How Good of a Friend are you ?

Hello All,

How good of a friend are you ? How long are you willing to stick it out with that person ?

I have a friend that I dance with. I really like her. She is the one that taught me the sword dance and she was with me when I performed at Rakkasah. She also took me to my LASIK appointment.

But a really nice thing she did for me is tell me that my bellydance teacher at the time was talking about me behind my back with her students in class after I had just left.

That was a year ago and things have changed ever since she got a new boyfriend. And not any boyfriend. A boyfriend that is dangerous. One that she had to file a restraining order against. One that wanted her to get pregant so that she could never leave him. And things did get worse, but I won't post that.

She left him once and took him back. Then after she went through some trauma she left him again and filed a restraining order against him. The whole time this happened I was telling her what a mistake she was making by staying with him and how important it is to leave him.

Luckily I've never met him and he doesn't know me. But she won't pick up the phone when I call her. She is always complaining about her drama with him, yet she keeps ending up with him. We had dance practice together for a performance that were gonna get paid for and she completely stood me up. I had to hound her on the phone for a few hours until she finally picked up. I thought something had happened to her.

What's so frustrating is that she won't even let me be there for her. I offer to hang out with her and she doesn't feel like it. I keep calling her only to get her voicemail. She avoids me, yet she still says I am her best friend.

I want to be there for her, but it is so hard when she keeps shutting me out and making the same awful mistakes over and over again. How many times do I have to watch her fall and suffer ?

I also have major issues to deal with. We all have our issues. Part of me wants to just move on, but the human side of me wants to stick it out.

 

 

My scattered thoughts.................

Hello there,

My post below was actually copied from my MySpace Blog.

I tried posting another blog last night. I typed the whole damn thing for about a half hour. Then as I tried to post it, AO-Hell logged me off and my stuff disappeared. My feathers were ruffled over that.

I have been really busy lately. There is always something to do.

I am proud of myself for doing my own taxes. Well, I did use a website. But it was a helluva lot cheaper than hiring an accountant like I usually do every year. I took my hefty refund and used it at the Apple store. I bought an Ipod and an Ipod Shuffle. Not only that but I bought a case for the Ipod and an extended warranty for the Ipod.

I used the rest of the refund to pay part of my credit card bill, my mailbox fee and my car mechanic stuff. Now I can say that the money is officially spent. But it was great while I had it.

What else ? Oh yeah, I got 2 traffic tickets in the course of a week. Yeah, yeah. Go ahead and scold me. But I am gonna work on fighting that. I still have to get my car repaired from my last accident.

Anyway, I am done here for now. I shall post later.

Ciao.

Rakkasah 2007

Rakkasah 2007 was great !! Hello there my lovelies, Okay, so March 16th was my big performance. I did my new sword routine in public for the first time. I was so nervous in the beginning. I practiced a lot, but I was still nervous. It was a big deal for me, especially since it was my solo. I was so nervous that I almost threw up and I have never ever felt that way before But once I got into it, I had a great time performing. People were into it, and that's what it's all about. Unfortunately I got a foot cramp while I was performing and my hand bracelet almost came off, but it didn't disrupt me. I saw a lot of people that I know there such as my old teacher and some former classmates. I also talked to this really nice lady. Usually everyone that is about to perform is wrapped up in whatever they are doing and don't really talk to others. While I was in the huge bathroom/ dressing area and practicing this lady started talking to me and wishing me luck. Her performance was before mine and she did a really nice job. She was really pretty and graceful (which is sometimes hard to find in all those performances) She also stuck around to watch mine. Last year I was dancing with my troupe, Jewels of Opar and this year they danced right before me. They did a nice job. I rode up with them. I also got to see my old troupe member dance a solo. She and I decided to do solos this year. Her veil routine was beautiful and so was her costume. I have the DVD of my dance, but I am having a hell of a time trying to upload it up onto You Tube, which I also like to call You Boob. If any of you would like to see it and can help me upload this bitch, please give me a shout. Okay, I am gonna go for now. Bye Bye !!

I just have to rant about a customer.

Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday I worked at ERAC and we were slammed pretty much the whole day. I would be helping people and the phone would ring six times in a row with half the people demanding my full, undivided attention.

Yesterday was my lucky day. We had this one woman come in that everyone loathes. We switched her out of the car like three times since she got the car. We gave her a free upgrade and she STILL manages to bitch and complain. I helped her last weekend too, and she bitched that the key remote wouldn't unlock the door sometimes. Apparently she is so busy that she can't just take the key and unlock the door manually. (Yes she told me that) It's too time consuming for her.

So I tried to help her. She came in on a good day because I had two other full size cars for her to choose. (Normally we are sold out)  And then as I am trying to help her and see what works for her she is deciding whether she should keep the car or switch. So let me get this straight: You drive your ass all the way down to my branch, sit there and wait for me to help you, complain to me that you're too busy to unlock the car without a remote, and now as I am helping you and trying to get you on your way with a working remote you are gonna sit there and decide whether I should help you ?

So yesterday she comes in again and demands another car, and when we get one she complains how dirty it is. The car prep is busy so my coworker has to clean it himself for her.

Everytime we think we're done with this bitch she leaves and comes back. She left and came back three times yesterday. The last time she came back, she couldn't figure out how to adjust the seat. I could have helped her but she wanted my boss to drop what he was doing to come out and help her. She is not very nice to me, probably because I am a woman. She can't even be bothered to be nice. My theory is that she wants to bang my boss. She tries to dress all cute when she comes in, and it just ain't working.

This woman is not elderly. If this were an elderly woman, I would be much more understanding. In general I have to give more attention to the elderly because they tend to need more help. Adjusting the seat can be difficult or certain cars are uncomfortable, or they need me to explain where everything is on the car because they barely drive. But this woman was fully capable of unlocking the door and adjusting the seat her damn self.

Not only did she come in like three times, but she kept calling us over the phone. Eventually my boss told her that he was extremely busy and if there was nothing wrong with the car to leave him alone and stop wasting his time. She told him that he can't talk to her like that and he said that he could and to stop wasting his time. Then he hung up.

I am so glad that I am no longer there fulltime. I just have to deal with this occasionally on Saturdays.

 

Well hello there my lovelies,

So, I am going to perform my new routine in 2 weeks. Over the past couple of months I have been ordering accessories for my costume from Ebay and other online shops. I also used bellydance stuff I already have.

Today I got the final touches done on my costume, and I can't wait to see it. Before the performance I will get a manicure and pedicure. I will paint the nails blood red with nice little jewels glued on.

I practiced a lot for this performance, and today I danced in costume and makeup. I felt sexy and alive. Unfortunately for me, I burned my neck with the curling iron and now it looks like I have a hickey on my neck. My boss is gonna have fun teasing me tommorow.

Anyway, bed time. Ciao !!