Thursday, March 9, 2006

It's Official. I have the Blues.

Hello All,

I am gonna be blunt. I am feeling really sad. I think I may be depressed. This is so not my week. It's raining for starters. Customers have also been so rude lately. Today I got badgered by a customer's lawyer. My sales at work have also plummeted. I had the highest sales in the office for the past couple of weeks and now I haven't been able to sell anything for the past couple of days. And I've been trying harder. Nothing sucks more when you work harder and reap less rewards.

I was also going out with a guy that I was starting to really like and he hasn't called in over a week. He just disappeared and hasn't called. Things were great and we were having a lot of fun. This wouldn't bother me so much if this sort of thing happens once in a while. But this happens with almost every man I go out with. They disappear after 2 or three dates. I didn't even put out, lol. It's one thing if I make myself too easy and leave no mystery. I don't get it. I can't keep brushing this off when it happens to me every time I go out with someone. It really stings and leads me to believe that there is something wrong with me.

Of course there is more that's bothering me but I don't feel like elaborating any more. I think I have said way more than enough already.

I've been really tired and drained lately. The days have been going by longer and it's getting harder for me to care about things anymore. Today I had a happy hour at work and I left early to come home and sulk.

This sucks. I don't wanna talk to anyone. I feel useless. I sure hope things get better soon.


lmitc89854 said...

I read your journal and you are a very interesting person. (otherwise, frankly, I wouldn't read your journal!) I think he just isn't that interested in you. Maybe you are too much for him and he isn't enough for you. You will find someone soon though, the odds are in your favor!

teesbabe00 said...

Girl, you are fabulous!!! Your prince will come, just take care of yourself. I hope that your weekend is better than your week.


jcrazytrain said...

Sweetie don't let the sumina fargina bastages get you down. Your beautiful and you sound like a great fun loving person MUAH D

kdwsunshine said...

You are not alone!!
Its not you, there is nothing wrong with you, I feel like you and I are in the same boat when it comes to men, its crazy.
I hope that you have had a good weekend, relaxed and feel refreshed for a new and better week.
Love ya!

zoorisk said...

You are a very beautiful and attractive woman, there is nothing wrong with you should never let any man make you feel this way.  I have been in your shoes and it still happens from time to time but I get up and keep moving forward.  In time you will find your prince who will spoil you the way you should be spoiled.

happinessdreams said...

aww things will get better soon. I completely understand how you feel, I go through this all the time. When it comes to guys anymore, I don't know what to seems like we have problems in that department. I know that things will change and that we will find that special someone. You know where to find me if you wanna chat.