Hello There My Little LOL Cats,
I don't usually ask questions on my blog, as that is usually left to Secretia. She's good at getting people to spill their guts.
But I've been thinking about the last ten years of my life. Ten years ago I just started college, and I was as innocent, naive and gullible as they came since I grew up in an extremely sheltered environment. I was living out on my own for the first time in the San Jose State dorms, still hadn't even kissed a boy and had all these hopes and dreams for my future. I couldn't even picture ten years ahead in 2009/2010.
I just assumed that I would be in a high paying job, happily married, and that things would just magically fall into place. After all I was going to college, I was always studying and I planned to apply for internships. Also, people always told me I would go far in life.
Anyway, not even close. None of that happened. Lady Universe looked down upon me and basically told me that I had many lessons to learn. The hard way.
Basically I look at what I had hoped for back then, and my life now, and it's so completely different. My dreams, desires and goals are completely different. During the past decade I had to decide what I was even passionate about and who I was as a person. Until I could even do that, things weren't progressing.
I don't think fortune tellers would make any money if they gave you a spot on predictions about the future. I would've told mine to take a hike, for sure had she predicted that ten years later I would still be working in a low level job, and that despite putting myself out there and volunteering for free for a couple of years I would still be facing rejection after rejection. Or great opportunites would be presented that would just disappear later or somehow not pan out.
I also don't know what I would've done to Ms. Fortune Teller had she told me that I would spend the next ten years in dating hell with nothing coming even close to working out. Other than having one boyfriend (we were great friends but not even close to right for eachother) everything else was a crash-and-burn deal. I didn't even have a chance to bond with them, because they would be in and out of my life so fast. The good thing about that, is there was never that "one that got away" nor do I wish I had done things differently. I really didn't have the opportunity to.
The two things most important to me in my life have been a constant struggle: Career and Love. I don't know how much more of these precious life lessons I am supposed to learn. It's really started to wear on me this year. If the past decade is any indication of what is to come, then I am very scared.
Don't get me wrong. I have had a lot of luck in other areas of my life. I finally found my passion in life, and I have definitely learned more about myself. I have also had a lot of wonderful times traveling and with my family. And for that I am greatful, as that keeps me going.
I want to ask you to think back to your life ten years ago. And then fast forward to now. Imagine a psychic told you then where you are now. Would you have been surprised ? Pissed Off ? Happy ?
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