Monday, July 13, 2009

Goddess

Today I tried out my new double veils that my friend made. I felt like a goddess. I also got new music from iTunes, so I danced to that as well. I had a nice work out session today. I don't know what I would do without Bellydance. It helps me tap into my feminine side, and it makes me feel more womanly. It is definitely a female dance.

Today I tried out the new music and took my veils for a spin. I am trying to work on spinning longer without getting too dizzy.Our next performance is in September so I am trying to come up with a routine and make it original. It's definitely good exercise.

On another note, I went to storage today to try to get rid of some of my stuff. I read in another blog (by Loving Annie btw) that she got rid of her old love letters from an old boyfriend. That she didn't need to hold on to that anymore. She's been holding on to it for years. I am a very sentimental person. I have every card and letter people have written to me since I was 15. Also I have a lot of keepsakes from when I was a child. A lot of pictures, a lot of things to remind me of who I was in the past, that remind me of my childhood.I went in storage today and realized that there is a lot of that that I can part with. If Loving Annie can get rid of something so deep like love letters, then surely I can part with the past that I am no longer a part of.

I did not have a normal life. When I look back, other than some of the fads we had in school and in society, it does not make me smile. When I was a child and a teen, all I wanted to do was turn 18 so I could take control over my life. I really didn't enjoy being a kid, and I just wanted to be an adult.

I held on to a lot of the stuff to remind me where I came from. I thought that I would want to go back and see how far I've come along. To see the progress in my life. What I didn't realize is that by holding on to that, it was also holding on to part of the pain I had too. I don't need that anymore.

2 comments:

* Ashleigh * said...

It is challenging to let go of sentimental things. I had a good purging about a year ago in which I finally let go of letters that were written to me over 10 years ago! I re-read most of the letters, remembered what I felt when I had received them, and where I had been since receiving them. Some were reminders of how much I have loved as well as how much I have been loved. Life is a ride!

Angela said...

I have always love you doing the double veils. You look so beautiful, graceful, mysterious, and I am very proud of you.

You have accomplished so much in your life already. Love you!