Maybe you can relate?

Hello everyone,

I feel relieved because I just finished taking my BUS 139 exam, and it wasn't so bad

I don't mean to complain all the time, but I just have to admit that I have been feeling depressed for the past few weeks. Thankfully I am not actually depressed. I at least have energy and willpower to get through school and work. I can't help it. Basically I just don't really know what I want to do with my life, and I am not confident enough in my abilities to make it in the real world. To be able to make it, I've gotta be confident, and I feel like my confidence has been shot. There is a business dinner next week for business students where we get to talk to people from different businesses. We get to market ourselves and try to get a job. There may be marketing positions, but I wonder what's the point? I don't think that I want to sit in a desk all day for a living. I have a marketing internship right now, but I am not really interacting with a lot of people, and I am not implementing any strategies.I feel like my hand is being held. Before this position, I had a challenging position where I had to actually be in contact with suppliers and upload products on the company website. Though I wasn't into the company because it was a home-improvement store, it was still challenging. It was unpaid, so I thought that I had room to make mistakes. But my boss "let me go" because he felt that I couldn't handle it because I wasn't experienced enough. I will always resent him for that. I want to know that I can handle challenges.

I try to be positive and smile and tell myself that I shouldn't feel this way, but at the end of the day I still end up feeling like shit. I am gonna graduate in 3 months and still don't know where I fit in the world. In high school, I pictured myself being successful and knowing fully what I want out of life. And time has passed and I don't really have the answers. But at least I know that I am not alone in how I feel. I know that there are a lot of people out there my age with a future in front of them that feel like there is no way out.

There is no point in telling people how I feel. I get told : "Oh you'll be okay.You're gonna graduate soon." Plus, its not like I am terminally ill. I want to be happy right now, but I can't help feeling alone and unsure of myself.  Maybe you can relate, or if you're lucky you have no idea what I am thinking about.