Rakassah

Hello there my lovelies,

Yesterday was our big performance. A couple things went wrong. For starters they put us on the small stage and cut down how many dancers we could have. There were about 10 of us and they only allowed 5 of us to be on at a time. We had three routines. That meant that we all couldn't dance all three dances. So instead of me being in 3 routines, I could only do one. The other girls got to do 2 routines, but they only let me do one.

That also meant that I worked hard to learn the choreography for 2 dances for absolutely nothing. I was so pissed. All those hours or practice for nothing.

But............... I was able to do my sword routine on the floor. My sword dance was part of a routine with other girls that danced with veils and other girls dancing with the sword standing up.

While I was dancing all eyes were on me. People didn't really watch the other girls in my routine that much. I was the only one getting down and dancing on the floor with a sword on my head and people loved it. In fact, in bellydance there aren't a lot of people that dance on the floor with a sword.

My routine was two minutes. That made my night perfect, even though everything else didn't work out. I haven't performed for a while. I forgot what it felt like to get dressed up, put on tons of makeup and dance in front of a crowd. And it felt good, especially since I did a good job and the crowd there was full of people that love and appreciate bellydance. I saw a lot of people in the crowd taking pictures of me.

I put in all those hours of practice to learn how to dance with the sword. I got sore, bruised and sweat a lot. I put in 4-5 months of practice for a 2 minute performance. And it finally paid off. I never thought I would see the light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak.

Last night I finally bonded with my troupe. From the past entries that I wrote, you can tell that I didn't like half the girls there. I was the newest addition to the group and most of them didn't really talk to me, didn't really like my suggestions and were kinda catty/bossy.

But last night we all came together and bonded. And most came up to me and told me how they loved how I did with the performance. They gave me hugs and told me that I looked really nice in my costume. And they made me feel like I was actually part of the troupe.

A guy that I've been seeing took me there. I didn't think that he would be interested in bellydance, so I really didn't think he would come. Bellydance is more of a chick thing. But he knew it meant a lot to me and he took me there and watched me perform. And he loved the performance. And it was nice to have him there. We were both famished afterwards so then we went to Dennys after and loaded up on greasy food.

My teacher that left the troupe was also there and she told me that I looked so beautiful and was cheering me on while I was performing. That meant a lot to me. But what meant even more to me was that my friend that taught me the sword and went to practice with me on the weekends was there and took pictures of me, gave me roses and cheered me on. She was almost crying because I finally did it. She is leaving to Finland in a couple of weeks. She's gonna be gone for 3 months and I am gonna miss her so much.

Anyways, I will end it right here. I also volunteered yesterday, but I will write about that later. That needs an entry of its own.

Ciao.