I'm lying in bed as I type this. Speaking of which, I should be getting a new bed soon.
Yesterday I practiced dance with my dance troupe. Our performance is in 2 weeks. I can't wait for it to be over. Because when it's over I am finding a new dance troupe. Hell, that and a new teacher.
For starters my teacher dropped out. After 18 years of dance she decides that she has to have her "life changing experience" right now and take her sabattical. Fuck, and she couldn't hold out for two more weeks??? To her credit she left one of the girls in charge and didn't just disappear. But still, I came to dance to learn from her. NOT my classmate. I acted like I was happy for her.
Another thing, there are about 18 girls in our group. I am the newest girl there. Most are nice, but there are a strong few that I can't stand. Sometimes I feel like I don't have an opinion. It's like I have to do what they say all the time. Plus they pay way too much attention to technical stuff and don't really passionately dance the pieces out. I agree that we should pay attention to counts, but I also think we should focus on the passion that we bring to the dance. I just don't learn the way they do. In my last troupe, I was encouraged to speak, and the girls were nicer, and my teacher cared more about our stage presence.
And lastly, I don't like the cattiness. I hate it when they are acting "nice" but slip in a snide remark here or there. I know that I dance with them, but that I am not part of the "in crowd". Hell they don't even invite me to other dance performances.
So, I am counting the days until we perform and I don't have to be a part of them anymore. Sadly for some I think the feeling is mutual.
Anyways, I should think about getting out of bed and getting stuff done.