This sucks.

Hello Everyone,

So.....................

1.) My boss at work won´t help me out and give me a contract. His business is dirty so of course he doesn´t wanna expose the company and he very tactfully told me that it wasn´t worth it for him to help me due to my position. I am a telemarketer. I can understand. Business is business. But to his credit he did consult an immigration lawyer and he told me exactly what I need to be able to work for him under a contract. I don´t quite meet all the requirements and he would have to kinda go out on a limb to help me. And he won´t.

2.) I called the English school and they won´t give me a contract either.

3.) I still have to call the owner of the restaurant after work tomorrow to see if he´ll be willing to give me a contract.

4.) I will ask another restaurant owner across the street if he would be willing to hire me.

5.) A coworker told me a name of a good immigration lawyer that might be able to help me and he told me he´d lend me the money. But the truth is without a contract from a business that´s willing to hire me there is nothing I can do. This much I know at least.

I am running out of money to be able to pay my bills back in the states and stay here. I will call tommorow. Tommorow is really my last hope so far.

If things don´t work out I will either go home in July or maybe pack up and move to Madrid. Here I have to speak Catalan to apply to most jobs. And I am kinda sick of how the Catalans here treat foreigners.

I have three words to say: Fuck this shit. I am so tired of this fucking shit. No one is willing to give me an opportunity. How many more times do I have to hear no ? This is absurd. I don´t know what to do anymore. I guess I could get married, but I would rather go home. The guy offering wants to be more than my friend and won´t leave me alone. I would rather be banned forever from coming back here than to be legally bound to him.

Anyways, I am not gonna appologize for my vulgar language here on my journal any longer. So sorry, if I offended anyone but consider this fair warning.  If it offends, don´t read.

Well, I am gonna go home now. Ciao.

My Latest Options..........

Hello,

1.) Well, I had an interview at the bar today. I may or may not get a contract. The owner is going to talk to his lawyers. I will find out what he thinks on Thursday.

2.) I am also going to ask my boss at work again if he will help me out and offer me a contract. I should find out sometime this week.

3.) I also called an English language business school and they may or may not contract me.

I think that numbers 1 and 2 are realistic. I think that the third is out of the question. I will post the results when I find out.

I have till next Friday to get a contract and hand in all my paperwork if I wanna get legal. Will I get it or now? Who knows?

I will know my answer in about 10 days.

Another beginning of the week.....

Hello,

Well, I didn´t choose a mood from above because they don´t have it. My mood right now is: I don´t care.

First of all the weather right now is absolutely gorgeous. I love it. I think it will be getting hotter from now on and then I can finally swim in the ocean.

My English class never happened. When I called his phone he wasn´t there. I couldn´t call him again because I was at work and he never called me back. So there was no class or extra money for me today. So typical here.

I am still working on trying to get a contract but it´s going nowhere. Yeah, I am getting calls and applying to different places but I am still where I have always been. Once people find out I don't have EU papers they don´t want to continue the conversation. And although I am still trying I really don´t care anymore. I am gonna start enjoying the weather here and getting out every weekend. If things don´t happen there is nothing I can really do.

Anyways, gotta go. Ciao.

Wierd things I forgot about

Hello,

Did you know that there is a bird called a  "tit" ?  Yeah, well there is. In fact there are lots of tits here in Barcelona. You can look at big tits, little tits, and colored tits. I have my favorite: The bearded tit. I like to watch birds sometimes. I can´t imagine telling someone that I am looking at the bearded tits in the trees. I am waiting for that moment.

My coworker talked to a guy on the phone named Mr. Kock, from Germany. " Excuse me, I´d like to speak to Mr. Kock please. Oh, he´s been in and out all day ? Well, when will he be back in? " 

Did you know that there is a new law here in Spain ? Well, it is now mandatory for husbands to do at least 40% of the housework.  I shit you not. If a man doesn't do at least 40% of the housework, when the woman files for divorce then the man is punished by taking time away from him with his children. I do believe that men should share the household chores, but this law is absolutely absurd. I mean c´mon now. You can´t really regulate people´s marraiges. What is the woman supposed to do ? Run around the house with a clipboard? Get the sheets notarized?

Anyways, enough for today. Enjoy the week y´all. Ciao.

 

Weekend Summary and Venting

Hello,

Today I took a nice long walk with my roommate and we walked all the way down to the beach. Very nice, and the weather is starting to get hot. We had ice cream and then had a drink on the beach. Very nice. We also talked about our dreams and how we want to make lots of money. We always do.

I realized the reason that I am unhappy right now is because I absolutely hate the job I am in right now and I really don´t have any other options. And my boss is a jackass. He doesn´t even want to write me a letter that would help me to get legal with the new amnesty law right now. Really, there is nothing that he really has to do. All he has to do is write a letter on the company letterhead stating that he´s willing to hire me for six months, stamp it and sign it. What a fucker. I hope he dies of his crack addiction. You think I am joking. I think my boss is on drugs. He has all the symptoms.

I keep applying to other companies but no one is willing to give me a chance. Either that or I somehow fall short of the requirements. For example, 2 car rental companies called me back and offered me an interview. But I didn´t get it in the end because I don´t have a Spanish driver´s license. And to have one I need to be a resident here. I am sick of hearing no all the time. I mean, there has got to be a time when things get better. It´s not that getting working papers is completely out of reach. I am really close, but the answer always turns out to be no in the end. And I have until May 7th to sort this out. The Spanish government set a deadline on this. So yeah, if I don´t apply for papers before then I am out of gas.

Anyways, I have 8 more weeks of working at this shithole and then I am going home. I have debt back home that needs to be paid, and if I stay here I will just continue to work under the table in English all the time, and I will continue to get walked all over by my students. Due to my lack of money I can´t even travel around as much as I would like.

 My priority right now is building up my skills so that I can get a good job, whether is is learning Spanish or working for a Spanish company. And right now due to my job I spend a lot of time speaking English.

I have improved my Spanish, learned about Spanish and Catalan cultures, and traveled a little. So being here has done me good. I have lots of beautiful pictures to prove it. But I need to do something better with my life, and I would love to start working and building my resume here. But of thats not possible, then it´s better that I go home.

Okay, I feel better now. I think that tommorow I have a private Spanish lesson, but I am sure that he´ll cancel on me since he did last time. But if he cancels at least I still have my Spanish class.

Speaking of Spanish class, we have been learning about making commands in Spanish. I am relieved, since I forgot how since my last Spanish class. I should be learning about subjunctives next week. I am finally learning the grammar that I haven´t learned yet.

Anyways, I am gonna go and clean my room and get ready for the week ahead. I am hoping that I´ll get a call from a company that´s willing to give me a contract. Who knows?