Hello there my lovelies.............
I've had a lot on my mind lately. I've been thinking about my life and where it's headed.
For starters I am so stressed out at my financial situation. I just owe a lot in student loans right now and making all the payments in addition to my rent and other current bills is just so hard. Especially with my shitty ass salary right now. Living on campus during college and my trip to Spain put me in this position. But I can't say those decisions were stupid. I don't regret what I did. I just don't know how to get myself outta this situation.
I also know that I have to find another job that I like. I think I finally found my niche. I would like to eventually work for the INS as an adjudications officer, asylum officer, deportations officer or an immigrations inspector, and the list could go on. Either that, or I would like to work in a US embassy in another country.
I have an interest in other languages and cultures, I am good with people, and have patience and compassion. I have always been interested in other people's stories before they came to the US, and what it took for them to get here and become a citizen. I know my mom went through the system and I have asked her a lot about it. In working for the INS, this would become my business.
Immigrations is a huge issue here. Some people are for it and some are against it. I would like to be a part of the process and try to understand it.
I know that I have a long way to go before I can get one of these jobs. I'll probably have to do a lot of volunteer work, improve my Spanish and learn other languages, take exams, and who knows what else. I am going to start volunteering next Saturday for Citizenship day. I will be helping people who are applying for citizenship, fill out the right paperwork. From then on I hope to get more involved with the organization.
I called the INS to find out more about working for them, but of course no one there was helpful. And that's to be expected because it's the government. I expect to get the runaround and deal with grumpy people that don't want to tell me anything or even transfer me to the right person because it's "not their department."
I am just tired of sales. I know that's what I went to school for. I majored in Business Administration with a concentration in marketing. But I don't think that sales is for me. I am sick and tired of the pressure at work to getmy numbers up. It's not like what I am selling at work is always necessary. I am tired of having to convince customers to buy something that they really don't need. Sales is such a cutthroat business and my problem is that I actually do give a damn about the customer and that I tell the truth. It may not make me the top sales girl, but at least the customer knows I am not trying to rip him off.
I am also thinking about joining the Peace Corps. It's a thought that keeps popping up in my head. It would be such a good experience, but I have to admit that the thought of living in a third world country for 2 years is a little intimidating. Also, I am in a lot of debt right now and I have to pay most of it down before I can leave.
But it would be such a good experience, especially since I would like to learn more languages and learn about other cultures. I have traveled to Europe before, but I really haven't been to a third world country before. It's really important for us as Americans to realize how good we have it and how lucky we are. It's also important to see how other people live so we can be more tolerant and understanding.
Anyways, that's enough now. I know that I have more to say on the issue, and I will be sure to continue later.