Hello there kittens !!
So, what's up ? I am enjoying Le Weekend. I am still dogsitting Tico, a jack russell terrier mix. He is a lovely dog. I enjoy sleeping next to him, I find it therapeutic. He is playful and always wants me to throw his toys around.
The only real issue is that it's really hard to find him toys that last. He always chews the crap out of them and of course leaves the stuffing all over the floors. I got him a few cool toys from the dollar store, and of course those didn't last more than a couple of hours. So then I decided to step up my game and buy something made with more durable material, and that seemed to work better, although not really.
Another thing that I am happy about is that I got my favorite nail polish, Essie, on sale. Most women brag about Opi, but I don't like that brand, as it peels off my nails easier. Essie seems to be better quality with more popular color pastel shades, which are popular in South Florida. It barely goes on sale, so when I used my CVS extra bucks along with a coupon towards nail polish, I was happy when I only had to pay $9 instead of $19. I also found another bottle in the clearance bin for $2. Yay !
While I am here, I want to talk about more cult stuff, especially since the Duggars are in the news. They are religious and conservative, and there were a lot of similarities in how I and other children in a religious, conservative environment are raised.
I was five years old when my parents joined their organization. I won't be naming any names because some family members are still there and have threatened to sue me for "libel" and "slander", which is one of the reasons I decided to work in the legal field, so I could at least know what is and isn't possible under the law, so I couldn't be scared off so easily. So I will also be using the magic word "allegedly" sprinkled throughout my writings. Sprinkled randomly whenever I feel like it. Just because I feel like it. Allegedly.
So my parents joined this "alleged" cult. when I was five, although my father is no longer there, THANK GOD. I left when I was twenty-five. I will get more into the details of how and why later. Let's go to the interesting part first. We were raised in a very oppressed environment run by a Korean woman who controlled her minons with sexual restrictions. The biggest sin to her was oral sex. She stated over and over that oral sex is the biggest sin that we could commit. Just knowing that piece of information, imagine what growing up in her environment could be like.
If you dared to question her and call her out on her allegedly recockulous rules, she would state to your face that you are crazy and making it up, because she encourages sex in relationships and thinks it's beautiful, but behind your back, she has people watching you and reporting to her, and punishes you for acting out later.
And masturbation. Flogging the dolphin, spanking the monkey, beating the bishop.................... She used that to control her members too. As she got older, she got more restrictive in her rules. Before I left, there was a rule that we had to keep all doors in our rooms in our home open. And if we had to go to the bathroom, there was a two minute limit, because if we were in there longer, it would be assumed that we were busy masturbating, and Jack-off police would report this to Grand Mistress.
Well, that is all for now. I can only write my memories in snippets because I have twenty years of memories, and the truth is everytime I recall one detail, I feel that I need to give you a background, and explain, which leads me to other memories, and honestly, I just don't know where to even begin. So for now, it is easier to just start writing and cut myself off for the day so I don't over-analyze.
If you have any questions, do feel free to ask.
Ciaosies for now !
So, what's up ? I am enjoying Le Weekend. I am still dogsitting Tico, a jack russell terrier mix. He is a lovely dog. I enjoy sleeping next to him, I find it therapeutic. He is playful and always wants me to throw his toys around.
The only real issue is that it's really hard to find him toys that last. He always chews the crap out of them and of course leaves the stuffing all over the floors. I got him a few cool toys from the dollar store, and of course those didn't last more than a couple of hours. So then I decided to step up my game and buy something made with more durable material, and that seemed to work better, although not really.
Another thing that I am happy about is that I got my favorite nail polish, Essie, on sale. Most women brag about Opi, but I don't like that brand, as it peels off my nails easier. Essie seems to be better quality with more popular color pastel shades, which are popular in South Florida. It barely goes on sale, so when I used my CVS extra bucks along with a coupon towards nail polish, I was happy when I only had to pay $9 instead of $19. I also found another bottle in the clearance bin for $2. Yay !
While I am here, I want to talk about more cult stuff, especially since the Duggars are in the news. They are religious and conservative, and there were a lot of similarities in how I and other children in a religious, conservative environment are raised.
I was five years old when my parents joined their organization. I won't be naming any names because some family members are still there and have threatened to sue me for "libel" and "slander", which is one of the reasons I decided to work in the legal field, so I could at least know what is and isn't possible under the law, so I couldn't be scared off so easily. So I will also be using the magic word "allegedly" sprinkled throughout my writings. Sprinkled randomly whenever I feel like it. Just because I feel like it. Allegedly.
So my parents joined this "alleged" cult. when I was five, although my father is no longer there, THANK GOD. I left when I was twenty-five. I will get more into the details of how and why later. Let's go to the interesting part first. We were raised in a very oppressed environment run by a Korean woman who controlled her minons with sexual restrictions. The biggest sin to her was oral sex. She stated over and over that oral sex is the biggest sin that we could commit. Just knowing that piece of information, imagine what growing up in her environment could be like.
If you dared to question her and call her out on her allegedly recockulous rules, she would state to your face that you are crazy and making it up, because she encourages sex in relationships and thinks it's beautiful, but behind your back, she has people watching you and reporting to her, and punishes you for acting out later.
And masturbation. Flogging the dolphin, spanking the monkey, beating the bishop.................... She used that to control her members too. As she got older, she got more restrictive in her rules. Before I left, there was a rule that we had to keep all doors in our rooms in our home open. And if we had to go to the bathroom, there was a two minute limit, because if we were in there longer, it would be assumed that we were busy masturbating, and Jack-off police would report this to Grand Mistress.
Well, that is all for now. I can only write my memories in snippets because I have twenty years of memories, and the truth is everytime I recall one detail, I feel that I need to give you a background, and explain, which leads me to other memories, and honestly, I just don't know where to even begin. So for now, it is easier to just start writing and cut myself off for the day so I don't over-analyze.
If you have any questions, do feel free to ask.
Ciaosies for now !
9 comments:
I think the puppy you are taking care of will get along very well with my cat. They are both equally destructive living beings.
While I pretty much know all about it from you, it still makes me wonder why your other family member chose the Grand Cocksucker over you. I'll never get over how it all went down. You have a pretty big heart to be so forgiving too.
Hugs and fondles, dearest bff.
No masturbation or oral sex? Count me out!
We used to tease, "if you shake it more than 3 times, you're playing with yourself" . No matter what anyone says, there's nothing wrong with hitch hiking under the bigtop.
...wow... what if you had to take a struggle dump..? Jeez, and the mind control... she must have really put a spell on people...
Have you heard of the female rapper Angel Haze? She was brought up in a cult and raps about it. Scary stuff.
What a tale, sounds incredible!
You are brave to not only have gotten out but to share your thoughts openly about it. I find it intriguing. I just never know what to ask you, since I don't want to remind you of all that drama from your past.
You're fortunate, in a way, to have been exposed to the dregs of life. I'm sure it gives you better-insight as to how to appreciate the important things in life.
Wow... just wow...
When it comes to writing about our experiences, sometimes there is just so much we can relate...
~shoesies~
She stated over and over that oral sex is the biggest sin that we could commit.
That's what we *think* my late grandmother told my grandfather. How else could he have come to believe it?
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