Sunday, August 20, 2006

Hello there my lovelies,

I have to admit. I still feel like crap. My stomach is all tense and I don't want to eat anything. Luckily I ate a lot yesterday because I was hungry. I really need someone to talk to. I talked to a couple of friends yesterday and they made me feel better. But going to bed is the worst because I can't sleep and I wake up very early.

I just feel so alone. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I feel like I am starting not to care about life anymore. I need to get out of bed and clean my room. I think I may start to feel better if I clean up my room a little.

I have a lot more to say, but I am gonna stop here for now.

3 comments:

lmitc89854 said...

You are worrying me!  You are young, beautiful and talented. Also smart! If I had all that at your age, I would have been on top of the world!  Maybe you need to change friends and get some that support you more.  Move to a new place, re-invent yourself.  Remember, to have friends you need to be a friend.

austriank said...

HIIIII  Sweetie
here is your cousin Katharina speaking from ******Österreich*****
Raphi hat mir dein Tagebuch gezeigt, ich hoffe dir gehts bald besser!!!
wo in california wohnst du gerade? raphi und ich schauen die ganze zeit "THE O.C." und sind große Fans! Natürlich wissen wir dass das unrealistisch ist, trotzdem will ich unbedingt nach California, schon alleine wegene dem Titelsong:
California here we come right back where we started from
Californiaaaaaa
Naja, ich hoffe wir können dich irgendwann besuchen, ich würde auch soo gerne länger da leben und mein englisch perfektionieren.
SO:
Don't be down - I can't wait to see California wih my own eyes and I am jelous that you are living there!!!
Katharina

winivere2002 said...

Sandra, I'm sorry that you are feeling down. We all have those days, you know! If cleaning your room a little will make you feel better, come over and clean my apartment and you will be very very happy. haha... I think God heard your loneliness and sent you that little cat to let you know that he has not forgotten you. If I looked like you, I would jump for joy. (smile)