I am gonna be blunt. I am feeling really sad. I think I may be depressed. This is so not my week. It's raining for starters. Customers have also been so rude lately. Today I got badgered by a customer's lawyer. My sales at work have also plummeted. I had the highest sales in the office for the past couple of weeks and now I haven't been able to sell anything for the past couple of days. And I've been trying harder. Nothing sucks more when you work harder and reap less rewards.
I was also going out with a guy that I was starting to really like and he hasn't called in over a week. He just disappeared and hasn't called. Things were great and we were having a lot of fun. This wouldn't bother me so much if this sort of thing happens once in a while. But this happens with almost every man I go out with. They disappear after 2 or three dates. I didn't even put out, lol. It's one thing if I make myself too easy and leave no mystery. I don't get it. I can't keep brushing this off when it happens to me every time I go out with someone. It really stings and leads me to believe that there is something wrong with me.
Of course there is more that's bothering me but I don't feel like elaborating any more. I think I have said way more than enough already.
I've been really tired and drained lately. The days have been going by longer and it's getting harder for me to care about things anymore. Today I had a happy hour at work and I left early to come home and sulk.
This sucks. I don't wanna talk to anyone. I feel useless. I sure hope things get better soon.