I have Senioritis and the semester is NEVER gonna end

Hello everyone,

I am feeling so anxious right now. I have a midterm tommorow, a Spanish paper due on Thurs as well. I also have a midterm next week in my Spanish class from hell. After spring break I also have loads of research and work to do. Dragging myself to class everyday is painful enough and I am tired of sitting through long class periods. I don't care anymore ! Just get me out of here ! For the love of God !

I decided to give the billiards a call one last time to see if they want me to come in and be a cocktail waitress, and the lady there said that she'd call me and "let me know." I am not a mind reader, but I KNOW that she's not gonna call me back. I wish that she woulda told me "no" instead and been more honest about it.

However, my International Marketing professor recommended me to another professor to work on a research project. Basically, I would be surveying business travelers. To add a little incentive, they would each receive 10 bucks for completing the survey. I would also be getting paid for this. This is a wonderful opportunity for me and I could put it on my resume as well as gain more interpersonal skills. I hope that I get the position.

What else?? Oh yeah, I went swimming yesterday night and I felt better after. There were some ghetto people being loud and swearing a little. And get this, they had little kids with them. Why do people like this breed???  But luckily I was at the other pool so I didn't have to be next to them. I thought that I only had to deal with people like that at my job. Looks like I live next to people like that. How sad.

Well folks, thats all for today.

 

OMG, I feel like such an idiot

Hello my lovelies,

Remember a couple of entries back how I told you about the cute contractor that I flirted with and whom invited me over? OMG, it turns out that he has children and is living with a woman. WTF?? Why in hell did he flirt with me and invite me over when he has a FAMILY and lives a few meters away from me??????? How could I not have known? I am soooo glad that I never went over. I also feel soooooo stupid that I ever even talked to him. I am NOT a homewrecker. Thank GOD I am moving a a couple of months. THANK GOD. This experience makes me not want to talk another guy EVER.

But other than that, my day wasn't that bad. In fact, I ran into my old BUS 189 Professor whom I took over the winter. He was the nicest teacher I have ever had and I learned a lot from him. I also went to my bellydance class and my old dance teacher was there. I like her a lot and it was nice to see her again.

One of my neighbors has a cute dog named Peaches that I got to play with. I am such a dog lover and it was nice to pet her, cuz she was lovin' it.

I also spent a lot of time studying for my marketing exam on Wed. I was in the library for a while. I am glad that I finally got my ass out of the house and into the library to study.

Well, thats all for now. Bye :)

Another Day at da Red Lobsta..........

Hello Everyone :)

After I woke up, I went for a little swim. Not for a while, but enough to make my heart beat a little faster. I should swim more. I gotta get rid of some of the junk in da trunk, if ya know what I mean ;)

I also had to work. I was busy for a good 2 hours before things were slow again. I had this one table that had so many requests and ran me around like their little pet monkey. Thank GOD they weren't rude and PRAISE JESUS that they tipped adequately because the bill was 113 bucks. I also got a family of 7 Mexican people that took up 2 of my booths. I wouldn't have cared so much if they sat at one table, but they just had to be sat at 2 tables. I could have had another table and been making money on it. They took forever to eat and left me a piss poor tip of 5 bucks on 120 bucks. The highlight of this whole experience was that they let their cute little girl run around while I was carrying a heavy tray of hot coffee and other drinks. I sternly asked them to move her. C'mon now people !! You wouldn't encourage your children to play in the street or experiment with crack. So don't encourage your little spawn to walk around the waitress carrying a shitload of drinks and hot coffee.

Yeah, I was pissed, but they were nice to me so I know that they didn't mean to jack me out of my pay. If my guests treat me like a decent human being, I will give them good service no matter what.

Another fun part of working at a "family oriented" establishment like Red Lobster is that children love to scream. This little brat at a table next to my section was screaming so loud today.  I swear, God has his ways of making me NEVER want to breed.

Ooooh.... and how could I forget ???? This family of black people were sat in the back and were saying that we're racist because they were seated in the back. Luckily the waitress overheard them and said..." Um, no..... We do not do that here." C'mon now. They wanted to be seated ASAP, and there was space in the back. It's that simple. Plus there were a lof of black customers eating in the front dining room.

I have only 3 more months till I am supposed to go to Europe. I want to put in my 2 weeks notice SOOOO BAD. I've made a lot of friends and learned a lot but this is obviously what I am cut out to do. Red Lobsta is not my destiny and I think that it is time to move on.

Things ARE NOT what they seem

Hello Everyone,

Well my friends, it seems like I did NOT get the job as a cocktail waitress at the billiards. Me and two other coworkers applied. Of course the girl who is the least qualified out of us got the job. Of course I am a little miffed about that. Life is just not fair sometimes. I really need the money right now.

And another thing.......... no matter what I do at work, my bosses never congratulate me when I do a good job. But when I make a mistake? I am the first to hear about it. To them, I am always doing something wrong. And my bosses are so good at making me feel like an idiot. They always have to say something. And they wonder why I am not just overjoyed to be at da Red Lobsta every weekend.

I also feel like like nothing is working out for me right now. I am also frustrated because I just can't find a better job right now no matter how hard I try. And not to mention my love life. It is so hard to meet guys, and when I finally do we flirt, but they don't ask me out.

Basically, my life feels stagnant right now. I am broke and scraping to get by with a dead-end job that I hate. It is so hard to pay my basic bills and stay on top of things. I have been doing the school-and-work routine for 5 years and I am just tired of it.

I want to be doing something that I am totally passionate about, and that I am actually damn good at where I am needed and valued. I want to go to work with a confident attitude, knowing how to handle most situations. I just wish that I knew exactly what makes me tick. Right now, my bosses wouldn't care if I just quit, even though I've been there for 3 years. They think I am a fucking idiot. My strengths don't lie in waitressing and I know that. I struggle and get stressed a lot when I serve, even though I give good service most of the time.

Though I've been struggling for a while, I think that something good is bound to happen to me, because I am not giving up. I am gonna graduate and go to Spain. I am gonna continue to look for a job, and continue to strive to do my best. I think I will be successful in due time, though it seems like I will be stuck in this rut forever. I just need to be more confident in my abilities and have faith in the future.

 

The Never-Ending Argument About Abortion

Hello everyone,

Today was a thinking day. On the way to get some lunch, there was this Pro-Life group with pictured of dead babies shown after an abortion procedure. It was very graphic with pictures of a severed head among other things.There was also a sign comparing Hitler's holocaust to all the abortion killings going on today. I think they went a little too far. C'mon, now. The Holocaust and abortions are totally separate issues.  I remember when the PETA compared animal killings to Hitler's holocaust. Hell, even Bush has been compared to Hitler. I think that groups like these need to do better, more extensive research.

What was low, was that the adults were having their little kids passing out anti-abortion brochures. The children looked younger than 10 years old. I am guessing the adults were too chicken-shit to do it themselves. After all, who is gonna be mean to a little kid?

I mean, the people that were preaching pro-life views were older men. They aren't women. They will never have to be pregnant, and will never know what it feels like. And there they are telling women what "we should do with out bodies". There were also teenage girls present also, but they looked like preteens. I don't think they really understand the issue. I know I didn't when I was their age and I still don't completely.

Whats sad is that pro-life people like this ( that claim to believe in LIFE) are the same people bombing abortion clinics and threatening the lives of the doctors. They somehow believing that killing can prevent killing. How rational.

They are passing judgement. I personally believe in abortion as long as it is the last resort. I don't think that it should be used as a form of birth control. But what about the woman that was raped? What about the women with a medical condition? What about the woman that will never be able to offer her unborn child the life it deserves? What about the rights of these women? If abortion is made illegal, its not like the problem will disappear. There will be more unwanted children in this world and women will resort to dangerous procedures such as using coat hangers.

Sorry folks, but that display sure stirred up a lot of emotion in me and made me think real hard about what I believe in. It created a lot of controversy on campus. A lot of people were offended.