In Austria

Hello there my lovelies,

Today was the funeral. I have lots to write about it but I will save it for later because I have pictures.

I am still heartbroken over her death. It happened so suddenly. Last week she was alive and laughing. I would have never imagined that I would be here in Austria again so soon. I wish I could just get over it, but I know it takes time. I really loved her.

Last time I saw her was in June last year. She dropped me off at the Munich airport. Before then we went to her apartment and her house where she lived with her boyfriend. This time I flew into Munich alone. I walked by the restaurant that we had our last meal together at. That was sad.Visiting her apartment was very hard. When I went to where she lived with her boyfriend I saw her car there in the driveway as well as her shoes in the hall and her cellphone on the table. Her cell service still has to be cancelled.

It dawned on me while I was in all of these places that she is not traveling somewhere. She is never coming back. I will never see her again. She used to scold me for touching her things. Now I am touching them and I wish she were here to yell at me to stop.

The memorial service and the funeral were both beautiful. I cried so much. I wore my lilac Calvin Klein suit and favorite shoes. It was my last chance to look good for her and be there for her. I saw so many people that loved her. We all had one common denominator: a wonderful woman that lived her live to the fullest. She lived and loved and was always happy. The new quote on my blog is something she used to tell my mother growing up.

God really blessed me by giving her to me as a grandmother.