Monday, April 3, 2006


First of all, I gotta say that this weather stinks. I really miss the sunshine. Nothing better than the sunshine on my face. At the last branch I worked at I used to sit in a chair outside and just bathe in the sun. It felt so good.

I feel so betrayed right now. I realized even more that the life I've been living has been an absolute lie. I am so upset and hurt. Not the hurt that I cry over and feel better after. It's hurt that just stuns me, sits and resides in me and haunts me from time to time. And I don't know if it will go away. I've never really cried over it. I can't. I can't really get into the details here. For starters, it's just too much. And also, I know I am gonna get heat for posting even this much. But I don't care anymore. I am willing to take the heat.

Anyways, Apprentice is on. Ciao.

1 comment:

zoorisk said...

I guess they dont have a place for you to sit outside in the sun, but dont worry the sun will shine again to make you smile.  I dont know all the details but if you do catch some heat you are only expressing what is in your thoughts and what you feel in your heart.  good luck.