Biggest Holiday of the Year

Hello Everyone,

Tommorow is the biggest holiday of the year here in Spain, and then the Christmas holidays are officially over. Thank God !!! This was my first Christmas season abroad and it was hard for me to deal with.

Tommorow I will go to my roommate´s parents house after work to join in the festivies. I also went to see the parade after work today. I took pictures. I normally hate parades. But this one was cool. And people from the floats were throwing candy. I got hit in the head a couple of times, but at least I got some candy. There were also sooooo many children. I kinda got shaken around a little.

My plans are made. I am really going home. The tickets are bought, I told my family and talked to my boss. Now I am questioning whether I am doing the right thing or not. I guess I can change my plans if I really had to, but I think I am just gonna go home. I just hope that I don´t get depressed while I am back. I only spent about 7 months here, but I feel like I have been here all my life. I feel like I lived my life intensely here. My life in the states is a distant memory.

But at least I still have about a month to see what Barcelona has to offer. And if I really am not happy back home, I can always come back. After all, I have no attachments. No pets, boyfriend or car.

Okay, better go to bed now. It´s late and I have to be awake for work tommorow. Gotta have enough energy to deal with the bitchy secretaries. Speaking of which, remember the lady I hung up on in yesterday's entry that bitched me out ? Well, I called her twice today and slammed the phone on her again. I am sure she know´s it's me but it´s not like she can be rude to me again, because I slam down the phone so fast that she doesn´t have time to think. And I will be a part of her everyday routine till I quit. Hell, I may even take her number with me to the states. Normally, I don´t do such things and stoop to low levels, but ya know I have a limit AND I am bored with my job. She provides me with something my bosses never could: amusement.

Okay, I am done for reals. Ciao.

What´s on my mind

Hello everyone,

Well, I calmed down a little. Jesus, I realized that I really am good at getting all worked up after reading my last entry. I am really coming back to CA. I bought all my tickets and everything. I will be back in the middle of Feb.

I felt so much better after I bought the tickets. I feel like I am more in control of the situation. And now that I know that I am not gonna be here in this city alone forever, I feel relieved. Because now I actually have a plan to follow.

Now I am just gonna enjoy the last month that I have in this beautiful city, and not stress out so much.

I know that I will have a hell of a time trying to get back into the groove of things back in CA but I am not gonna think about that right now.

Anywho, I worked today and people were at their bitchiest with me. I accidently dialed the same number twice and the woman bitched me out. And in the middle of her bitching, I slammed the phone down in her ear. Now that is pure bliss. I think it is the full moon.

I swear, telemarketing really messes with your nerves. I am glad that I am leaving this job pronto. I know people are annoyed with my calls. But damn, all they have to do is tell me that they aren´t interested and I´ll crawl back into my hole and leave them alone.

Thursday is gonna a huge holiday. Although people here celebrate Christmas, they save all the gift givings for el dia de los reyes. (Kings Day). All the stores are crowded. I have to work that day, but I do have all my gifts ready to give my roommate and his family. I bought the stuff early, Thank God.

Oh yeah, and I also went to the Picasso museum today. I loved it. The museum here in Barcelona mainly focused on his earlier years. There is another museum in Madrid. But Picasso was a very talented man. Plus, the museum itself was beautiful with a lot of history. The trip was definitely worth it. Especially if you love art.

Okay, gotta go now. Ciao.

 

Hello There my lovelies.........

Yes, it´s me again ! I am back, writing for the second time in the same day.

I am a very confused individual. Those of you that know my might go a little further and say that I can be a drama queen. I am so confused at this point in my life. Sometimes I just wish that I had my life straightened out.

I am not feeling so happy. So what else is new ? I have had a lot of entries like this.

I am making my plans to come home and I realized that I really do love this city.  But I also feel trapped here and want my freedom that I had back in CA back. I don´t know what to do. I feel like I am never just going to be happy. You know what I mean? All I really want is to be happy. But I did have a lot of happy monents here, too. But not right now.

Earlier today at work I just wanted nothing more than to go back home. Then I walked around the city after work and realized how much I love Barcelona. Hell, I don´t even know what I want sometimes.

I am also depressed because I called my old boss at Red Lobster and asked for my job as a waitress back. He told me that he would think about it. I couldn´t even get a definite yes on a stupid waitressing job. To be honest I would hate having to go back to serving. True, I need the money and would do it if I had to. However, I did that while I was in school. I graduated. Now is the time to actually get a job that deals with what I went to school for. I would be so sad if I had to put that apron back on and listen to people bitch about how their salmon is undercooked.

Anyways, you get point. I am feeling depressed and very alone right now. The feeling really bites. Maybe I should write more happy entries. But I am not going to right now. I need to keep this journal real. I plan on looking back at this one day.

Okay, Ciao.

Coming Home

Hello Everyone,

Today I took my first steps in planning my trip home. I packed up a lot of crap that I have and sent it home by mail. Unfortunately there is a weight limit with my luggage, so I am trying to avoid as much hassle as possible the day I fly. You know how anal the European airlines can be.

I also changed my return flight from Barcelona to Austria. I was origionally gonna visit Austria in May, but I changed it to Feb. I plan to leave Spain on Feb 1st. Before I go back to the states in mid-February, I would like to spend time with my family in Austria.

I still gotta by my ticket from Germany to the states, but I still got time for that.  But I did talk to my boss and I am making sure that I am getting paid the day I leave. I am working hard for that money. The exchange rate with the Euro is awesome right now. $1.38 to a Euro. I plan on cashing in big time. Feel sorry for Americans changing their dollars here. I had to do that during the summer, and I really felt the pain.

I also gotta call my old boss back at da Red Lobsta and ask for my old job back as a server so I can pay rent. Gawd, I hated that job, but not as much as I hate telemarketing.

I also gotta look for a car and a roommate. Sheesh, the list of shit I gotta do just goes on and on. But, I have a month so I am not too worried.

Anyways, y'all get the idea. I am coming home soon if my plans work out.

Okay, gotta go. Ciao.

 

First Entry for 2005

Hello All,

I can´t believe the new year has arrived so fast !!!! I was thinking about this journal and I really wish that I could have a much more private journal that is friends only. Because there are a lot of things that I wish I could write. But as I thought about it, not many people even read my journal to begin with. So, there would be no point in doing that.

I am going through a rough time right now and I really need someone to talk to. I talked to my parents a little and it helped, but I also wish that I could talk to a friend.

Basically, I have decided that my trip is pretty much over for reasons that I can´t really get into here. I have thought about a lot of things and decided that it´s just not worth it to stay here anymore. Although I have had a lot of fun and learned a lot of things, my harships are starting to outweigh the happiness. But I will still say that the trip was certainly worth it. I needed to get out and do this. I am hoping to leave here by the end of this month, but that is just a plan. Of course things may change.

Anyways, I have to say that I had a nice New Years. After eating dinner at my roommate´s family, we went out to a club and stayed there till 7am when it closed. Needless to say, I slept the whole day. I woke up at 6pm. I am still tired.

Okay, gotta go now. Ciao.