Lazy Day

Hello There My Lovelies,

Today started out as a very lazy day. I slept in until 11am. Then I spent a few hours being addicted to playing solitaire on my iPod. Let me tell you, I am getting very good at that. I could play that all day if I wanted to. When I got my laptop a few years ago, one of the first things I did was delete off Solitaire. Otherwise I would not have graduated.

After that I decided to get my mail. In the mail, I got my dress that I special ordered from my favorite online store at www.stopstaringclothing.com. I blogged about it before.

I also had a nice juicy piece of steak. Before today the last time I had steak was in Barcelona, Spain, and over there they call it entrecot.

This piece of steak that I had today was done medium rare and it was nice and juicy. It totally hit the spot. I don't think that I could ever make it as a vegetarian.

Let me just also say that I am so thrilled to be out of school right now. I don't want to go back, lol. But I am so close to finishing the program.

Last Year This Time

Hello All,

Last year this day, I was so depressed out of my mind. I don't think that I had ever sunk that low. Nothing was going right for me and I felt so out of place in this world. I even blogged on this day last year. It was a short entry because I didn't know how to adequately express myself.

I remember going to my friend's bridal shower that day. I didn't want to go due to the way I was feeling, but I mustered up everything I had to attend because she was my best friend in college. While I was there, I looked at her and her successful life. She was so happy. She was going places in her career, and marrying a wonderful man. I watched her with her new sisters in law. I thought life was so unfair. I was happy for her, but I felt like I was dealt a shorter hand.

We were roommates in college and had goals for ourselves and that day I was so disappointed in myself. Why couldn't I get my life on track like that ? I was in debt and getting deeper, I had family problems, I felt trapped, my bosses at work were threatening me with my job, I had gained weight, my friends were busy and I felt isolated. I just felt so helpless. And I didn't know what to do. I had even stopped bellydancing.

And on the way home I got a nice fat speeding ticket. I told the officer I was speeding because I had to really go to the bathroom, but he didn't let me off. Everyone else around me sped, but he chose me.

I got home after that and just locked myself in my room and cried a lot. I didn't want to live like that. I think I even drank a little, which I normally never ever do. I didn't know what to do with myself at that point.

The next day after I woke up I felt a little better. I started my legal classes the following month in September. Once I poured my heart into my studies I felt better. A couple of months later, I got a volunteer position at a legal aid community service group and poured my heart into that. I got straight As and good recommendations out of it. Unfortunately I think I just got my first B in my legal Analysis class this summer.

I won't forget that day. It scares me still to think about it. I don't ever want to feel like that again.

This year has treated me differently. But it's not really the hand I was dealt. I have learned that it was my hard work and perseverance that got me out of it and back on my feet.

I still have a long way to go before I am living the life that I really want. But I am on my way. At least I am dancing again. I am almost done with my studies, and I have an internship with the Public Defender's office.

I know this is a depressing entry but I just had to say it. It's really important to remember where you were so you do everything you can not to end up back there.

Hello There My Lovelies,

Today is a lazy Sunday for me. I took a nice stroll downtown and looked at a couple of boutiques. It was nice.

I've been waking up at noon now ever since I got out of school. It has been such a relief to not have any homework. I can't tell you how nice it is.

Anyway, not much else to report.

63 Annoying Questions

1. Song that always makes you sad?: ADAM'S SONG BY BLINK 182
2. Last thing you bought?: GROCERIES FROM TARGET
3. Last person you argued with?: KAMAL, AND IT WAS INTERESTING
4. Do you put Butter before putting the jelly on?: TOTALLY
5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid?: I DON'T REMEMBER
6. Did you ever own at one time a Nysnc Cd?: YES
7. Favorite day of the week?: MONDAY
8. Favorite Sundae topping?: CHOCOLATE SYRUP
9. Did you take Piano lessons?: NO
10. Most frequent song played?: I LIKE IT BY MOBY
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?: RESCUE ME
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?: HOCKEY
13. Date someone older or younger?:OLDER
14. One place you could travel right now?: BARCELONA
15. Do you use umbrellas?: YES
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem?: NO
17. Favorite Cheese?: MOZZERELLA
18. Disturbed or My Chemical Romance?: PROB MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes?: BRUNETTES
20. Best job you ever had?: THE ONE I HAVE NOW
21. did you go to your high school prom?: OF COURSE
22. perfect time to wake up?: NOON, LOL
23. perfect time to go to bed?: AFTER MIDNIGHT
24. do you use your queen right away in chess? ..: I DON'T PLAY CHESS
25. Ever been in a car accident?: YES, A FEW
26. closer to mom or dad...or neither?: BOTH
27. what age is this exciting life over for you?: LOL, I HOPE IT'S NOT OVER SOON
28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?: THE NINETIES, WHICH I WAS
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?: I REALLY LIKE MY STEVE MADDEN RED CROCODILE PUMPS
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high schoo: I DON'T THINK SO ANYMORE, BUT PROBABLY
31. Were you in track and field?: NEGATIVO
32. Were you ever in a school talent show?: YES, IN COLLEGE
33. Have you ever written in a library book?:PROBABLY
34. Allergic to?: BAD DRIVERS
35. Favorite fruit?: APRICOTS, PEACHES, STRAWBERRIES
36. Have you watched sex and the city?: DUH !!!
37. Baseball hat or toque?: BASEBALL HAT
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap?: SOAP
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?: WET IT
40. Pen or pencil?: PEN
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?: I PLAYED THE SLOT MACHINE ONCE AND I ONLY PLAYED WITH ONE QUARTER, LOL
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?: NO
43. Have you thrown up in a car?: I DON'T RECALL
44. Have you thrown up at work?: YES, A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO
45. Do you scream on roller coasters?: YES
46. Who was your first prom date?: DOUG, A TOTAL FOX
47. Who was your first roommate?: IN COLLEGE, SANDY
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?: I GOT DRUNK FOR THE FIRST TIME PROLLY OFF MIDORI SOURS
49. What was your first job?: I WAS A DRIVE THRU WENCH AT JACK IN THE BOX
50. What was your first car?: 1993 FORD TEMPO IN AQUA
51. When did you go to your first funeral?: 2006 FOR MY OMA
52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?: 10
53. Who was your first grade teacher?: I FORGET
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?: PROLLY WHEN I WAS A BABY
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?: I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE
56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?: SHIRA IN HIGH SCHOOL AND WE ARE STILL GOOD FRIENDS
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house?: SAN JOSE STATE CAMPUS
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?: MY DAD
59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsme: ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS, CHRISTINA
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?: TAKE A NICE MORNING PISS
61. What was the first concert you attended?: THE BOO BOMD, LOL
62. First tattoo or piercing?: MY EARS
63. First celebrity crush?: TOM CRUISE

Totally Random Survey !!

Where do you go when you need to just get away? MY BEDROOM, I AM TOO BROKE TO ACTUALLY TAKE A VACATION

Do you believe everything happens for a reason? YES DO

Have you ever thought about moving far away and starting all over? I STARTED OVER THIS YEAR, BUT I STILL THINK ABOUT MOVING AWAY ALL THE TIME

Who is the one person you can always turn to? I DON'T HAVE ANYONE THAT I CAN ALWAYS TURN TO, I CAN TURN TO CERTAIN PEOPLE FOR CERTAIN THINGS

Have you ever won a raffle? NO :( 

Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? NOT A LARGE ONE 

Favorite school field trip as a kid? I LIKED CHUCKEE CHEESE

Have you ever square danced? I'VE CERTAINLY TRIED AND SUCKED AT IT

How far have you traveled up north? OREGON, LOL

How far south have you traveled?  SAN DIEGO, DIDN'T EVEN MAKE IT TO MEXICO

What flavor do you like on your wings? BBQ SAUCE 

Who do you wake up for in the morning?  ME

Who is the last person you took a picture with? CRAP, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER 

Do you think that Global Warming is happening? DUH !!

Have you or would you ever use and Ouija Board? I WOULD RATHER DIE, I DO BELIEVE THOSE THINGS ARE EVIL

Have you ever pretended you were happy around your friends but weren't? YES 

Where would you most like to visit? AMSTERDAM

Do you think your ex still likes you? I DON'T KNOW

Describe you ex in three words: NOT MY BOYFRIEND, LOL

Have you ever had a pet fish? YES, GOLD FISHES

Have you ever been home sick? ALL THE TIME WHEN I LIVED IN BARCELONA

Who do you want to win the 2008 presidential election? I AM STILL DECIDING

Do you know the Soulja Boy dance? NO

What is the craziest thing you've done with your best friend? I'VE DONE LOTS OF INTERESTING THINGS WITH MY FRIENDS, WHICH AREN'T REALLY WORTH MENTIONING HERE. BUT I DID EMBARASS MYSELF IN FRONT OF THE WAITER AT THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY WITH ASHLEIGH 

Who do you think is the most attractive celebrity? OH MY, I LIKE MICHAEL DENTON, I ALSO LIKE AMR DIAB, THE EGYPTIAN SINGER

When is the last time you went to Taco Bell? A LONG ASS TIME AGO

Have you ever licked a 9-volt battery? YES, A LONG TIME AGO. I MUST'VE REALLY BEEN BORED

Have you ever ordered from an infomercial? NEGATIVO 

Is there a message on your voice mail? YES, I SAVED MOST FROM MY DAD

Have you ever made a prank call before? YES, BEFORE CALLER ID WAS INVENTED

What's your favorite thing to do over the summer? GO SHOPPING FOR SUMMER CLOTHES, EAT OUTSIDE AT NICE RESTAURANTS, HAVE A POOL PARTY

How many jobs do you have? TWO, ALTHOUGH MY INTERNSHIP IS UNPAID

Don't you hate it when people smoke around you? IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME TOO MUCH

When was the saddest time in your life?  LAST YEAR

What is your favorite type of skiing? DOWNHILL

Who is your favorite family member and why? MY GRANDMOTHER

Do you like Chinese food? NEGATIVO

Would you ever be in the Peace Corps? I TOTALLY WOULD

Do you think you are better then everyone else? WHY WOULD I THINK SUCH A THING ?

Would you ever go on a camping trip without your cell phone? NO, WHAT IF I NEED TO CALL 911 ?