In Loving Memory Of My Oma

Hello All,

Two years ago today, my Oma (Austrian grandmother) passed away.

Last night I watched the movie called What Dreams May Come. It's a beautiful film that addresses what happens to us after we die and also introduces the idea of reincarnation.

I really feel that I lucked out when I mourned Oma. It was short, and although I still miss her, I am not hurting. I was able to let out all the pain when I went to her funeral. When I went back, I pretty much visited every place that she took me on her last day with me. Coincidence ? I think not. I walked by the last terminal she said goodbye to me at, I slept at her apartment, visited the Castle with my mom and aunt,where she bought me my last struedel, visited her country house, and I even had the same waiter that served us the last ice cream I ever had with her. I really think it was her way of helping me mourn her and move on. And when I flew back home, I felt like a new person with a new outlook.

 I feel like she is not here. You know how you can sometimes feel the presence of a deceased loved one ? Well, I don't feel like Oma is hovering over me. She sometimes comes in my dreams, but not in a way where I know she is dead. In my dreams, it's like she's always been alive.

I don't know where she is. But with my beliefs in the dying process, I know that she had no problems "crossing over". Wherever she is, I am pretty sure she is with my Opa (grandpa), aka the love of her life. And if she's not, it's probably because she's reincarnated and working on her way of finding him again.

She was a wonderful grandmother to me, and I hope that I am lucky enough to live a happy life like she did. I learned a lot from her.

Beautiful

 

Hello All,

 

Isn't that picture beautiful ? I snaked it from Flicker. It's not me, unfortunately :( This is a picture of a dancer in Egypt.

Notice that her back and stomach are covered with nylon. It is not exposed. That is because it is considered to be vulgar for a woman to show her bare stomach in public. Yes, a bare stomach is vulgar in their culture.

I was on Flicker to try and hunt down my pictures. A photographer took shots of me and my troupe mates for a dance project back in Nov of 2006. I couldn't find them anymore :( Luckily I have a few saved on my computer. Unfortunately my comp is broken and I have to pay a substantial amount to fix it or at least get all my info off.

The photographer who shot us is Andrew Casteel. He took the photo of me holding up the sword. He is my favorite, and getting free shots from him was a blessing. A belly dancer sometimes comes into good luck.

Some of the good luck I've come into while I danced:

I got my very first professional dance costume ( the red one at the left) at a very reasonable price and got the pants and veil thrown in.

I got free professional photographs

I made some close friends

I learned how to dance with the sword for free

I got a real scimitar (not that fake bellydance sword crap) and I was able to get it dulled down with a case ( way rare to find if you don't talk to the right people)

I need to start practicing more and actually perform so that I come into some more dancer's luck...........

Hopefully sooner than later............

 

I am stealing Win's Survey !!!!

A is for age:  27, but only for a few months longer

B is for beer of choice: Me no likey the beer

C is for career right now: I am still a security monkey and an unpaid office bitch (intern)

D is for your dog's name:  If I had one, I would name her chica(girl) or Papi (boy)

E is for essential item you use every day: Toothbrush

F is for favorite TV show at the moment:  .Law and Order

G is for favorite game: Dating, lol

H is for hometown: Bay Area, CA

I is for instruments you play: None, I can't even read notes. How sad it that ?

J is for favorite juice: Grape

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: No one is really on my list at the moment.

L is for last restaurant you ate at: The Cantankerous Fish

M is for marriage: I hope it's in my future

N is for Number of Piercing's: One

O is for overnight hospital stay: Hopefully that day will never come

P is for people you were with today: My bosses

Q is for what you do with your quiet time: Sleep or read, or eat, or veg out and watch DVDs

R is for biggest regret: That I never got myself into an Ivy League school

S is for status: I am a Senorita, a Fraulein, lol 

T is for time you woke up today: Too damn late, lol

U is for if you are unique: That is what I have been told

V is for vegetables you love: Mushrooms, onions, bell peppers, garlic........

W is for worst habit: I keep a messy house, lol 

X is for x-rays you've had: My arm, teeth and lungs

Y is for yummy food you ate today: Pizza and frozen yogurt

Z is for zodiac sign: I am a Sagittarius, baby !

Thank God School Hasn't Started For Me Yet

Hello There My Lovelies,

Since I have been out of school, my mind has pretty much been on vacation. I do have to say that I have enjoyed my summer vacation so far.

Last Friday I went for a swim at my friend's house at his apartment pool. I bought a new swimsuit and I finally got to try it out. I definitely look better than I did last year, lol. Shit, I was my heaviest last time this year. Just thinking about that is depressing.

I also got a much needed tan. We had a lot of fun. I got a lot of exercise.

I also bought a couple of new pairs of shoes. I wasn't going to buy more shoes, but I couldn't pass it up. They were too cute. They look really trendy, and they were cheap.

What else........... I am registered for classes this fall. I also added an Arabic class. I don't know if I will actually follow through with the class. But I added it so I would have a spot. I hope that nothing gets in the way of that. I would really like to learn the language. I would finally like to understand the bellydance music I have been dancing to all this time. I would also love to travel to the Middle East someday too. My folks think I am crazy for wanting to go. But I have always been attracted to the dance and their culture. I can't help it.

I would also like to learn Russian and travel there someday too, but that is another entry too.

Nothing Exciting To Report

Hello All,

Nothing that exciting to report today. I blew some cash at the mall though a couple of days ago. I also got a nice foot massage while I was there. I like foot massages where they apply a lot of pressure. The lady used her thumb nail a little on my foot. I asked her to use more thumb and less thumb nail. She didn't understand me at first which was kinda frustrating, especially because I am really ticklish. Eventually she got the idea.

I also bought a new expensive swim suit recently. My friend invited me out, so I will be trying it out tomorrow at the pool. I haven't been to the pool in about two years. I will also be trying to work on getting a decent tan.

Anyway, that is all for now.

 

Girl Survey.........

57 Girl Confessions

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? YES, I LIKE IT

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? SHORT PARTY DRESS

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter? READ IT, DUH !

4. Group dates or single dates? SINGLE DATES, BUT GROUP CAN BE FUN ONCE IN A WHILE

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? NO, I EXPECT A MAN TO TREAT ME DIFFERENTLY THAN HIS FRIENDS, IF I AM A POTENTIAL LOVE INTEREST

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend? YES, IF IT IS AN ENGAGEMENT RING, OTHER THAN THAT I DON'T CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THEM

7. Is your hair up or down today? DOWN

8. Do you straighten your hair? I DO FOR DANCE PERFORMANCES

9. Favorite mascara? L'OREAL

10. Do you get your nails done? YES, ESPECIALLY IF I AM GOING OUT

11. Small or large purses? SMALL

12. In your purse, what are your must haves? CELL, WALLET, KEYS, CHAPSTICK, LIP GLOSS

13. Jeans or sweats? JEANS

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable? YES, A GIRL HAS GOTTA GIVE UP COMFORT FOR STYLE SOMETIMES

15. Do you text message a lot? NOT AS MUCH AS EVERYONE ELSE

16. What would you do if you got pregnant? I DON'T KNOW, PLEASE DON'T ASK ME SUCH QUESTIONS.......

17. What’s your favorite color? THE ONES THAT MAKE ME LOOK SLIMMER

18. Heels or flats? HEELS ON A NICE NIGHT OUT, BUT USUALLY FLATS

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? THE ONLY ROMANTIC MOVIE I CRIED THROUGH WAS THE NOTEBOOK. THE REST OF THE LOVE STORIES OUT THERE ARE LAME AND NOT WORTH MY TEARS

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? YES, ALL THE TIME

21. Walmart or Target? BOTH, PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME CHOOSE

22. Do you wear collared shirts? YES

23. Do you like preppy boys? NOT REALLY, ESPECIALLY SINCE I AM NOT A HIGH SCHOOLER ANYMORE

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? TOTALLY, LOVE IT

25. Do you own any big sunglasses? NO WAY, I AM NOT INTO THAT LOOK

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? DEPENDS

27. Do you like to wear band-aids? WHO LIKES TO WEAR BAND AIDS ?

28. Do you like skater boys? NOT REALLY

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change ? YES, I WANT A BETTER JOB AND I AM WORKING ON THAT

30. Gold or silver? GOLD

31. Do you like to receive flowers? TELL ME WHAT GIRL WOULD SAY THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE TO RECEIVE FLOWERS, AND I WILL SHOW YOU A MAN THAT DOESN'T LIKE SEX

32. Do you like surfer boys? NOT REALLY, BUT I DID ALMOST FALL FOR ONE BEFORE

33. Do you dress up for the holidays? OH TOTALLY, IT'S MY THING

34. Do you like to wear dresseses? YES I DO

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you ? 5, I CAN USUALLY SEE WHAT'S COMING BEFORE IT HAPPENS

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy ? NO

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you ? NO, SORRY, BUT I'M NOT EVEN 5 FEET TALL.......

38. Do you like to hold hands ? YES

39. What is the youngest you would date? 27, MY AGE

40. What is the oldest you would date? 37

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy ? WHETHER HE IS WEARING A WEDDING RING OR NOT

42. Is it hott when guys sweat? RAWR !!

43. What is the best feature in a guy? ARE WE TALKING PHYSICAL ? THEN ALL YOU THAT KNOW ME WOULD KNOW MY ANSWER. OTHERWISE I WOULD GO WITH HIS SENSE OF HUMOR......

44. Do you like making eye contact? YES, DON'T YOU THINK IT'S IMPORTANT ?

46. Would you kill for chocolate? NO, LOL. NOW WHEN I AM PMSING THAT IS A DIFFERENT SITUATION........

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? NO, IT DOESN'T TAKE THAT LONG TO LOOK FABULOUS

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? 7

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? NO, I DON'T EVEN GET CABLE, SO IT'S A NORMAL THING FOR ME TO MISS OUT ON EVERYTHING

50. Do you yell a lot ? NO

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? I USED TO, BUT I HAVE SINCE EVOLVED

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? LOL, NO

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? I DON'T EVEN LIKE POETRY

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out ? EYE LINER

55. Do you fall in love easily? NO, ALMOST NEVER

56. Do you have cramps? DURING THAT SPECIAL TIME OF THE MONTH

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?  I LOVE MY FRIENDS :)

Not a manic Monday

Hello All,

Today was a relatively relaxing day. I started out by going to my dance class. I need a back adjustment. I was definitely stiff and my moves were not as good. When I got back home I gave my veil a spin. I tried bending backwards and dancing with it. Yeah, time to see the chiropractor.

I also took my car to get the oil changed. While I did that I had lunch at a cheap Vietnamese sandwich place. Good sandwich, but the lady was kinda rude and on top of that the place smelled like a wet dog, and there was a fly or two buzzing around. I think that I will stick to their competitor.

Then I went for coffee. A nice caramel mocha over ice. I am still wired on caffeine and will continue to be for the remainder of this evening. It's not a bad feeling.........

Oh, I also went shopping at the mall. I do enjoy blowing my hard earned cash at the mall. I got some cute clothes on sale at Kohls. I had to cut the trip short because I had to get to work.

Once I got out into the parking lot, I realized that I didn't really remember where I parked my car. That was funny. I was roaming around like a lost little puppy. I was beginning to think that someone actually stole my car. I finally located it.

I know, nothing really over the top to report, but it was a nice day. And maybe that is worth writing about...................

Ramblings..............

Hello All,

Today I wore my new favorite sundress and went to the fair here in town. I had a nice time. Unfortunately the food wasn't all that, but whatever. I got to walk around in the sun, enjoy the entertainment and buy a few things.

While I was walking around, I caught a photographer snapping a couple of pictures of me. I acted like I didn't even notice. While I was watching the dancing on stage, he came over and introduced himself to me and said that he like the way I put myself together. He said that people here in the US don't dress up like they used to. I have to agree. It's kinda sad. I look at videos from my grandmothers' eras and really wish that people would still put effort into dressing up for going out. He got my e-mail address and will e-mail me the photos.

This wasn't the first time something like this happened to me. When I worked at Enterprise a couple of year ago, one of my customers asked me if he could take my picture. I let him and he came back and gave me copies of the shots. I still have them.

I did get a free henna tattoo. It will fade in a week or two. It is on my left hand and kinda exotic looking.

I also bought an interesting pair of wooden shoes and a nice Indian top. Both for cheap. I also managed to find a bracelet to fit my small wrist. It was cute and cheap. I was happy.

All in all, a nice day. I invited a couple of people to come out with me. Both had other plans. I was glad that I ended up going alone. Sometimes I just prefer my own company to that of others.

What else.................................

I was reading The Best Of Craigs List and I came across with this post.

http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/sea/90160572.html

I couldn't agree with this woman more. This is the type of woman I am in a relationship. Basically she is adressing the fact that some men get all bent out of shape when a woman asks that he is "financially secure." They instantly read "gold digger" or get upset that a woman even considers his financial situation.

Well, I am the same as this woman. While I look at the character of the man first and decide if he has integrity or not, I also want to know if he is financially secure.

This does not mean that I want his money. It just means that I want a man on the same level as me, and I will be making good money after I finish the rest of my education. It also means that I want a man that can take care of himself (and doesn't need to mooch off me). It also means that I want a man that has his shit together and is financially responsible because I am the same way and have worked so hard to keep my record clean.

I have always wanted to write a post like that, but this woman beat me to it a couple of years earlier. This woman has integrity and the man she marries is a lucky guy.

Interesting Survey I Just Could Not Resist

What would you take from your house if you knew it would be flooded tommorow: IF I KNEW MY HOUSE WOULD BE FLOODED TOMMOROW, I WOULD SPEND THE WHOLE DAY TODAY PACKING UP MY SHIT AND HAULING IT ALL SOMEWHERE SAFE. AT LEAST IN THIS HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION I KNOW I HAVE UNTIL TOMORROW, LOL
Customize your own flag, with things on it that represent you:: MY FLAG IS SIMPLY THE AMERICAN FLAG
If you could erase anything you ever said to anyone, what would it be? NOTHING REALLY COMES TO MIND RIGHT NOW
Your stuck in a room for an hour with a chalk board, what do you draw on it PROBABLY WRITE MY NAME IN DIFFERENT PRINTS, MAYBE HEARTS BECAUSE THAT IS ALL I CAN REALLY DRAW
Your theme song is called? I DON'T REALLY HAVE ONE
If your life was a movie, what category would it be in? (horror, Romance) IT WOULD BE A FOREIGN COMEDY
Something you wish to accomplish before the end of the year:: JUST FINISH MY CLASSES AND GET BETTER JOB LEADS
How much does it take to make you laugh? NOT VERY MUCH
How many sheep do you want on your farm? LOL, I DON'T WANT A FARM
Which wizard of Oz character are you most like? DORTHY
You learn through mistakes, what mistake are you glad you made? (to learn) THE FINANCIAL MISTAKES, I MADE THEM WHILE I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT TO LOSE
Would you ever run naked in the rain with your love? NO WAY, KEEP THE NAKED STUFF IN THE BEDROOM, THANKUVERYMUCH
Do you think Giant anacondas really have a purpose on this earth? HAHA, SOME HUMANS DON'T REALLY HAVE A PURPOSE ON THIS EARTH, SO WHO AM I TO JUDGE THE ANACONDAS ?
Which is worse...15 pounds underweight or overweight? I WOULD RATHER BE 15 LBS UNDERWEIGHT
Do you like eating icecream out of the carton? I LOVE IT
Do you find it gross to share drinks with family or friends? DEPENDS ON THEIR HYGIENIC SITUATION
Does the world revolve around you? HAHA, THAT WOULD BE NICE, LOL
Is everyone equally important to the world? EVERYONE STARTS OFF THAT WAY, AT LEAST. BUT PEOPLE THAT DO DESPICABLE THINGS HAVE LESS VALUE IMHO.
Do some people truely not deserve to live? WHO AM I TO SAY WHO SHOULD LIVE AND WHO SHOULD DIE ?
If the world comes to an end...how do you think it will go? HOPEFULLY I'LL DIE PEACEFULLY IN THE PROCESS.
Will artifical intelligence help better or destroy the world?(think future) I THINK IT WILL DO BOTH GOOD AND BAD
How long does it take you to get out of bed in the morning? DEPENDS ON IF I HAVE AN EXAM OR NOT.
How important is it for us to find other planets, resources and life? IMPORTANT ENOUGH
What do you think well use other planets for in the future? LIVING ON, WE'LL PROBABLY TRY TO CONQUER THEM
Do you think emptying our trash, pollution, and waste on the moon is okay? IF THAT IS OUR ONLY OPTION
What do you think about california? I LOVE IT HERE
Is it important to you to always stay(live) close to family? VERY IMPORTANT
Why are slasher films entertaining? CHEESY MUSIC AND BAD ACTING ? I DUNNO, I DON'T WATCH THEM
Do you think it would be a good idea if we rebirthed dinosaurs? NO EFFING WAY !!
What do you think about tennesee? IT'S A STATE I DON'T INTEND TO VISIT
What kind of animal do you think the world could live without? RATS
If someone invented glasses that can see through things, would you buy it? TOTALLY
If you were a spider where would you crawl away and live? IN A CHOCOLATE FACTORY, LOL
What do you think about pop ups? Is there a way to get rid of them? YES, BUY A MAC ?
Would you prefer to be emotionless, so you didn't have to feel a heartbreak. HEARTBREAK IS GUTWRENCHING, BUT NOT SO BAD THAT I WANT TO BE EMOTIONLESS
When you die, and if you become an angel, who will you watch over? FAMILY AND FRIENDS
If when you die, you become a ghost, would you try to contact your loved 1s YES
Would you want to haunt anyone? Who ? NO ONE IN PARTICULAR, ALTHOUGH I AM SURE I COULD THINK OF A FEW PEOPLE IN A FEW MINUTES
What does everyone live for? (could it be love)? I DUNNO, IT'S NOT MY DAY TO WATCH EVERYONE, LOL
Are emotions what make people Want to thrive and live? COULD BE, I LIVE FOR HAPPINESS
Is there a way to solve world hunger, that we are ignoring? YES, BUT DON'T MAKE ME CLIMB UP ON MY SOAPBOX
What was (gods)reason for our creation?What does he expect us to accomplish IF I KNEW THE ANSWER TO THIS I WOULD BE A HELL OF A LOT RICHER
What do you think should be added to planes? Vending machines? A PLACE FOR MOTHERS AND THEIR SCREAMING CHILDREN. SOLVE THAT AND I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT VENDING MACHINES OR MOVIES. I COULD EVEN SKIP A MEAL OR TWO.
Do you have a weak stomach for watching animals consume eachother? TOTALLY
Do you think its important to conserve the rainforrest? OF COURSE
Why do people move to Tornado country, when their homes will be destroyed? BECAUSE ITS CHEAPER LIVING THERE, OR THEY HAVE FAMILY OUT THERE
Will technology move us forward in life or take usback to the beggining? I THINK IT WILL MOVE US FORWARD SO FAST THAT WE MAY END UP AT THE BEGINNING FASTER
I know not what WWIII will be fought with, but WWIV wil be fought with sticks and stones. What do you think of this quote? I DON'T REALLY AGREE
Do you have any quotes of your own that you admire? THE QUOTE ON TOP OF MY BLOG " Life is a banquet and many poor suckers are starving." LIFE HAS MANY THINGS TO OFFER EVERYONE, BUT MANY PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE THE POTENTIAL THEY HAVE TO ENJOY LIFE. PEOPLE ALSO DON'T SEE THE BEAUTY BEFORE THEM.
If you could go back in time to the dinosaur era, would you take a visit? YES IF I WERE A T-REX SO I WOULDN'T HAVE ANY PREDATORS
Which Holiday pretend character do you wish really existed? (santa) THE EASTER BUNNY
If lepracans existed what would the world be like? I DON'T REALLY KNOW, ARE LEPRECHAUNS EVEN FRIENDLY ?
Mistakes help you learn, but is there some you regret making ? YES
Do you often make the same mistake twice? three times? constantly? SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO MAKE A MISTAKE MORE THAN ONCE BEFORE YOU LEARN.

Lazy Day

Hello There My Lovelies,

Today started out as a very lazy day. I slept in until 11am. Then I spent a few hours being addicted to playing solitaire on my iPod. Let me tell you, I am getting very good at that. I could play that all day if I wanted to. When I got my laptop a few years ago, one of the first things I did was delete off Solitaire. Otherwise I would not have graduated.

After that I decided to get my mail. In the mail, I got my dress that I special ordered from my favorite online store at www.stopstaringclothing.com. I blogged about it before.

I also had a nice juicy piece of steak. Before today the last time I had steak was in Barcelona, Spain, and over there they call it entrecot.

This piece of steak that I had today was done medium rare and it was nice and juicy. It totally hit the spot. I don't think that I could ever make it as a vegetarian.

Let me just also say that I am so thrilled to be out of school right now. I don't want to go back, lol. But I am so close to finishing the program.

Last Year This Time

Hello All,

Last year this day, I was so depressed out of my mind. I don't think that I had ever sunk that low. Nothing was going right for me and I felt so out of place in this world. I even blogged on this day last year. It was a short entry because I didn't know how to adequately express myself.

I remember going to my friend's bridal shower that day. I didn't want to go due to the way I was feeling, but I mustered up everything I had to attend because she was my best friend in college. While I was there, I looked at her and her successful life. She was so happy. She was going places in her career, and marrying a wonderful man. I watched her with her new sisters in law. I thought life was so unfair. I was happy for her, but I felt like I was dealt a shorter hand.

We were roommates in college and had goals for ourselves and that day I was so disappointed in myself. Why couldn't I get my life on track like that ? I was in debt and getting deeper, I had family problems, I felt trapped, my bosses at work were threatening me with my job, I had gained weight, my friends were busy and I felt isolated. I just felt so helpless. And I didn't know what to do. I had even stopped bellydancing.

And on the way home I got a nice fat speeding ticket. I told the officer I was speeding because I had to really go to the bathroom, but he didn't let me off. Everyone else around me sped, but he chose me.

I got home after that and just locked myself in my room and cried a lot. I didn't want to live like that. I think I even drank a little, which I normally never ever do. I didn't know what to do with myself at that point.

The next day after I woke up I felt a little better. I started my legal classes the following month in September. Once I poured my heart into my studies I felt better. A couple of months later, I got a volunteer position at a legal aid community service group and poured my heart into that. I got straight As and good recommendations out of it. Unfortunately I think I just got my first B in my legal Analysis class this summer.

I won't forget that day. It scares me still to think about it. I don't ever want to feel like that again.

This year has treated me differently. But it's not really the hand I was dealt. I have learned that it was my hard work and perseverance that got me out of it and back on my feet.

I still have a long way to go before I am living the life that I really want. But I am on my way. At least I am dancing again. I am almost done with my studies, and I have an internship with the Public Defender's office.

I know this is a depressing entry but I just had to say it. It's really important to remember where you were so you do everything you can not to end up back there.

Hello There My Lovelies,

Today is a lazy Sunday for me. I took a nice stroll downtown and looked at a couple of boutiques. It was nice.

I've been waking up at noon now ever since I got out of school. It has been such a relief to not have any homework. I can't tell you how nice it is.

Anyway, not much else to report.

63 Annoying Questions

1. Song that always makes you sad?: ADAM'S SONG BY BLINK 182
2. Last thing you bought?: GROCERIES FROM TARGET
3. Last person you argued with?: KAMAL, AND IT WAS INTERESTING
4. Do you put Butter before putting the jelly on?: TOTALLY
5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid?: I DON'T REMEMBER
6. Did you ever own at one time a Nysnc Cd?: YES
7. Favorite day of the week?: MONDAY
8. Favorite Sundae topping?: CHOCOLATE SYRUP
9. Did you take Piano lessons?: NO
10. Most frequent song played?: I LIKE IT BY MOBY
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?: RESCUE ME
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?: HOCKEY
13. Date someone older or younger?:OLDER
14. One place you could travel right now?: BARCELONA
15. Do you use umbrellas?: YES
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem?: NO
17. Favorite Cheese?: MOZZERELLA
18. Disturbed or My Chemical Romance?: PROB MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes?: BRUNETTES
20. Best job you ever had?: THE ONE I HAVE NOW
21. did you go to your high school prom?: OF COURSE
22. perfect time to wake up?: NOON, LOL
23. perfect time to go to bed?: AFTER MIDNIGHT
24. do you use your queen right away in chess? ..: I DON'T PLAY CHESS
25. Ever been in a car accident?: YES, A FEW
26. closer to mom or dad...or neither?: BOTH
27. what age is this exciting life over for you?: LOL, I HOPE IT'S NOT OVER SOON
28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?: THE NINETIES, WHICH I WAS
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?: I REALLY LIKE MY STEVE MADDEN RED CROCODILE PUMPS
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high schoo: I DON'T THINK SO ANYMORE, BUT PROBABLY
31. Were you in track and field?: NEGATIVO
32. Were you ever in a school talent show?: YES, IN COLLEGE
33. Have you ever written in a library book?:PROBABLY
34. Allergic to?: BAD DRIVERS
35. Favorite fruit?: APRICOTS, PEACHES, STRAWBERRIES
36. Have you watched sex and the city?: DUH !!!
37. Baseball hat or toque?: BASEBALL HAT
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap?: SOAP
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?: WET IT
40. Pen or pencil?: PEN
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?: I PLAYED THE SLOT MACHINE ONCE AND I ONLY PLAYED WITH ONE QUARTER, LOL
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?: NO
43. Have you thrown up in a car?: I DON'T RECALL
44. Have you thrown up at work?: YES, A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO
45. Do you scream on roller coasters?: YES
46. Who was your first prom date?: DOUG, A TOTAL FOX
47. Who was your first roommate?: IN COLLEGE, SANDY
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?: I GOT DRUNK FOR THE FIRST TIME PROLLY OFF MIDORI SOURS
49. What was your first job?: I WAS A DRIVE THRU WENCH AT JACK IN THE BOX
50. What was your first car?: 1993 FORD TEMPO IN AQUA
51. When did you go to your first funeral?: 2006 FOR MY OMA
52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?: 10
53. Who was your first grade teacher?: I FORGET
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?: PROLLY WHEN I WAS A BABY
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?: I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE
56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?: SHIRA IN HIGH SCHOOL AND WE ARE STILL GOOD FRIENDS
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house?: SAN JOSE STATE CAMPUS
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?: MY DAD
59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsme: ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS, CHRISTINA
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?: TAKE A NICE MORNING PISS
61. What was the first concert you attended?: THE BOO BOMD, LOL
62. First tattoo or piercing?: MY EARS
63. First celebrity crush?: TOM CRUISE

Totally Random Survey !!

Where do you go when you need to just get away? MY BEDROOM, I AM TOO BROKE TO ACTUALLY TAKE A VACATION

Do you believe everything happens for a reason? YES DO

Have you ever thought about moving far away and starting all over? I STARTED OVER THIS YEAR, BUT I STILL THINK ABOUT MOVING AWAY ALL THE TIME

Who is the one person you can always turn to? I DON'T HAVE ANYONE THAT I CAN ALWAYS TURN TO, I CAN TURN TO CERTAIN PEOPLE FOR CERTAIN THINGS

Have you ever won a raffle? NO :( 

Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? NOT A LARGE ONE 

Favorite school field trip as a kid? I LIKED CHUCKEE CHEESE

Have you ever square danced? I'VE CERTAINLY TRIED AND SUCKED AT IT

How far have you traveled up north? OREGON, LOL

How far south have you traveled?  SAN DIEGO, DIDN'T EVEN MAKE IT TO MEXICO

What flavor do you like on your wings? BBQ SAUCE 

Who do you wake up for in the morning?  ME

Who is the last person you took a picture with? CRAP, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER 

Do you think that Global Warming is happening? DUH !!

Have you or would you ever use and Ouija Board? I WOULD RATHER DIE, I DO BELIEVE THOSE THINGS ARE EVIL

Have you ever pretended you were happy around your friends but weren't? YES 

Where would you most like to visit? AMSTERDAM

Do you think your ex still likes you? I DON'T KNOW

Describe you ex in three words: NOT MY BOYFRIEND, LOL

Have you ever had a pet fish? YES, GOLD FISHES

Have you ever been home sick? ALL THE TIME WHEN I LIVED IN BARCELONA

Who do you want to win the 2008 presidential election? I AM STILL DECIDING

Do you know the Soulja Boy dance? NO

What is the craziest thing you've done with your best friend? I'VE DONE LOTS OF INTERESTING THINGS WITH MY FRIENDS, WHICH AREN'T REALLY WORTH MENTIONING HERE. BUT I DID EMBARASS MYSELF IN FRONT OF THE WAITER AT THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY WITH ASHLEIGH 

Who do you think is the most attractive celebrity? OH MY, I LIKE MICHAEL DENTON, I ALSO LIKE AMR DIAB, THE EGYPTIAN SINGER

When is the last time you went to Taco Bell? A LONG ASS TIME AGO

Have you ever licked a 9-volt battery? YES, A LONG TIME AGO. I MUST'VE REALLY BEEN BORED

Have you ever ordered from an infomercial? NEGATIVO 

Is there a message on your voice mail? YES, I SAVED MOST FROM MY DAD

Have you ever made a prank call before? YES, BEFORE CALLER ID WAS INVENTED

What's your favorite thing to do over the summer? GO SHOPPING FOR SUMMER CLOTHES, EAT OUTSIDE AT NICE RESTAURANTS, HAVE A POOL PARTY

How many jobs do you have? TWO, ALTHOUGH MY INTERNSHIP IS UNPAID

Don't you hate it when people smoke around you? IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME TOO MUCH

When was the saddest time in your life?  LAST YEAR

What is your favorite type of skiing? DOWNHILL

Who is your favorite family member and why? MY GRANDMOTHER

Do you like Chinese food? NEGATIVO

Would you ever be in the Peace Corps? I TOTALLY WOULD

Do you think you are better then everyone else? WHY WOULD I THINK SUCH A THING ?

Would you ever go on a camping trip without your cell phone? NO, WHAT IF I NEED TO CALL 911 ?

What I am Thankful For

Hello All,

Well, I guess that this is my first entry after my journal became private. I am listening to one of my favorite singers, Amr Diab. He is Egyptian and sings in Arabic. I used to dance to his music all the time. His voice makes me melt. This man makes me want to learn Arabic. I would love to travel to the Middle East some day. Of course I would travel with a man, I have heard stories about women that travel there alone. I would also dress very conservatively. I would love to travel to Lebanon, Egypt, Morocco and Turkey, maybe the UAE. I looked online and a flight to Beirut is over two grand on coach ! Ooh, here is a picture of who I love to dance to. This guy sings the best love songs. I looked up the translations and I guess love songs are better in languages other than English. Just my .02

Anyway, on another note all I really have to say is that I am so blessed to still be healthy. I am just happy that I am healthy and do not have to take any medications right now. I am also happy that my folks are both alive.

I don't know how much longer I have of living a healthy life. But I am so greatful for now and the healthy life I've been blessed to have. And God willing, I will be healthy in my old age. It was not a waste.

And yes, I am writing this for a reason. I got a wakeup call today that made me do some serious thinking. I know this entry is private, but I am still not ready to talk about it.

It's Finally Over

Hello There My Lovelies,

So I just got done taking my final in Legal Analysis. And I have no clue as to how I just did. The teacher had some pretty tricky questions. You know..... those questions that you know the answer to but it's worded in a way that you'll chose the wrong answer even though your train of thought is right.

I am kinda sad. I had a shot at getting an A in the class. But from today's exam I kinda doubt that. I can't feel too guilty though. What I studied was kinda different from the questions that appeared. It seemed that anything I was shaky on just happened to appear on my final. Just my luck.

Other than that I am just happy that I am out of school for the next month and a half and I'm free to go out and actually have some fun.

On another note, I was browsing Target for a new notebook for next quarter and saw the Trapper Keepers. I am a child of the eighties, remember those well. Trapper Keepers were the shit, lol. You were cool if you had one. And they were sold with a bunch of cool folders and pencils and things.

Now they just sell the binder. It's such a rip off. It's just an empty shell of a binder that is sold with the Trapper Keeper logo. What a disgrace.

Quick Entry Before Class

Hello All,

Okay, so today is August 4th. On this day I believe in 1942 Anne Frank and her family were discovered in the Secret Annex in Amsterdam and taken to the camps.

Miep Gies was the woman that hid the Franks. She is still alive today, and almost 100 !
She says that on this day, she closes the curtains, locks her door, and does not answer the phone all day. She uses the day to mourn the loss of her friends. She has been doing this for over 65 years.

She is such an incredible woman. I would give anything to have a chance to meet her. If it weren't for her, none of us would've read Anne Frank's diary.

I started reading the diary when I was in middle school. I read it again a few years ago after I bought another copy at the store at Mauthausen. I felt that I could understand her a lot more then than when I was in middle school.

I still want to visit Amsterdam very badly. When I start my career I will definitely save for it. I have never stopped dreaming about going to Amsterdam and visiting the Anne Frank House.

What most people don't realize is that Anne's real home before she moved into the Annex was on Merwedeplein 34 (I may have the wrong number). It is not open to the public, rather a safe haven for writers from other countries that come to avoid persecution. Last I heard, there was a writer from Algeria that stayed in the house. I wonder who is there now.

The last known footage of Anne Frank was her on the balcony of that house witnessing a new couple that had just gotten married.

Anyway, off to class for me. Finals are in two days.

Survey Whore Queen !! LOL

Who was the last person or object you shared beds with? I COULD TELL YOU, BUT THAT IS SO UNLADY LIKE, LOL

What was your last fight about and with who? A COWORKER AND HIM AND I WERE ARGUING ABOUT MEN IN GENERAL, LOL.

Do you consider yourself a neat freak? NO WAY

Do you have anyones clothes? JUST MY OWN

What's your relationship with the person you last texted? HE IS MY FRIEND

Do you have a fish tank? NEGATIVO

Last place you took a plane to? I FLEW TO SAN DIEGO

Would you tell a stranger if they had spinach in their teeth? YES

If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?  I DON'T KNOW

What is your preferred method of birth control? DON'T ASK ME SUCH QUESTIONS.......

Have you ever lied about your age? YES BUT IT WAS SO OBVIOUS I WAS LYING, LOL 

Ever had an encounter with the police? YES, LAST YEAR THEY PRACTICALLY BANGED DOWN MY DOOR TO LOOK FOR A HOMLESS PERSON CAMPING OUT IN MY BACK YARD 

Last time you went out of town? LAST CHRISTMAS TO SEE MY GRANDMA

Whose car were you in last? MINE

Who do you most look like in your family? MY MOMMA 

Have you kissed someone with braces? NO

Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong? NO 

Do you like to travel by plane? I USED TO UNTIL THE AIRLINES HAVE STARTED TAKING AWAY PRIVILEGES

Did you get enough sleep last night? YES

Have you ever made out in a bathroom? NO WAY, THAT IS SO DISGUSTING

Has anyone ever hung up on you? YES

Looking forward to something this weekend? OH TOTALLY, I HAVE TOMORROW NIGHT OFF

Has anyone smoked in your car? YES, IT WAS PREVIOUSLY OWNED, I CAN STILL SMELL IT 

Do you have any bruises? YES, FROM DANCE

Do you find piercings attractive? NOT ON MEN

Who was the last person you sat next to? MY CAR MECHANIC

What is the worst subject they teach at school? I NEVER ENJOYED MATH

If you had 100 dollars to spend on clothes, where would you go to shop? KOHLS

Do long distance relationships work? NOT IN MY OPINION

How do you earn money? DOING THESE SURVEYS, LOL

Where were you raised? IN A BARN

When was the last time you talked to your number 1? WHO IS MY NUMBER ONE, LOL. OH WAIT. I AM NOT ON MYSPACE !

What is on your bed right now? MY LAUNDRY THAT NEEDS TO BE PUT AWAY

Do you name your stuffed animals? LOL, NO WAY

What's the last sporting event you watched? ME NO LIKEY THE SPORTS

Ever collected unemployment? NO, AND I HOPE I DON'T EVER HAVE TO

Your parents tell you they're moving to Mexico: WELL, MY PARENTS ARE DIVORCED, SO IF THEY TOLD ME THAT I WOULD HAVE A LAUGH

Do you think you are an argumentative person? SOMETIMES

Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? ROTTWEILER

What jewelry do you wear all the time? I LIKE TO WEAR MY OMA'S JEWELRY

Have you ever had a difficult relationship? YES

Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs? HAHA, I DON'T EVEN TAKE DRUGS, LOL

Are your ears gauged? HAHA, WHAT DOES THIS MEAN ?

How did you feel when you woke up today? RESTED

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? AT THE MALL TODAY

Ever kissed someone who smokes? YES, I DON'T RECOMMEND IT

What do you usually do first in the morning? DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW ? OKAY, WELL SOMETIMES I LIKE TO ENJOY A NICE LONG MORNING FART. MOST OF THE TIME I GO TO THE BATHROOM TO EMPTY OUT THE CONTENTS FROM THE PREVIOUS DAY.

What are you doing tonight? THIS SURVEY

Very Interesting Day

Hello There All,

Okay, so my day started out fine. In fact it started out quite nicely because I got my Law and Order DVDs in the mail. Now I can hibernate and watch all the episodes while I eat decadent desserts :)

Plus I also received a nice settlement check in the mail. As you all know, I used to work at Enterprise Rent A Car, or ERAC for short. I like to call it ECRAP or EFUCK, because I sure feel like that they gave it to me real bad with no lube while I worked there. Two years of my life I can't get back.

Anyway, so last year I found out that there was a class action law suit against them. A couple of former employees decided to sue the company for allegedly making them work during their breaks. Allegedly my ass, lol. I know that they did this for a fact. So, to make a long story short, I got a piece of the settlement pie.

So I decided to deposit the check and go to the mall. As I was driving in to the parking lot, I accidentaly hit the curb, and immediately got a flat tire. Turns out, the tire was ripped and the rim was all busted up as well as the panel on the rim.

I called Roadside assistance through my insurance company and this guy comes out to change my tire. Usually when I call roadside I get a guy in a professional tow truck with tools and in uniform. LOL, not this time around. The guy I get is dressed kinda sloppy and comes in his own car, with his little girlfriend in tow. Whatever, I didn't care I just needed to get my tire changed and off to work.

The guy could not get all lugnuts off the rim, and busted one of them. But hey, you know what ? He tried and he was real polite and did what he could. As he was about to write me a receipt, this silver truck pulls in to park. She tries to park next to this nice Audi and ends up hitting it. Real bad dent job she gave it. I see her try to pull back out, so I walk towards her. When she saw that I was looking at her, she immediately pulled away. I bet she thought she was so lucky................

But what she didn't know was that I had lasik and I can easily read and memorize license plate numbers. I got the plate number and shouted it to the tow truck guy who wrote it down. I then called the police and made a report. When the guy came back out I gave him all the information. I felt bad for him, it was his sister's car.

As for that girl that hit the car, I hope that the cops show up at her door.

I did get my tire fixed, but it costed me a buttload of money since I had to replace the prettymuch the whole thing. It costed me almost all of my settlement check. I was kinda sad. :(  I also was a couple of hours late for work.

But at least I will be more careful as not to hit anymore curbs.............