Sunday, July 12, 2009

Brain Clutter

Hello There Lovelies,

I swear, I always have the wierdest dreams. Once in a while in my dreams I will visit the same place I have before in my dreams. I will sometimes find myself walking around in a house that I swear I've been to before. Nothing like I've seen in real life, but something I would recognize from a previous dream. And they aren't houses from a fantasy land. They are houses you would normally see around here.

Most of the time my dreams are not pleasant and I am more than happy to wake up. Aside from the nightmares, I usually have dreams where I run into people from the past I don't want to see, or people are ganging up on me and taunting me. Or I will have the occasional dream from my waitress past. You know that dream, where you are running ten tables all by yourself, you have the restaurant to yourself and everyone keeps demanding stuff all at once, and you keep forgetting to bring stuff to the table. Either that or I am on my way home and I realize I forgot to cash out.

I don't like to talk about the nightmares, as I was once told not to talk about your dreams after waking up. I am sure it is a spiritual belief somewhere, but I am also scared of verbalizing them into reality.

Last night, I dreamed that one of my friends turned on me for no reason at all. I owed her money for making a costume and she didn't even want to take the money. Then I go home to look in the mirror only to realize that I had somehow bleached my hair. It was chopped into a bob, and some of my roots were blonde, and some weren't and then some of the tips were blonde, and some weren't. It was wierd but somehow I ended up liking it.

Then I woke up.

Very occasionally I will have a nice dream where I am cleaning, and I reach down and there is a stack of $300. That or I am somehow finding tons of cash. Or I am going out with a great guy.

But I would give up all the good dreams to erase the bad ones.

3 comments:

Big Mark 243 said...

I believe in that, how thinking something bad actually makes it occur and become real if you say it.

Then there is the if you want it, proclaim it to the world school, which is why I journal. To claim and live the life I imagine.

Anywho, this was a cool entry to me.

Mike said...

Alright a non-manslations entry. Hey you can't get rid of something until you let it go. I always talk about everything to get rid of them. I haven't had a nightmare in 9 years now.

Mike said...

I enjoy the manslations I just enjoy your normal entries better.