

Hello there my lovelies..................

I am really stressed right now, partially because I haven't worked out all week. I really need to get my ass to the gym.

I have to move out by the end of the month, and I really hate the hassle of moving. I don't feel welcome in the house by my current roommate anymore. Ever since the other girl moved out, he has been unreasonable with me. After me living there for 11 months, he now decides to put all of his dishes and cookware away in storage so I can't use it. Not only that, but he won't let me keep any shoes in the walkway ( he enters through the garage). He wants me to walk all the way to the garage where it's cold. He raised my rent in the summer due to the extra AC, but he won't lower it, since the weather hasn't been too hot or cold lately. He won't let me keep a trashcan in the kitchen. Almost everytime he sees me, he tells me to clean something, or he tells me about his pet peeve.

I could go on and on because there's more. But I can't take living like this anymore. It's a shame, because I like the quietness and privacy I have here.

I am not a perfect roommate. I have been guilty of leaving messes in the kitchen, or I left lots of my shoes laying around in the entryway. But, I always cleaned when he asked me to. He could do a lot worse than me. At least I paid my rent on time, I kept the common areas of the house clean, I never had any overnight guests that stayed longer than one night, and I bought the cleaning supplies and toilet paper for the house.

Looking at different places really depresses me because some places are old and dirty. But what's worse is the rules some people set for example: no cooking, no overnight guests, no use of the laundry room, or my fave was the person that only wanted someone living in the house part time.

I really wish I could afford a place of my own. I really do.

Birthday

Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday was my birthday, and I turned 26. A lot of people wished me well and left comments on MySpace. Even my brother called me up. He's never done that before.

I went out to dinner with a friend and I used the fart machine that my dad gave me. It was pretty funny. I used it in the car. I hit it in my purse, so it sounded muffled like a real fart ususally does. And he bought it. It was so funny. He rolled down the windows. Then I let it rip a couple of times in the nice Italian restaurant that we went to. Though I was careful not to embarass myself in front of the waiter. I eventually showed him the fart machine with the remote. I can fart, but I am not capable of such a high volume.

I guess as you get older, you stop expecting presents and cake and start counting your blessings. I was just happy yesterday that the weather was sunny, that I am healthy, and that I got to see my family again.

Anyway, I better get back to work. Ciao Ciao.

Anyway,

Hello there my lovelies,

I feel so lazy today. I was gonna go to the gym today, but I'll just go tommorow. I worked out last night, so I should be okay till tommorow. I did yoga. I feel so much better. I have it again tommorow night. It really helps me stretch for bellydance and strengthens my arms.

I am happy because my holiday party for work is this weekend. I was planning to go with the guy I went with last year, but he cancelled on me. It's a shame because we had so much fun last year. He told me he wouldn't be able to make it. He didn't wanna leave his other party an hour early to go with me. And the thing is, is that he knew about my party way in advance and agreed to go. He wouldn't even make a little effort to make it to my party. So I told him not to worry and that I would find someone else and that I would call him later.

I found someone else, but I didn't call him. I don't even care for his friendship anymore. We've known each other for a year now and aside from last year's holiday party, he's always cancelled on me. (Even when I won front row seats to the SF Giants in the summer.) He called me during Thanksgiving, but I'm not returning his calls. I just don't even want to waste my time on another conversation with him. Even this entry about him is a waste of time.

On a brighter note, I am happy that I have a new job and that I am not out in the cold renting cars like I was last year. I feel sorry for my coworkers. I still work there on Saturdays, but that should be changing soon.

Okay, I am done for now. Ciao ciao.

My fave quote.

"So I went to the doctor and he told me I was too fat. I looked at him in disbelief and said that I wanted a second opinion. So he looked back at me and said "Okay, you're ugly too."

I love that quote. It makes me laugh.

While we're on the subject, my father gave me a fart machine for my birthday. It has a remote control button. I have some ideas about how I'll put it to use.

Speaking of which, last week while I was shopping I was passing by a very cute guy. I had to fart, and I thought I could keep it silent. Instead, I let it rip and tooted my own horn. I was mortified. And the guy turned all the way around and looked at me. I turned red and kept walking. But a small part of me was proud.

Thanksgiving Update............

Well Hello there my lovelies,

I hope y'all had a lovely Thanksgiving. I spent it in Mendocino with my dad's side of the family. Usually my cousins bring their kids and it's usually really loud. This time it was a small gathering.

I felt really lucky being able to see my grandparents again and I feel blessed that God gave me another opportunity to hug my grandparents. My grandmother made it a point to hug and kiss me and tell me that she loves me very much. I always love it. She always tells me she loves me the way I am. When I was sitting on the couch she came over and grabbed my arm and laid her head on my shoulder. It's hard because I lost my other grandma this year, and I know that my time with my other Grandma is limited.

I got to see my dad again and his cat. I only get to see my dad once a year. We went into town yesterday by the ocean. My dad has a very twisted sense of humor and never fails to make me laugh. I feel better around my dad, because then I know I am not the only twisted one.

I also got to see my two aunties. I got to spend time with them and talk. I love them both very much.

Since my birthday is this week, I had a little birthday party and I got an ice cream cake with whipped cream. Very good stuff. I ate a lot this trip. I didn't overdo it, but I know I am gonna have to really work hard at the gym this week.

I stopped by my mailbox today and I saw a nice stack of bills waiting for me. I also got my guard card. That means that I can start working extra hours as a security guard, which means that I can soon quit Enterprise for good.

Okay, that's enough for now.

Ciao Ciao my lovelies.................