Hello there my lovelies,
In my life, I try to make improvements. If I am not happy, I like to fix it so that I may be happy. Last year was stressful because I tried different things to change my life and I felt like I failed. But if I take a look closer, I really didn't. It's just that I can't expect things to happen for me overnight. And sometimes things may fall through for a reason.
1.) Last year around this time I decided that I wanted to move out into my own place where I could live my life the way I want to. Those of you who know me personally know exactly what I am talking about and how significant it is for me. I moved out of a cramped apartment with no privacy into my own private room in a nice neighborhood. One day I just woke up and made the change. I only looked at one place I found on Craig's List and that was it. I haven't looked back since.
2.) I realized some of my passion in life. I love to travel, learn languages, work with immigrants, and I realized that I want to be a federal officer in immigrations. Either that or join the Peace Corps. Or a corporate job that allows international travel. I kinda knew this was what I wanted, but I was too scared to actually take the steps. I didn't believe in myself or think I have what it takes. Besides, what if I fail? Well, I got tired of making excuses, so I started researching the various positions and getting involved in volunteer work. I also took the TSA exam and the Border Patrol exam.
Unfortunately, I kinda did fail a little. I failed the TSA exam due to my eye sight, I failed the Border Patrol exam because I was too nervous, and I had to give up volunteering because it conflicted with my work schedule
However, this year I am going to try again. I may be getting better hours at work so that I may volunteer, I got lasik so that I may retake the TSA exam, and I studied harder so that I may retake the Border Patrol exam in April. I also joined a gym so that I can work on staying in shape for the fitness exam. Plus, now there are opportunities in Customs and Border Protection, so I would like to take the exsm for that as well.
3.) I was so frustrated with my job at Enterprise. I could not imagine being an Assistant Manager there. I just could not imagine getting excited over it. I was tired of the sales tactics I was taught, I was tired of getting walked on by my customers, and management constantly ass raping us. It took a long time to find another job. I looked all over, went to many interviews, and finally gave up. Until one summer day, one of my customers came in and suggested that I apply for the position I currently have. I was happy that my hard work finally paid off.
4.) I had never danced at any major bellydance festivals, and last year I put myself out there and performed for the first time with my troupe.
So......... this year I will build off last year.
1.) I will retake the Border Patrol Exam around April or May.
I will apply to take the Customs and Border Protection exam in a couple of months.
I am working on getting promoted at my current job. I am in the process of getting transferred to another department. In fact today was my first day handling issues on my own, and I think I did well. And if I get better hours, I can start volunteering again.
I hope to start applying for the Peace Corps by the end of this year. It depends on a lot of things, but I am crossing my fingers on this one.
2.) This year I would like to perform my solo routine that I designed at the major bellydance festivals. I would also like to buy another sturdy, professional dance costume.
I learned that in order for things to get better, I need to really put in the effort and be patient, meaning that sometimes I'm gonna make mistakes or not make the cut. But eventually things may start improving very slowly. I don't think everything will happen all at once. I think they will slowly happen and one day I will realize how far I've come along.